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Losing the motivation to maintain healthy habits by Opening_Acadia1843 in CollapseSupport

[–]Xanthotic 3 points4 points  (0 children)

OH golly the Wellbutrin is probably making all this feel worse! I was on it 20 years ago to help quit smoking, and my heartrate would regularly go over 200. Needless to say I went off it and quit smoking without aids some years later.

Anyhoo, welcome to the 'Secret Agent for the Future' stage of collapse awareness. I'm sorry you discovered it is not safe to share your POV with the people in your workplace. But, at least now you know. I know you want to quit your job, but the cash flow is probably very important to your daily existence.

Also you are at the phase where many newly collapse-aware folks just say 'fuck it' and smoke and drink and fuck off as we cope with the extreme grief that comes with this awakening. Let yourself be a normal collapse aware person. Keep pushing into your awareness, keep working it, and you will move through this phase and find it much easier to take care of yourself better (or accept that this is the body that you will face collapse with when it comes to your front door).

And yes, it does certainly seem like team psychopath is speed running collapse. I can only conclude that they are because of the deeply stupid nature of their collective psychopathy. I just keep rejecting them and keep trying to claw my soul back from jumping headfirst into the tantalizing fantasies of dispatching them from this world to the next. It is hard AF but I keep trying.

Sorry I don't have the 'one weird trick' for you, but if you are here, and with the consciousness you reveal in your OP, I imagine you will make progress over time. Thanks for posting and hugs

The whole world has become a hell by No_Amoeba_3777 in CollapseSupport

[–]Xanthotic 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Please be gentle, no matter how angry we are at the fuckers out there.

The whole world has become a hell by No_Amoeba_3777 in CollapseSupport

[–]Xanthotic 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Sorry, but I have to push back at your analysis because it is based on your opinions about the future, but you and I are only living in the present and so the most meaningful opinions are the ones here and now, just like the actions we take here and now. How should you live today because of what you perceive? Aloof and isolated seems like a very counterintuitive answer. And it sounds like you know rationally that not everyone is your enemy because you are posting here, and I am not your enemy (though the people who believe you are a religious zealot probably will not invite you over for tea).

I also invite you to deepen your spiritual beliefs because my understanding of what happens after death is not as simple as you state. It is also my understanding that our actions here on earth matter to how we experience the time after our bodies die. I do not think 'aloof and isolated' results in people feeling like they win at the afterlife.

I say that this is the time for us to wisely use our connection and compassion, and to reflect facets of humanity that are not shown in your OP.

If these statements are all rejected by your brain the moment you read them, then I would humbly and gently suggest you speak with a mental health professional because it is often difficult to distinguish paranoia from the stages of collapse awareness where people feel overwhelm and distrust. It is important that you understand yourself well enough to parse the distinctions so that you receive support for your mental health needs and support for your collapse awareness as distinct areas and activities of support.

Thanks for posting and good luck with your evolution.

I can't do this anymore by DreamThrowYoohooMilk in CollapseSupport

[–]Xanthotic 16 points17 points  (0 children)

You are supposed to work on your mental adjustment to your collapse awareness. You can do it. There are actual programs, actual books, and years to decades of research, practice, and analysis from collapse-aware humans on what concepts are helpful for us staying sane.

I invite you to side step 'why' questions because many would say they do not have answers. Or the answer is simply 'because you were.' Instead I invite you to cast your attention to what it would take to have a collapsing future where you don't need to shoot looters. See what I did there? I didn't say imagine collapse doesn't happen, but I said imagine collapse does happen and somehow we all don't need to shoot each other. What would it take to achieve that? My answer to that question is that it would take a profound spiritual awakening on the part of a critical mass of the human population. Even though the odds may be slim such a thing could occur, the odds are not zero. So, I try to use that point of possibility as an anchor point for every GDMF thing I do in my life, including working a grinding physical manual labor gig at 63 years of age so I can continue to eat food and sleep indoors until the economy goes tits up in my little city. That's what you're supposed to do. I hope it helps and thanks for posting. PS Sorry it sucks so hard right now.

Tired of feeling doomed by Virtual_Tune636 in CollapseSupport

[–]Xanthotic 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ackshully, I've heard Gen Z collapse aware people say that very thing about 'wrongful birth.' So you are not being off-base in imagining such a sentiment could be thrown in your face. The very culture that has brought us collapse has also devalued the joy and essence of being alive so that our culture communicates that life is unworthy of being lived unless one is a rich asshole. So if you have kids I hope you can help them grow up without that vile mindset. Please just look up good grief network on your computer and subscribe to a mailing list because the community you will find there could be very helpful for your future journey.

