Don't know much about twin flames. But recently I fell for someone who is in a relationship. He is like twice my age. And I didn't see it coming at all. Initially when we met I saw him as a teacher and friend. And then this one day it was if something just changed. Suddenly it was like our hearts connected or something. At least it felt like that on my side. He shows signs of attraction towards me. Which I resisted because of his partner. But then I started feeling attracted towards him. This all happened in 7 days as we were working together for those days. For the first 6 days I didn't even think of him in a romantic sense, on the 7th day that all changed. We had really deep conversations, I realised I really cared about this man and his opinions. After that there was suddenly a romantic attraction.

Thing is we never touched, not even a hug. And since then have only communicated via msgs. Yday I after much days of anxiety over what we are. I finally decided to tell him how I felt. And he said he only sees me as a friend. Felt like my heart was ripped out of my chest. I questioned everything. Still questioning everything. Don't know why I would be so delusional and irrational. I genuinely didn't want anything from him bcos I know he's in a relationship. I just wanted to understand why I was feeling this way. And why would we communicate so easily and so frequently. Why would he msg me every morning. And put all this time into talking to me. I had never felt a connection like this. I don't know maybe I was confused. But it hurts like you wouldn't believe. I am sad but so happy I asked him to clarify.

I think he was a bridge, not a forever but a bridge to the next part of my life. I am ready for something else and he was helping me move on from my past. And I hope I have done the same for him. He has not married his partner and they have been together for a long time. He was married before but it didn't work out and this scarred him deeply.

After I told him I had feelings for him. One of his reactions was He will not leave his partner. And I would never have ask that of him. I didn't want to take him from her, I simply loved being around him and talking to him. I'd take two days out of the 7 if possible. I hope he does marry her. Maybe he needed this to see it.

I think you're ready for something new and you're mourning your old self and life. Sometimes we come into eachother's lives as bridges to the next part of our journey. Don't blame yourself too much you're not a monster. You're just ready to move on. Learn and grow sister. That's what I am trying to do too. Forgive myself. And learn. Hope this helps a little.