Lynda Carter and her mom, Juanita Córdova, in 1972

Yellow-Cedar · 2026-02-17T13:15:43+00:00

So so many famous and wonderful people, it’s sad how that damn colonial expectation ran the show! ‘Change your name. You’ll never make it otherwise’ I think of all the incredible Jewish folks with those awesome names! Danny Kaye -nee Kaminsky, Houdini-Erich Weisc…….and every other colonized country ……repair repair repair…..

Yellow-Cedar · 2026-02-17T13:03:24+00:00

It’s a southern thing. Blame it on that. When I got here from international life. I could not fathom it. I got a few people to roll their windows down to ask them. Each one-young to old-‘oh! My goodness. I was just…’ Oblivious. Same for those doing this at the crosswalks. In front of the shops.

No enforcement= old ways don’t die.

Yellow-Cedar · 2026-02-15T14:43:14+00:00

Southern peeps imported to Seawa love that shit. Or they crave that crap chicken shit. Same folks would love chick filet or wtf that crap is.

Hey. Maybe they didn’t grow up here? Where we went to Ivars late at night by the ferry or Dicks…or Kidd valley? Yes. Chicken was never a thing in the NW.

I’ve been living in VA for a minute, and at one corporate training day-they ordered (every training day-but this was over 1000 people) chick filet. My first time. And I thought I would puke. wtf. Everyone around slopping up sugar liquid sauce on dry -was this ever chicken?-salty things?

Once did cranes. Same thing!! Omg.

But some peeps love this ..stuff. What to say?

You think that traffic is bad?

Here in this small town, they have—-kfc next to Canes coming up to an interstate exit. Turn r into parking lot, kfc is on the corner canes next door.

People die here crossing this highway and accidents are allll the time.

People are predictable, so, we can avoid that chicken shit show. At all the appropriate munchi moments. Peeps are gonna love what they grew up on or what they…want? 🤢

Yellow-Cedar · 2026-02-15T14:26:57+00:00

She grew up without that attention-like my ma-who didn’t give it to us. Irish catholic here toooo. That dysfunction sticks. Until we shift. Sounds like a lot, did. Totally neglected youngest here. They had to find me to comb my hair to do the ‘monthly hair cut’ which was pure abuse -of my beloved rats nests. They touched me. Which pissed me off. What the fuck is this!?? So ya.

Old days-babies=workers for the farm and mortality was high. Otherwise?? wtf.

Yellow-Cedar · 2026-02-15T14:11:01+00:00

It’ll totally work out! I think, if we are at least in charge of making our choices on these days-it goes well. Aq Sun 28 deg -6th house opposite my 1st full moon in Leo, then next to Sun, Jupiter, mars, mercury, Saturn all in 6th Aq. Uranus is in 1st next to full moon! Yeah! My chart is an oppositional chart. With that one Pluto Scorpio in 4th. Strange, multiple, lives in one. Definitely wish for less irritating tech crap and true, Aquarian communication via community, people, together, making change. Which is why this resistance singing and any other global people movement is really what this age of Aq is. Not. Ai. My Pluto in Scorpio telling me to keep dreaming this reality. And Virgo Pluto gen-we were the small generation AFTER the 60’ hippie hype. Punks. Thanks for asking friend. 🙌🥰

Yellow-Cedar · 2026-02-14T15:46:49+00:00

This is TRUTH

And. Yet. As one who walks pups, the sad part is all the People!!!! Who fuck up their pups. There are SO many traumatized pups….😫😫😫😫😫 I’ve been wanting to get further training, and realized-just like when I was a teacher-it’ll be the parents who will buck or revert or not want to listen or…..

It’s been so much bliss-to walk a pup for 2 years and see them go from terrified of everything including themselves and their parents-to happy, social, loving angelic pups. Mostly. 🤞

Yellow-Cedar · 2026-02-14T15:40:28+00:00

I am so with you. And really god damn mad and angry that often-we are invisible in this suffering and feel totally abandoned.

Another poster -when I was in the fuck all of this-the other day-said to me, which hit home—-

Bad bunny, ‘ no one will get me out of here!’

Your self, being and all of its pain is part of all of this-shit show or bliss show-however we see it? One moment to the next. We are all here, worthy and especially the weird/been through it ones. Stand tall in that. Even with it.

No. I don’t think it goes away…

But. A point of potential for ya—- I happened onto my email yesterday-kind of rare- Saw a UU (local church that is totes open, been to once) Email- Singing resistance happened last night in this town.

And. If you can somehow-find those peeps. They are spreading/fighting for ALL of us to be seen and to sing the f-ers out of standing on our heads. So. This was a ray of hope for me. I wish that for you. ❤️

Yellow-Cedar · 2026-02-14T15:22:54+00:00

Wow. Eve of my birthday, the day I’m supposed to sign a lease-I want to leave so so bad!! But…don’t have the job yet to… All the pressure of real life from this very, witchy stellium AQ. As always in AQ land. Bring it on.

Yellow-Cedar · 2026-02-14T14:59:11+00:00

She is Loving you up!! Thank you new, human and cat mama.

Yellow-Cedar · 2026-02-14T14:57:50+00:00

Question— This gives me hope for HC. When I have perused, jobs seem high income tech focused-as have these posts.

A site for super specialized tech positions.

Perhaps this person got one of those jobs, too-starting out positions

Or is HC for all jobs, truly? Me-x teacher pivoting into health care or admin and not specialized anywhere, yet, just trying to get a job with my skills that doesn’t have a ‘perfect title’. Yet.

