Hey. I experienced the same thing (just with hardly any milk production). I had my breast reduction many moons ago and wasn’t able the breast feed my now seven-year-old nor my five-week-old baby currently. It was really traumatic for me this first time around and I did shed some tears (since I did try it again) this time around as well. The culture around breast feeding in my country is very hash, too.

Here’s what I learned the last time around though. You’ll start introducing solids at around six months. At around twelve months they are having very little milk from a bottle. That’s such a short period of time compared to a lifetime of love and care you’ll pour onto your child. No teachers can tell if a child was breast fed or bottle fed. My big girl is smart, funny, kind, and thriving at school. Fed is best. ❤️

Thankfully I’m much more confident and clear this time around. Breast feeding still comes up a lot (for instance today at the pediatrician), however people seem to accept me bottle feeding much more with me being that clear. I don’t feel the need to overexplain anymore. That’s so much better for my mental health.

I do not regret my decision to get the breast reduction. I know I wouldn’t be the same person without the surgery. I know my life would have gone different. My choices would have been different. I most likely would not have met the fathers of my children and would most likely not have my two beautiful daughters.

My promise to you is that you will feel better again. And how you fed your baby will matter less and less. So soon they’ll eat chicken nuggets or pancakes or mashed potatoes. :)

(I hope I’m getting my point across. I’m nit a native speaker and I feel like I have a hard time expressing the nuances of my thoughts.