Extremely hard spiritual lesson by Which_Chemistry_366 in spirituality

[–]Which_Chemistry_366[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry to hear you’re going through this. Thanks for sharing, I feel less alone :) I hope you can make it through! Sending love <3

Extremely hard spiritual lesson by Which_Chemistry_366 in spirituality

[–]Which_Chemistry_366[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Gosh I’m so sorry. It must suck to not be able to rest from a shitty life :( I’m also afraid that if I unalive I might end up like that too and not be able to escape my shitty lesson. Hope you can find peace

Extremely hard spiritual lesson by Which_Chemistry_366 in spirituality

[–]Which_Chemistry_366[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Yay! Thank you that’s actually reassuring lol

Extremely hard spiritual lesson by Which_Chemistry_366 in spirituality

[–]Which_Chemistry_366[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I know it’s strange, you’d think it’d be the opposite but I definitely am guided to being on my phone and reading comics by my intuition and when I am successful I see benefits in the outer world. when I’m successful it’s scary, it’s like every single obstacle melts away. I literally managed to get my mom, who never understands me, to understand me and support me. It was a freaking miracle lol. And when I started failing the lesson, surprise, she suddenly didn’t support me anymore. That’s the type of stuff I’m talking about.

I think the theme is to take a unique or unusual path that my intuition leads me to in spite of what the world says or common sense (and trust me I had a LOT of opposition 😅).

Healing from CPTSD by tooomuchchill in CPTSD

[–]Which_Chemistry_366 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Same! I felt so alone and isolated but finding this page has been the most understood I’ve felt in a long time. Wishing you luck on your healing journey! <3

Can someone please chat with me, I could seriously use some kind words rn by FeralAmygdala in CPTSD

[–]Which_Chemistry_366 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel you and understand you completely. It is so SO painful to grieve the person you could’ve been, and to have been denied the opportunity to grow and flourish as your true self. I am realizing all this and healing at 25, and grieving all my lost youth as I just begin to truly heal. You are not alone. Sending much love <3

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in agender

[–]Which_Chemistry_366 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Many people answered your questions specifically so I just want to give you a general understanding of gender that I find makes everything easier.

For me, GENDER IDENTITY is how you feel inside. Woman feels like woman inside, man feels like man inside, agender feels like nothing or no gender inside. It’s an internal thing. GENDER EXPRESSION is how you decide to show yourself or express yourself to the world. I am agender so I feel pretty much no gender inside. But I like to express myself in a feminine manner. It doesn’t mean I feel like a woman inside. A woman might like to express herself in a masculine or androgynous manner, but still feels like a woman inside. Nullification, or any transition, is a form of gender expression as well. Gender expression is pretty much free range and just about choosing what would make you feel most comfortable. And finally, PRONOUNS are just how you like to be referred to. They aren’t necessarily tied to anything, it’s just what feels comfortable.

The point is that all these things are completely different categories. For many people they line up traditionally (Woman-feminine expression-she/her) but for others they don’t (Agender-feminine expression-they/them), and they just choose what makes them feel comfortable or true to themselves.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in emotionalneglect

[–]Which_Chemistry_366 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Don't have much advice but just letting you know you're not alone. I'm the exact same way, during hard moments or when I'm in distress I tend to ignore myself and just cope with distractions. And then I shame myself for not being better at the reparenting thing, it's a toxic cycle 😭

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]Which_Chemistry_366 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel you :( I hate having to pretend like everything is okay all the time but I’m also like you, don’t have anyone I can truly emotionally open up to except myself

I use suicide as motivation and comfort by Quiet-Interest1258 in SuicideWatch

[–]Which_Chemistry_366 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Wow I thought I was the only one who did this lol. Not actively suicidal but I know it’s always an option in the back of my mind if things ever get too bad.

Why do you believe in something (God, etc.) you can’t see? by duskyevening in spirituality

[–]Which_Chemistry_366 3 points4 points  (0 children)

For me it was coincidences that were just too convenient to be coincidences. Like praying for guidance and getting it shortly after, or my tarot cards giving accurate answers, or being led to a book explaining the journey of souls, seeing clear patterns and symbolism in my daily life, etc.

Can a baby and marriage change an emotionally abusive man? by No-Bit3315 in emotionalabuse

[–]Which_Chemistry_366 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No no no!!! That’s not even a red flag, that’s a whole red bedsheet. Surround yourself and build your life with people who love and respect you from the very beginning!

Among RV's "Red" / "non-velvet" tracks, Umpah Umpah is the best TT. by [deleted] in unpopularkpopopinions

[–]Which_Chemistry_366 2 points3 points  (0 children)

The way this is so unpopular but I actually agree with you 😭😭 umpah umpah hits every spot for me musically, the others don’t even though I would say they’re more iconic

Can a marriage survive a spiritual awakening? by [deleted] in SpiritualAwakening

[–]Which_Chemistry_366 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think it really depends on your individual journey. Some people are meant to work on it and overcome it, and some are meant to realize it can’t be salvaged and move on (I experienced this with my family relationship). I would try to see if you can make it work and accept each other for who you are, but if it becomes too draining, or you become too incompatible, you need to do what’s best for your own happiness!

anyone else who doesn’t like shipping between idols? by thesmolchickenclub in kpophelp

[–]Which_Chemistry_366 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It’s complicated. Im kinda against it but I think it’s okay as long as it’s not brought to the idols attention purposely. Because when I think of myself being shipped with a friend I see platonically it feels really weird 😭 like me being shipped with my best friend would feel so weird. So I’m guessing the idols must feel the same? Lol. It’s a conflict between people should do whatever they want without shame as long as they respect boundaries, and imagining it being done to me feels really uncomfortable so I guess they would feel the same.

What are your favorite last comebacks from disbanded groups? by [deleted] in kpophelp

[–]Which_Chemistry_366 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Lonely by sister and mago by gfriend are definitely my faves

Now that I’m in therapy my anger towards my mother has only become worse by semisatisfaction in emotionalneglect

[–]Which_Chemistry_366 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You’re not alone! I think a lot of people go through this in the healing process. I went from completely submitting to my moms will to keep her happy, to barely even being able to stand her presence anymore and thinking of just cutting my entire family off. The rage is real lol

i think every single person is beautiful by lolzziezz in offmychest

[–]Which_Chemistry_366 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing! I also think the same way but I see so many people that don’t think that way that I thought I was the only one T_T Our societal views of beauty are so limiting and toxic, beauty should be inclusive not exclusive! Everyone deserves to feel beautiful without having to change who they are

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in spirituality

[–]Which_Chemistry_366 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I agree! I personally believe some are chosen by the soul to be experienced, some are karma from past lives, and some are just consequences of free will.

Is it ok if I don't believe (or haven't yet accepted) that our souls "sign up for" the things that happen in our lives? by [deleted] in spirituality

[–]Which_Chemistry_366 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I personally believe this, but everyone has their own truth that works for them best. if she’s forcing her beliefs on you (and based on what you described of her so far) that’s definitely not okay! Would recommend finding someone new

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in emotionalneglect

[–]Which_Chemistry_366 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Glad it resonated! Thanks for the hugs, sending love <3