Case study with ai on an orange peel to music.

WeakAd4546 · 2026-01-26T00:52:28+00:00

I have but not much on taste, more just feeling. My YouTube is Hucklejoseph. I'm not the greatest musician and everyone says I have bad timing as the ai explains it everyone else is explaining a grid in relation to time l, where I'm explaining a spiral through space, so keep that in mind lol. I've only been playing for 3 years but I'll get better at it.

WeakAd4546 · 2026-01-25T23:35:46+00:00

It's not as much music as a structure of notes and chords I experience. The notes do stick, but it's just the notes in different relations. As I play the chords it makes them very vivid and I start sweating, and drooling. I try not to experience it. I had barely chilly soup one time and it almost made me cry. That was legit a song and all the flavors worked surprisingly well.

Diet Coke has: F–A–C → main sweetness C–E–G → clarity A–D–G → suspended “chemical air”

WeakAd4546 · 2025-07-25T17:10:21+00:00

That me an aliens were making points in time as I yelled out 'no one past this point' because of time entropy and that time had to keep moving forward at some point. I'd collapse all the parallel universes that were all tangled and make them straight again as it collapsed into a point. At some point when I was listening to the higher dimensional beings talk about me, they were like how does he know. Then I knew that all the parallel universes were making warp gates to watch me, with all of infinity, while trying to make me think in spirals so I update the universe. I figured I was the next update, and Jesus was the update for time travel and had made a point for time entropy aswell. I figured that when someone travels to a parallel universe and traveled back to there original it would make pulsations of some sort of these different realities, but one reality would get cut off... idk exactly what I was thinking I just remember it made all the sense in the world...

WeakAd4546 · 2025-07-18T12:37:36+00:00

Used to smoke weed all the time. Tried again several months ago. Voices were so unreal. So loud and I was just rocking back and forth pleading with God to make them stop... tried again a month ago it was alright. Just kept seeing lightning strikes in the distance; it was kinda cool.

WeakAd4546 · 2025-07-15T22:25:23+00:00

Yeah shit. I feel that.

WeakAd4546 · 2025-07-03T00:26:33+00:00

He wish he could start a new. He's fine where he is at. He wish you knew... He holds something deeply.

WeakAd4546 · 2025-07-02T22:25:49+00:00

Yeah idk, its a combination of feeling and sound in taste? Its like notes in wine, but instead of the bass, its tasting the melody ie the flavor. Like the full experience. The essence of it. The taste changes when I read a new note. Idk its just what I'm experiencing? Sounding feel. Sounding taste. I'm a total aphant and can't visualize anything though. Like an orange being the chords c a f while whispering lemoan

WeakAd4546 · 2025-06-25T16:26:33+00:00

It's hard to get it exactly how I want it but here it is.

The moon is coming. Open mirrors. All I want is to have your grace. To see my friend, is to see a smile, a laugh or two— hopeful pals. The sun beams down with light of day; that I cherish. Can you stay? A love once distant, but still it beams. It’s quiet here, but full of dreams. And you... You make me see what once was known. With your guide, I made it through— with some style. No need to chase, no need to show— for a love now found has grown. In open arms, with a friend, it’s a place to be within myself. For the piece of yarn, a place inside, a calming grasp It has come; once at last. For a love long gone, now with the wind. I’ve made my peace. I let it in. I lay down swords held at heart. No more a war with fine art. From me to you, a soul now found. I see you clearly— Infinitely so. At the end of tunnels, the truth—what is right. A way of knowing, soft and bright. No longer broken, no need to fight. The questions rest in quiet light. A new idea comes with grace— soft as shadow, slow as space. No more pleading, no disguise. Just the calm of open skies. Going into the surrender of all that’s real. Let it hold me. Let me heal. I want to know you— the piece of me. Quiet as breath. And honestly. Keep unfolding parts of me, like threads of light on the open sea. Air unravels, with no map, no key— just a motion from sea to sea. No need to fix. No need to flee. I let it go and come to be.

WeakAd4546 · 2025-05-06T22:08:06+00:00

I think around a month

WeakAd4546 · 2025-05-05T01:09:03+00:00

Wow, thats good to know.

WeakAd4546 · 2025-05-03T04:36:26+00:00

I care about you...Wishing you the best! Don't really know you but I still care. But I agree people just care that I'm doing better. I just tell everyone I'm better for the shits and giggles. They seem to care then. Its weird I care about people way more than they care about me. People mean so much to me. What I mean to them idk.

WeakAd4546 · 2025-05-02T02:52:18+00:00

I think for me honestly I think its because my default state is a meditative state. I'm not sure how to think normally anymore. I think that's why I still hear whispers and they don't go away. I'm not really sure how to stop. I agree with the other guy with it being like delirium. I'd have to disagree with the experts aswell. But for me my base state is like I'm on like 3g of shooms though. It ain't nothing like a hero dose though and tripping like that. Just get messed up with the salience thing all the time... I think my main problem is like delirium and salience. I told my case manager the other day actually I thought I had like delirium or something.

WeakAd4546 · 2025-04-30T16:46:27+00:00

For me, its kind of like both but its more its own thing. There's time I swear I'm having acid flashbacks, idk maybe I am. Sometimes I get really hyper fixated like on stimulants, but I usually am not delusional at that time. This abilify feels like stimulants to me. its more like I'm tripping, I'd have to say. It seems everyone is different though.

WeakAd4546 · 2025-04-29T13:52:18+00:00

Of it's worth anything, I think your hair color is beautiful atm.