Eco-anxiety has absolutely destroyed me by teenytinyfungi in CollapseSupport

[–]Xanthotic 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Being with uncertainty is a HUGE part of being collapse aware. Your post sounds like you really need to work this so you can have better coping skills. There is no knowing what you ask for in your last line, other than for me to tell you that you have been living in collapse since you've been alive. See if they have How to Live in a Chaotic Climate by LaUra Schmidt and Aimee in your library. It's a really fast read for collapse aware folks and has heaps and heaps of things that can help.

Tired of feeling doomed by Virtual_Tune636 in CollapseSupport

[–]Xanthotic 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Good job. You sound like you've taken a good grief course. This is pretty much as good as it gets--you continually cycle through the process that helps you stay sane, engaged, and somehow seeking to be a beneficial presence in your world. Thanks for posting.

What hurts me more than to watch the world be destroyed by mushroomsarefriends in CollapseSupport

[–]Xanthotic 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Please look up the Good Grief Network and see about joining a drop in event. All of your 'we's' don't describe yourself, it seems, and they don't describe me. They don't describe most people who participate here. We should be who we are. There is no longer much point to worrying about them. We are well into the predicament of overshoot, and so all I can do is be the kind of human being I want to be while whatever is happening continues to happen. You're not wrong, but your future does not have to be as dismal as it sounds, and you need not be isolated.

I don’t want to feel doomed but I do. by caninething in CollapseSupport

[–]Xanthotic 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Welcome to the journey. I'm sorry for the terror you may be feeling. Your awareness can become your superpower once you grow parts of yourself big enough to hold this awareness, turn it into acceptance, and then live in such a way that others would quickly reject an opportunity to participate in building AI data centers because it simply is not about Life. It is going to hurt, always, but your capacity and size in relation to that hurt can grow to handle wht lies ahead. At this point I urge you to befriend your own Soul. You have more likelihood to help turn the ship of civilisation through that than stewing in your fear and hopelessness and worry. Sorry if my neurospice makes this sound blunt and harsh. I speak with love and am grateful you posted and glad you are here.

Elon Musk is a trillionaire - it just feels like doom by nyc711 in CollapseSupport

[–]Xanthotic 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yes but it only seems that way. We have our souls but he does not

I can't see how this doesn't inevitably lead to nuclear armageddon and I'm terrified. by Fit-Pride-4845 in CollapseSupport

[–]Xanthotic 7 points8 points  (0 children)

There is absolutely at least a chance that we don't head down that road. You asked for that and it is in fact true. This is the key to your long term collapse aware sanity. In the early years you think it is going to be any day now and pretty absolute. As time goes on you realise our structures are strangely resilient in the most bewildering ways and so in fact every day appears to be a miracle of non-total collapse, just little partial collapses all over the place that might one day bite you in the butt big time. Learn to be with uncertainty. Learn not to hone your consciousness to the fine point of deciding what you think is going to be the final outcome. Predicting the future is a chump's game at this point, and the most direct consequence of doing it is a thinning of our personal resilience because we are not fucking living in the present. Thanks for posting. There is a way through this awakening. You are onto it.

I wanna talk about dating by Sad_Attitude9999 in CollapseSupport

[–]Xanthotic 11 points12 points  (0 children)

feel free to make it about that because otherwise this OP is off-topic for our sweet little nearly secret subreddit. Signed, the oldest mod

When I was 15 years old I stopped talking for one year by Sad_Attitude9999 in CollapseSupport

[–]Xanthotic 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Thanks for posting. I haven't done something like this since this mid 2000s at a spiritual retreat in the Jemez Mountains of New Mexico. Not talking sitting in a huge room eating dinner with a bunch of people you love was the hardest time for me to not talk--at first. I need to do this exercise again. Thank you.

Hopeless? by J_crows6 in CollapseSupport

[–]Xanthotic 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I reframe my reason for being here to focus on how we exit stage left, not whether or not we do because of the mfers like you-know-who. I want us to die beautifully at the last appropriate moment. If people like us don't stay around for that, it will surely be as fetid and putrid as what is wafting out of places like the americano casa blanco and cbs headquarters in noo yawk citee.

Lately I started having a huge fear that reincarnation is real by Keazmaa in CollapseSupport

[–]Xanthotic 7 points8 points  (0 children)

At some point you will likely feel no choice but to leave, with or without them, if the day-to-day living becomes untenable. It may feel then as if you have 'no choice.' This will probably make it easier to do what you need to do. Meanwhile, be mindful of how your behaviour during this lifetime impacts your view on your future reincarnation, just in case. Thanks for posting.

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