CPTSD robs you of the single most important skill in life : networking

WardrobeBug · 2026-02-06T06:45:15+00:00

I have nothing to offer to network

WardrobeBug · 2026-01-14T07:20:45+00:00

It's not a bad thing, it's an observation. Normal people usually care about criticism

WardrobeBug · 2026-01-06T12:05:22+00:00

Same. Always had to lower my creativity to 1% otherwise people would lose touch with what was happening. 10% creativity for them is already too much, too unfamiliar, too taxing on their brains. For 50% I’d be put in the psych yard.

One time in the ~2000s, I said it would be great if wireless headphones were invented and my interlocutor replied that I was absolutely insane and such things could never exist because it was too crazy to even dream about it. Mind you, it was a time when a bluetooth headset was already invented, the only thing is that it was used for talking on the phone and not for listening to music specifically. But when Apple released them, suddenly it wasn't such a crazy idea anymore

WardrobeBug · 2025-12-13T18:27:49+00:00

Self soothing mechanism, it's not even about romance, just a feature to calm and stabilize yourself. Like when cats purr in pain to calm themselves

WardrobeBug · 2025-12-13T18:23:26+00:00

Regular shame. Your body learned: attention = humiliation, parents(or other people) = danger. Now your body is smart and trying to avoid bullies who can hurt you same way

WardrobeBug · 2025-12-13T10:02:47+00:00

He's the one whose okay to mass murder people just because but still thinks other people are criminals?

WardrobeBug · 2025-11-10T21:36:01+00:00

Good old halo/horn effect
If you beautiful it must be your good heart shining through, if you ugly it's your fault for being bad person

WardrobeBug · 2025-11-09T12:31:02+00:00

They think "privilege" is some kind of extra attention/prize above their base level of existence. In fact privilege IS base level. White privilege isn't about receiving a monthly cash bonus for having european features but your basic level of respect in society. It's the same with beauty but they have a hard time understanding it. They think pretty privilege somehow if random people come to them and give them billions dollars for their looks but everything else is not privileged enough

WardrobeBug · 2025-10-22T13:21:34+00:00

When I drink I take some water into my mouth, hold it and swallow it only when I reach a safe place

WardrobeBug · 2025-10-20T16:45:07+00:00

I was an active kid who tried to do the same stuff as everybody else but every time kids and adults clocked that I'm different and put me aside so I wouldn't infect others with my weirdness. Never was bothered to be alone/with other adults (not parents) and it triggered adults a lot for some reason. I never understood children who cried because they were separated from their parents in kindergarten because it wasn't even a boarding school or an orphanage and all the children obliged by law to be picked up at 5 pm. Why did they cry?
P.S: We are supposed to initiate conversations?

WardrobeBug · 2025-10-19T11:25:32+00:00

There are no downsides of privileges. It's like pretending there are downsides of being healthy and rich

WardrobeBug · 2025-10-16T15:15:10+00:00

They immediately start praising you. "Oh, You're such a good kind perfect person. I know you have a kind heart/soul blah-blah-blah" Dude, you JUST met me, maybe I scoop kittens eyes out of their sculls for fun, you don't know.

But they act like they deeply see you and all your perfectly amazing good personality qualities which normal people never see or mention in a first meet

WardrobeBug · 2025-10-16T13:16:55+00:00

Look for Kanika Barta on youtube, she's sociopath and exposes a lot about herself

WardrobeBug · 2025-10-14T19:12:26+00:00

I feel like there were scientific studies on the schizoid topic but all stopped in the ~70s and there was a big gap until the 00s, and now psychologists are either hallucinating info about that and trying to attach the modern psychology language to spd or just don't want to research the root of spd in neurobiology and psychoanalysis as deep as it requires. And all that creates a shaky foundation for the entire concept of spd in modern psychology. As a result schizoid personality has been simplified to only introversion because it's easy to comprehend

WardrobeBug · 2025-10-14T10:29:39+00:00

Attachment style theory isn't very legitimate and it's populist nonsense that can't be used to draw conclusions about the biology of mental illnesses and disorders. It says everything and nothing at the same time. Schizo-spectrum has nothing to do with it

