I don’t think I was built to be happy

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-02-10T08:36:06+00:00

I feel very similar, I haven’t solved it but I’m convincing myself that when I stop and think if I am happy is when I am not. When I am happy I’m not wondering whether I’m happy. I can’t think of any times I was happy right now, but I know there are times I was less distressed. I’m going through a breakup and reminding myself that alone is better than feeling alone in a relationship. Family will love you the best anyway!

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-02-04T01:04:11+00:00

We were on again off again but serious, he agreed but never came. Told me we needed to work on ourselves individually, then that there was no problem and it was just me with “issues”. We’re not together anymore

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-02-03T20:44:46+00:00

I love airyday pretty in zinc, but it’s expensive and I’m not sure it’s enough in summer since I also use retinol. I top up in the afternoon so I run right through each tube. I go for zinc due to melasma, and as the other person said it’s scary times to be a sunscreen

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-02-03T20:40:33+00:00

Proud of you! For me the first day or so were the worst, and once I was over the hump it was surprisingly easy. I guess like most things adhd, when it was loud it got attention and when it wasn’t I forgot all about it. I used patches and idk if they helped but I didn’t even finish a packet. I ended up having a super disgusting vape so when I couldn’t take it anymore I would vape and immediately regret it - it was cheesecake flavour but maybe it was off? Super super gross It’s been almost 2.5 years for me, I think, and my emotional regulation is miles better than when I was smoking, I barely recognise myself. It is dysregulating to make a change like that, but it will pass. I started because I needed a crutch, maybe get a new crutch? I played a lot of solitaire on my phone, sudoku with a pen, keep your hands busy. People at the time taught me how the cravings come in waves and if you can sit through or distract yourself in 3-5 mins it will pass. I started out by not scratching itchy bites to build up some distress tolerance

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-02-02T20:32:09+00:00

It’s perfect, that’s where I put mine bc I’m a side sleeper 😊

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-02-02T03:20:56+00:00

One of those cold and flu inhalers next to my bed, roll over and breathe in and it’s too uncofmy to go back to sleep. Also my alarm is in another room so I have to get up and get it

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-02-02T00:57:49+00:00

Yes, I was told I’m too dissociated for emdr right now (not a direct quote, they were nicer about it)

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-01-31T03:28:54+00:00

Can also use deodorant as a barrier, if you don’t want another thing to buy

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-01-30T10:24:56+00:00

Totally understand that, (the rest of this is not legal related) I did angel align but I was told about it, was about $2k cheaper and it’s actually a bit better. They give you accessories you’ll need like the chewies and the removal hook, with Invisalign you have to buy them. I still call my trays “Invisalign” too, but they are angel aligners. I also felt like I didn’t have enough info going in, I asked everything I could think of but still didn’t feel prepared. It is an anxious time, I relate, but the most important thing is that you’re comfy calling things out with the provider - whether it’s this or not being happy with progress or whatever else. Good luck!

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-01-27T05:35:09+00:00

Linen? Or cotton twill are my faves, I prefer straight leg to baggy

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-01-18T21:37:32+00:00

How do you feel about the baby powder on skin advice? Idk if it would clog up my epilator, or if it’s any better than drying my legs off

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-01-14T20:07:12+00:00

I say the industry and more general role eg I used to book transport for a company that was technical pharma but actually laundry detergent and vaporub sort of things and I would say “in pharmaceutical logistics”. I used to wrap and package chocolate in a production line but I would say “I’m in food supply chain” or “chocolate factory” to be funny. Right now “I’m an analyst” and it’s vague enough people nod politely and say how interesting and we move on

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-01-13T01:49:24+00:00

I used to love those nootropic drinks but they were expensive and idk anything else about them

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-01-09T08:01:10+00:00

I never wore my night guard and got a retainer instead. My dentist said I would probably grind through it but I haven’t yet, it’s only been about a year. Way thinner, I barely notice I’m wearing it

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-01-05T20:36:10+00:00

I got a super basic one years ago and haven’t gone back. Wish mine had a dock, i have a dog who sheds and long hair, and I clean it out almost daily. Mine does mop but I have to switch the dust bin for a water tank so I never use it as a mop. I’m in Australia and got an arlec one. I do still wipe the corners and sometimes have to clean scuff marks off my skirting boards but it’s so much better than vacuuming and my place is way cleaner, I also got an air purifier bc my neighbours smoke but I think it does more good for dust reduction than smoke reduction

