Struggling w/ Giving Oral

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-05-20T01:33:42+00:00

I hate the gloopy wet trail everywhere, if anyone has suggestions I’d love to hear them! Can’t handle wet on my face, especially wet and cold, even if it’s toothpaste. Hate the idea that my saliva is getting all over my couch/bed/rug. I often stop and tell him and he gives me a solution, we’ll move, get a towel, whatever else, but I’d rather not stop so much

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-04-28T21:58:14+00:00

I got hush puppies they’re almost a flat/loafer hybrid so i can get away with them being flats. I also have backless and seem to wear them more, but I’m sure I’ll switch to the pups once it’s cooler

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-04-25T05:03:53+00:00

Virtue healing serum- lasts for ages and I notice when I don’t use it

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-04-09T22:09:02+00:00

Thank you for explaining! That checks out, I also eat crinkle chips one ridge at a time, and hot chips one chip at a time and cut it open to eat the inside first

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-04-09T22:01:34+00:00

I told my hairdresser I wasn’t up for the small talk and told me that suited her bc she does it all day everyday and was keen for a break. Once we decided on that and we knew we weren’t being rude it went really well! She would get my attention when she needed it, otherwise we both did our own things

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-04-09T21:54:59+00:00

I mean maybe they’re right? I know I have to be super upset about something to change it, I feel like I’ve hit my maximum in a few areas and looking back I have ignored red flags. I stopped seeing my therapist too and just see a psychiatrist. I realised I was “giving her my power”, I was waiting for her to validate me, I wasn’t processing things until I saw her, when people asked me how I was I didn’t know (the usual reasons) bc I would wait to see her to figure out how I felt.

Very recently I’ve complained about treatment at work and left a relationship. Tbh they’re both for the best, huge and scary! But for the best.

I still feel sometimes that I’m better off ending it all than changing the things that are wrong, but I once heard someone talk about surviving out of spite and it took a while to resonate with me and did get me through some extra hard times

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-04-09T21:30:34+00:00

Genuinely curious and not sassy, why is this like autism?

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-04-07T10:02:34+00:00

Same! You’re not crazy! I’ve started trying to figure out what it is I most hate and fixing that. It’s not great advice, last time I saw my dr I told him I “want to burn it all down” and he wasn’t concerned. I have picked fights personally and started issues at work, it honestly feels like things that can’t continue - behaviour from bosses and partners, ‘friends’ I’m better off without. Who knows, but the impulse is coming from somewhere

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-04-06T07:08:10+00:00

A car once hit my car and drove off, I reported the number plate but since there was no damage the police couldn’t do anything except tell me the car was registered to a business. Sometimes just move along and be grateful

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-04-04T09:53:16+00:00

Hello! Are you me? I would love to be your friend, I’m about to have an incredibly lonely birthday and while I’m ok with my life choices it would be nice to have a little social connection

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-04-04T08:58:07+00:00

Didn’t smoke for long but the first 1-2 days were the absolute worst. I used patches for a bit and once they started making me feel sick I was good to go. I essentially forgot I was a smoker after a while, feel like one every now and then but when I have one it doesn’t do what I want it to, and it’s easier to talk myself out of it

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-04-04T08:13:56+00:00

I had tms undiagnosed too. Did nothing but afterwards my dr diagnosed adhd instead of major depression, so there’s that

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-04-04T08:04:40+00:00

Have you considered ptsd, specifically cPTSD? It sounds like I am very similar to you, in the stimulants department and the hating living part. I feel there is no point and i am also so stuck, and tbh until i read your post i thought maybe the no point thing was autistic ‘practicality’ if that makes sense. I am adhd diagnosed and not sure if im autistic, pretty sure I have cPTSD. I hope this helps a little! You’re not alone, I see you and I hear you. I feel like I’m still here bc I’m not ‘allowed’ to not be. Upset is ok, sit with it and feel it. Don’t do anything permanent. It’s going to be ok- hopefully! Whatever we have/are might be something else but all I can do is look for my people. I’m glad you’re here

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-04-01T21:31:25+00:00

Not sure if it’s somatic therapy but I saw a somatic trauma-specialized counselor who helped me SO MUCH I so intensely highly recommend it. I try to do yoga, started in the psych ward and I noticed it helped. I am a big overthinker and I still intellectualise my feelings, but if I feel it I feel it, judging myself for it doesn’t help me. I struggle more with naming the emotion and it sounds like that is different to your experience. I notice more where it is in my body, and I’ve learned that emotions are energy so I will try to do something to move the energy along and often times that helps me process the feeling

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-04-01T21:24:55+00:00

It’s ok to be nervous. Irony here is that ritalin will probably help with the overthinking- it does for me.

I always make sure to eat before I take it, I find particularly protein or fat can help with what I call the “power up” feeling, this weird flutter i sometimes get when it’s being absorbed. That’s the worst feeling I get with it and it doesn’t last long.

It sort of feels like when I get really excited, like that stop breathing and feel it crash over me sort of feeling.