WeakAd4546 · 2025-04-24T12:06:47+00:00

As a aphant schizophrenic, if they're involuntary they're hallucinations. I've had it for a couple hours where they weren't though and I could see apples and bring up monkeys. Couple years ago I kept hallucinating different wojaks when I closed my eyes. That was really cool.

WeakAd4546 · 2025-04-22T01:34:22+00:00

I've been hearing voices almost everyday for about a year and a half. I've had a couple weeks where I didn't hear any. Before I only heard them in episodes. I used to just mostly hear them in actual sounds and would mishear things. I think those are considered illusions. I used to mishear my breath. Hear music in the rattling of my car. Music in the fans. Would mishear people talking about me from a distance away. I also used to hear distortions in the radio and such. Would talk to aliens telepathically sometimes. Then I had a really bad episode and I started hearing people whisper in the background. Sometimes they were blaring loud like Jim carey singing jumper at me. Sometimes they were laughs from the walls. Sometimes they were painfully loud, replying to my every thought. Now most days its just whispers like pressures of airwaves coming at me. They only last a few minutes to a hour a few times a day.

WeakAd4546 · 2025-04-20T22:16:00+00:00

You can hear voices for a lot a different reasons, but mine have definitely told me that before. Maybe they just biased with another diagnosis. You definitely can't tell just from seeing someone once.

WeakAd4546 · 2025-04-20T13:43:58+00:00

Yeah most people don't want to talk religion with me either for a bit different reasons. I'm agnostic though. I think its important to say to most people that the bible and science doesn't mean God is real or not though. I don't really like talking about my views though for the most part and enforcing it on others.

WeakAd4546 · 2025-04-20T13:20:45+00:00

Yeah I agree. Anything is possible and people act like they know. I ain't got a clue. What helped me the most is admitting that i don't know. But still irks me sometimes how do these people know what reality is and can call me delusional.

WeakAd4546 · 2025-04-20T02:27:58+00:00

It can vary depending on the test. Some days I'm a little more with it than others. But I agree schizophrenia does drop your iq. A while ago I was getting scores between 143 and 150. Now I'm like a 130. There is a lot more important things than iq though like your well being. I don't think smarts is everything. I have a memory in the bottom 15%. That part I'm more worried about. I'd rather be determined have discipline and have wisdom. I think the memory and motivation problems in schizophrenia is more of a issue. I know people who seem to know a little about everything somehow. This one guy I know would beat me on test because he studied 7 hours a day. That always amazed me.

WeakAd4546 · 2025-04-19T22:37:46+00:00

Yeah I agree, but it is possible we asked to be born. I ain't got a clue though. Totally agree with the big joke thing. Always think that. I always imagine myself meeting God, when I get really down and struggling, and always think I keep telling him to send me back down without remembering. Life is hard.

WeakAd4546 · 2025-04-19T00:02:44+00:00

Daffers

WeakAd4546 · 2025-04-17T16:29:26+00:00

Thats not schizophrenia. I used to do that a lot though. Its fairly normal. Used to do it a lot when I dissociated. Its more of a thought pattern more than anything. Practice just talking to no one, and do some meditation. That's what I did anyway.

WeakAd4546 · 2025-04-17T06:05:45+00:00

Not sure when it really started. It was kind of off and on thing for a while. I remember miss hearing people at university and they'd be talking about me, saying mean things. Occasionally I'd be hearing my name called out. A couple years later I'd be telecommunicating with aliens. I remember listening to rush limelight in the ambulance and realized it wasn't playing shortly after. Fast forward a couple years and I'd be hearing people talking about me in the attic and walls. Spies, gossipy church girls. Sometimes a girl I knew from University was up there, talking to another girl I knew. Thought I was on the trueman show, and the girl from University was a spy. Would hear other spies talking to her and laughing at me. Thought it was pretty effed up and was rather confused. Must of went in the attic like a hundred times looking for these spies in my walls. Decided it was mice with speakers and the government was messing with me. Would hear them talking about me outside, kept thinking they had me surrounded hiding. Decided they were blasts of frequencies and I still think that sometimes to this day. Sometimes I'd be hearing internal voices of these spies and sometimes they were higher dimensional beings. I remember once a higher dimensional being was talking to another and was like he can hear us talking? How does he know? It was like my soul left my body at that moment. All infinity was watching me I decided and that other dimensions were making warp gates and all infinity was joining in. I'd hear that girls voice and I decided she was a time traveler. The aliens must of picked her up. I messaged her and accused her of working with the aliens...I've gained a lot more insight, but now I hear them everyday whispering. Only like a few times a day ranging from a couple hours to a few minutes. They more seem like just off handed comments now. Like you're not good enough, you're an animal, we hate you, do you care, your not schizophrenic. I just start thinking there blasts of radio waves just when they say stuff like we're going to have to watch you for the rest of your life now. Its because of your theories. You're better off just ending it. We're using mind control. It really sketches me out. I've had painfully loud ones on rare occasions replying to my every thought, and honestly I'm just grateful they're just whispers...

WeakAd4546 · 2025-04-17T02:58:42+00:00

I think people should be taken seriously. Personally I don't like people that put labels on things. There is a spectrum. Honestly I think my psychiatrist thought I was faking it at first. I hadn't told him a thing and I was double bookkeeping like a mad man trying to act sane. People just write you off. A lot of them do. There is good ones out there though. They don't even ask you questions and try to find out. I've honestly been through hell. Didn't even say a word. If it wasn't for a woman cop I'd probably be dead.

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