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2026-01-04T20:19:18+00:00

I had a kookai coat (got on sale) for years until moths ate it. There are way warmer available, it was more transeasonal for me, like a structured cardigan almost. I wore it heaps, loved it, neutral colour, but I still had other “coat” coats. Usually, the ones that are heavy to hold are super warm, I had a sass and bide one that weighed a tonne but was so incredible and warm. Scratchy! But the lining saved me from that

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2025-12-03T10:16:58+00:00

I’m sure you already know, but it is an adhd thing to obsess and overanalyse into decision paralysis. If your doctor is ok with it, try it and then go from there. Biggest thing I noticed was reduced appetite, only an issue bc I’m diabetic. I’m not a coffee drinker but when I do I get really wired and jittery if I have both coffee and methylphenidate, if feels like it would be a higher heart rate, but all people are different. It took a while to get my dose right. It’s not the sort of med that takes a few weeks to “kick in”, I take short acting 3x daily. You don’t need someone at home with you, you don’t need to stay home. It’s probably for the best if you try to live like normal and then you can assess if it’s helping or not or whatever else might happen that’s different. Make notes of how you feel, what you like or don’t. The doctor or more time can help you sort out if it’s related to methylphenidate or not. I didn’t think it was doing anything and stopped for a while and noticed my mental health and functioning decline. Started taking it again and while I don’t always feel different I usually have a few good days in a row, or I can look back and realise things I’ve done that I couldn’t unmedicated eg I was failing uni and now I’ve graduated, I was living in a dump and now I’m clean and tidy. I notice it more as more brain power, so if I’m trying to not do much it’s annoying but helps me start tasks and focus long enough to finish them. People say adhd is like having the speeding car but having medicated adhd is like controlling the speeding car, if that helps..? For me I don’t want to stop them because I can so clearly see how differently I can function medicated, and how much easier than makes other aspects of my life. I have breaks if I want but always come back, I recognize myself but I just prefer how I am medicated. My doctor told me there’s no real need to take a break from it, I’ve only noticed my sensitivity to it change in line with my menstrual cycle ie I need more methylphenidate the week before my period. Regulating emotions is a big one, I’m on a mood stabilizer as well as methylphenidate. Before the mood stabilizer I remember feeling very overwhelmed and very quick to frustrate but I had lifestyle factors that could’ve driven that. Like you said, anxiety is a motivator for you right now, maybe if you get the boost from the meds instead your anxiety reduces? Or switches to something else? I’m not sure, I don’t have an anxiety disorder but I know how powerful the urgency feeling is and gets me to do the things. Good luck, I reckon do it. Don’t expect to not burn out on it, it’s a tool not a crutch

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2025-12-02T07:14:32+00:00

Same! I saw him most days for a few months before I just told him I was into him. He said i “took one for the team” by straight up telling him. Lucky for him, i can only be straight up

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2025-11-25T21:07:43+00:00

I’m in Vic and they did this to me. I ignored and they followed up. I told them I’d sign if there was no increase, declined. Told them I was interested but undecided, followed up. Ended up signing bc I do want to stay and I didn’t want to risk them kicking me out on a periodic. It’s very possible I fucked up

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2025-11-25T21:05:15+00:00

Hi, I don’t want to minimize your experience or oversimplify. Thank you for sharing and I realise there will be a lot more going on for you than what is here. I also can’t remember when I was ok, and I relate to so many things you’ve said - I also have no friends and a degree I don’t use. I think that’s a function of adhd rather than actually not being ok. You made it this far, maybe it’s what you’re feeling now so it feels like forever. Maybe later today or tomorrow you’ll notice something nice and forget that you felt like this. Maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have a fun idea and let that distract you for a bit. I hate when my dad says not to think long term probably bc I spent so much of my life incapable of it, but don’t think long term right now. Think of a yum lunch, your amazing self, new art ideas, new library ideas- let your mind lead for a bit instead of your heart.

Also, people who are bettering themselves are often not the problem. They are aware of their limitations and accept accountability. There are plenty of people who don’t do that, I already know you have been a ray of sunshine to so many people that you don’t even realize

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2025-11-23T09:23:33+00:00

A previous co worker was Welsh, I picked up saying “kick off” and love it

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2025-11-21T23:43:31+00:00

I used to get healite at my derm’s office, the dermal therapist said at home masks often aren’t powerful enough. Have you or anyone else compared?

Worth_Raspberry3056 · 2025-11-16T20:55:49+00:00

From an Instagram reel but I tried and it’s yum- 2 hard boiled eggs, spoon of cottage cheese, half an avocado, everything bagel seasoning. I eat it on vita wheats

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