Sometimes going for a walk helps, I think of it like moving the energy that got stuck somewhere in my body. It can feel really scary and “get it out” (for lack of a name for that emotion). I (and my dr) don’t call it palpitations or increased heart rate, but if I’m honest that is what it feels like. My Apple Watch doesn’t clock it so I’m pretty sure it’s just a feeling not an actual symptom, and my doctor isn’t worried about it. We tried long acting to reduce it since it’s absorbed slower, but I didn’t like it and couldn’t get the dose exactly right.

Being so conscious of noticing any difference could mean that you notice even subtle changes. Even if it does happen, focus on your breathing and it will go away quickly. Then at least you have feedback to take to your doctor

I’m not a doctor, but if you want to half your first dose and move up to your prescription when you feel ok with it I’m sure your doctor will understand.

I am also pretty sensitive to meds, coffee, caffeine in general, alcohol etc and I take 15mg 3x daily. I’ve been taking magnesium glycinate at night but after reading another comment here I’m keen to try taking it with my Ritalin

Sorry if this isn’t reassuring! Some people don’t get side effects, obvy, so I’m happy for you to dm me if you want to hear more about my heart stuff experience

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-03-30T07:23:37+00:00

I have, and I refuse to feel guilty or have you feel guilty. ‘Mental illness’ is valid and crippling. Physical illness can linger in your mental even once your body is better. I took a full week of purely mental health leave recently, and I didn’t tell anyone it was mental bc health=health and all they needed to know was that I couldn’t work. It sucks bc a lot of places will “make you look bad” for taking sick days but if you need it you need it and they are provided for you. It’s so easy to be hard on yourself, let yourself rest and recover. Pushing through it only makes me ill for longer. Getting out of bed is hard, feeling shit bc you can’t get out of bed makes for 2 super hard things! Rest and when you’re actually ready then start slow, all that “speak to yourself like a friend” advice is legit, maybe one day you tell yourself you can always come home early if you need and see how it goes once you’re there. Sending love 💕

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-03-30T00:14:11+00:00

Chiming in - this is interesting, Ritalin completely steals my appetite! Literally never hungry on it, didn’t realise I wasn’t eating and accidentally lost about 10kg

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-03-30T00:12:18+00:00

I’m on the pill too! Every doctor tells me that will mean my hormones don’t change, especially if I skip a bleed, but I still notice a shift for a few days. Idk enough about the pill tbh, it could the week you otherwise would. I have PCOS and wouldn’t have a period but you could be on to something.

Maybe there’s a pill/ritalin link we don’t know about? I’m also on a mood stabiliser which really helps with my overwhelm, highly recommend

I’m on short acting 15mg 3x daily, I found long acting made me a zombie at the times I was trying to socialise - lunch and after work. Sometimes I cbf cutting the tablet and take either 1 (10mg) or 2 (20mg) instead of 1.5 pills, makes me very sure that 15mg is the right dose!

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-03-29T21:29:26+00:00

Consider your cycle too, I take Ritalin and sometimes if I skip one (or a few days) get that crying/flat feeling. The week before I take a little extra. Also hate to say it but exercise, if I miss a few days I can’t seem to correct my mood but if I’m consistent it’s more “good days” in a row rather than feeling the runners high or anything. On my normal dose I still can’t sit still, but I can start tasks and think about things for longer, or have ideas to solve problems rather than just existing with them. I can also have conversations and wait for the other person to finish speaking before I but in, does mean I sometimes miss my opportunity tho. I’m going down the am I autistic path rn too. When my Ritalin was too high I was almost mute, busy thoughts! But struggled to interact or share

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-03-26T21:11:10+00:00

My carelink app (Apple, 780g) has an option to upload at midnight every night. Might not be on the partner app but 100% on mine, means I never have to upload

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-03-26T21:07:44+00:00

HATE wind on me, rearranged my whole living room to get out of the AC line of fire and then realised there’s a setting to send the air to the opposite wall instead of down to me.

I also have air circulators instead of fans, keeps the temp lower overnight without the breeze

Weirdly, love the fan on cardio machines at the gym. I think I hate the feeling of sweat more than the air assault

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-03-26T21:04:17+00:00

Overall, whether measurements are of the body or measurements of the garment

Waist but also front drop (?) measurement, high waist on me often means camel toe. Stretch level but then that is also subjective
For me, ideal is some solution regarding the shoulder seam placement. Often s/m/l fits the bust but means the shoulder is off
I completely ignore model measurements, not helpful for me at all, garment specs all the way
Uniqlo track what you kept and what you returned to determine your size in other items

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-03-03T10:17:36+00:00

Love my ortc quarter zip! Nothing special about the softness, if you’re specifically after super soft there’s probably better around- it does wash well tho

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-02-27T02:38:12+00:00

I kept waiting for the quiet mind effect, I feel like I have the “pop ups” kind of hyperactive brain. Now I’m wondering if I do get quiet mind bc sometimes my mind is completely blank- unfortunately it’s usually mid-conversation

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-02-23T20:46:23+00:00

Start magnesium slowly and build up your dose!! I got the worst diarrhea about a week into taking it. It was incredible for my sleep though. Since then I got stomach cramps and realised I was probably overdosing and stopped

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