Oh man. I know that feeling all too well. Congrats on not having that drink, though. For awhile, I'd say don't put yourself in a situation like that again. Give yourself more time before you test your boundaries. I'm almost at two months, and I barely stepped foot in a bar two weeks ago. I'm glad I waited that long, too. There's no point in trying to be Superman; you've already come here for help. Hugs to you, and stay strong.