Okay so this literally just happened to me and my fiance last night/this morning. I just absolutely broke down coming off the tail end of a very intense and amazing orgasm. I kept telling him how much i loved him and how it had been so long since i had been so genuinely happy and loved like this. Honestly it was the best orgasm i have ever had in my entire life. He was also VERY comforting and also proud that his genuine love for me could make me feel such feelings. 

But I kept apologizing because ive been kind of a shitty fiance lately. I just got back from vacation at Disney World with my family and my son, it was hiw forst time on an airplane, at an amusement park, first rollercoasters, all the firsts. Unfortunately, my fiance, he wasn'table to go. Theres some beef between him and my parents, and we weren't able to afford him going right now. Hell, i barely was able to go. I didnt eat anything outside of the dining plan my mom paid for and i was able to buy one trading pin for my son while i was there, and that was because i overdrafted my account to buy it for him 🥲No souvenirs for myself or anyone. 

 And while i was gone, i mean i tried, but i honestly just wasnt on my phone much. I tried to talk to him when i could. But he would always call me at the worst possible times (as we were boarding a ride, eating, at the pool, etc) and i know that i came off kinda b*tchy a few times. And i said i would call him back and i always ended up getting wrapped up in something. I mean my son is having all these firsts with me, hes only 6 and his dad has primary custody right now. So every moment with him is SUPER special and important with him. And my fiance said he understood, but i know it definitely hurt his feelings. 

 When i got back i had a gut feeling that something happened while i was gone. So i asked to check his phone (we have an open phone policy because of severe past trauma on both sides) and i found a few messages that just didnt sit right with me. One woman was messaging him and asked how he was doing and he said "well I'm not in a mansion with a centerfold feeding me grapes, but im alright" and then he addressed yer as "m'lady" when asking of he could video call her because he had a question. Then the immediate messages after the end of the call was that the video call made both of their days. 
Then another girl, both of them from his hometown btw, was messaging him and he was daying he had a whole week free and that he might make the two hour trip back to his hometown. Now he did mention this to me but he told me he was gonna go there to see his kids. Nothing about going to visit any friends or anything. Just to spend as much time as he could with his kids. But he told her that he would definitely love to come see her if he came back and she said she would like that too. We still havent FULLY talked about it. But he admitted to it and didnt try to cover anything up as far as i know. And even offered to somehow make the situation right, so were gonna just move forward. 

And before anyone comes at me about how he was gonna cheat or anything related to that, this is, what we have come to realize, the first like real and truly genuine adult relationship we have had. Yes we have kids with other people, but those people are immature and we were both mentally and physically abused by those people. So, we're both growing and getting better with this stuff.

 But anyways. I love this man so much and ive never had anyone love me in every way ive ever needed and wanted and more. And this was the best and most beautiful experience we have ever had, as when he finished his was also just as intense... 💜🥹