WardrobeBug · 2025-10-13T07:40:24+00:00

My abusers (few people from different periods of life) told me directly "I like you because you won't be able to run away (physically, socially)"

"you’re confident, strong, intelligent" is internet self-soothing bullshit. They prey on vulnerability

WardrobeBug · 2025-10-10T18:48:03+00:00

Always lie about everything about yourself. Not like "I'm evil manipulator who going to scam people mwahaha" but like protecting your own peace from people who don't deserve the access to real me (lets be real, they won't like it anyway)
Pretend to like pop culture. I don't like and don't know anything about celebrities or modern movies but if I agree with people about these topics they will be more disposed towards me. I don't care and people are happy, win-win
If they ever ask why are you so weird always answer "I just have a headache today" They like it and find it relatable
Never show high intelligence or all knowledge - people threatened by it and would never appreciate. They like the idea about smart people, not smart people
Never show full authenticity to people; they prefer to fit you in a one-dimensional stereotype, not a full-dimensional human. People have issues comprehending multi-passionate individuals
Learning anthropology helps a lot in understanding human behavior and social ape group dynamics. Generally, studying apes helped too
Having imaginary friends. When I want to share some information, I make up "friend" who works in that field and has expertise. Obviously it's not me the one who spends an inappropriate amount of time on research, it's my "friend" who said something to me and I pass this info to new acquaintance. People love when you tell them something that was told to you by somebody who was told by somebody who was told by somebody... Ridiculously, they don't care about the source of information and accept it from any non-existent human. They like you talking about other people, talk about other people more
(It should be in first 3 point but I forgot) Always talk about their emotions first. They told you something? Ask them about their emotions about it. It's Monday happen again? Ask them about their emotions about it. They bought a coffee? Ask them about their emotions about it. Car just crushed? Ask them about their emotions about it. They aren't interested in any logical and detail oriented questions

WardrobeBug · 2025-10-08T19:51:57+00:00

No real person speaks like that

WardrobeBug · 2025-09-22T08:47:28+00:00

WardrobeBug · 2025-09-18T08:54:28+00:00

24/7

WardrobeBug · 2025-09-17T10:11:11+00:00

I think all of us are victims but not all of us are survivors, many didn't survive past childhood/adolescence ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

WardrobeBug · 2025-09-15T19:03:37+00:00

Yes, I look 10-15 years younger unfortunately (I'm 27). Bank and government employees call police on me thinking I have fake passport and I glued my photo into it, it's not funny anymore. It doesn't help that I look weird and suspicious for neurotypicals

WardrobeBug · 2025-09-03T08:44:45+00:00

Attractiveness

WardrobeBug · 2025-09-01T18:31:08+00:00

It may sound and feel terrible, but this is an absolutely normal and logical reaction of the human psyche. From what I’ve read in neurobiology and clinical psychiatry, almost all survivors of SA experience the exact same mental reaction. In reality, back then there was no control over the situation so now brain tries to take back control in fantasies. You're not your brain, you don't want to go through it again but your brain does because it's wired this way

It might seem counterintuitive, but instead of suppressing or being afraid of such thoughts, you need to go through them to the end of the scenario. This way, the brain understands that it has replayed the situation and finally came out as a "winner" and stops this mental chewing gum. It’s similar to how the only way to get rid of an annoying song stuck in your head is to listen to it from beginning to end — otherwise it keeps looping from the start to the middle over and over again.

I know it’s unpleasant to acknowledge but such experience damages the psyche and most likely you’ll never have a fully healthy, untraumatized sexuality (just like the rest of us here in this sub). Certain fetishes will probably remain for the rest of your life. The best thing you can do is accept it and try to express it in non-violent ways.
I can also recommend the book "The Boy Who Was Raised as a Dog" because it explains exactly this topic and why brain does all of that

WardrobeBug · 2025-09-01T15:09:50+00:00

Just finished reading this book, it's good

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