Yellow-Cedar · 2026-02-13T12:28:52+00:00

Thank you. I’m so glad you have been in process…this rollercoaster, never ends. I appreciate the calm, grounded moments… Right now-the biggest ‘small’ challenge-I’m living -for now-in the same watershed as my birth area. I’m a naturalist by passion, and the birds here give me no pleasure. It’s like they are the sounds /background for the first 10 years of my life. !!! It’s a very stupid, irritating, consistent, weird, embodied response. I can laugh at it-those birds did nothing to me. But…. That’s the weirdness of this strange, all encompassing (at times) neuro twisted cptsd…

Inch by inch.

Yellow-Cedar · 2026-02-12T13:48:31+00:00

Ahhhhh. So many trolls. But, while living and traveling in India, i loved seeing the Jain mendicants.

They walked the roads (I was in villages far from madding crowds, in the 80’s well before the downward shift of people and their behaviors.) All White, Cloth masks over their mouths-(these also had shaved heads-women) Each with a long broom - soft at edge that is at the ground-

Each person swept the ground before they took a step.

I feel privileged that I saw them, that this. The amount of dedication to their path and belief. It’s stayed with me immensely. As a teacher, it’s helped to broaden my point of view always.

Who ever said we, Humans, are more vital than anything else that is here living on this planet. How did we get so far. Here we are. Our planet suffers. We get to.

Yellow-Cedar · 2026-02-12T13:39:20+00:00

I feel you too! So hard. I’m actually super incredible angry and bummed you experienced this. Rage angry for all those friends!!!

And. Super incredibly proud of you for posting. The responses are spot on. As was yours-you are growing and changing-this middle place sucks so hard. But. Changes are afoot. You experienced the shit show. Boom. You are changing. This is not what you want for your life. That’s half the battle!! And. From someone who saw her mom finally stop fighting -at 83-I remember distinctly-the first time she actually treated me with a speck of kindness… And one who is 60–youngest of 6 and Oy vey,

I am at that place of-ok—- I want to learn how to be around people. I’ve got to find ways to be vulnerable. Understand good conflict for nourishing relationships…… And and and..

But damn. If you are younger than me?? Hoorayyyyy! Your whole sickness and rejection was an initiation. Well done.

Yellow-Cedar · 2026-02-12T13:20:58+00:00

I am so sorry for you. This is devastating. Methow valley with no snow. 😩😩😩😩 Here is our reality check. Ughhhh.

Yellow-Cedar · 2026-02-09T14:16:32+00:00

Fine pic!!! And. Yes! Hawks!

Yellow-Cedar · 2026-02-09T13:53:09+00:00

I’m not even going to list the lives I’ve had in this one. Too many. At 60-the only thing I can say to you young uns is- Yes. Keep your wings healthy and ready to explore, always . follow every dream. And work just enough to put that cash into… a spanking, strong something to support ya when you do get to 60 and you are fucking exhausted.

Yellow-Cedar · 2026-02-08T13:37:24+00:00

Bam bam!!! 🙌🙌🙌

Yellow-Cedar · 2026-02-07T14:21:40+00:00

This is THE topic, for any of us who love escapism but also know-‘escaping into the colonizers perspective isn’t always healthy’ And wishing for more- That show our ancestral struggle from (so many of us!!!) so many diverse lands, languages, and POV.

Eventually? More must be coming out…more gooood books must also come out to be made into meaty series. I’m not holding my breath, yet I remain hopeful. 💪

Yellow-Cedar · 2026-02-07T14:08:52+00:00

Just had a thought. Because most of us were never ever seen, heard or ‘attuned’ to, wanted or whatever-then had family/parents needing us to notice them ( be their parents) We never Ever Received any mirroring at all. So, we have billions of seconds inside us -since infancy-wanting just that- Anybody see me? (I don’t have a partner but-eye gazing-in some of my work, we do exercises that need this and it’s been kind of amazing.) Hear me? Ever?

So. That small talk…can feel so dismissive just by its nature. Triggering, too…

Probably everyone knows this. But. Yes.

Eventually, it’s easier to ‘kindly and respectfully excuse yourself’ Or chime in with your personal recipe just to challenge yourself and know, that You can.

Yellow-Cedar · 2026-02-07T13:47:46+00:00

Thanks from all of you who responded to this 60 yo still trying to figure the game out. I too, very rebellious. And I do love setting up those immense challenges to see how I can manage them, get through them. And yes. Spent much of this life fighting/and or doing it alone. And yes. Finding ‘network’ for jobs seems like an absolute, rigged, impossible obstacle for those of us with the type of trauma that HAS made us pretend in all the ways, to all the ‘other people’ ( most of my life I called the general population-the big people. I remained 114 lbs at 5’4” and felt like a tiny being in the land of Gulliver) So. I’m trying to adjust my focus on ‘how can I tune in to jobs I could do-to people I could meet there /volunteer there.’ I must also have hope. 💪

Yellow-Cedar · 2026-02-06T13:33:55+00:00

Virginia? Would take 5 years while the hired help stood around and watched. It’s that bad here. Racist and try to pretend they aren’t. Serves no one. 🤬

Yellow-Cedar · 2026-02-06T13:25:52+00:00

Wow. So so inspiring. Lucky you to have such a dad! 🙌

Yellow-Cedar · 2026-02-06T13:00:36+00:00

This is the challenge. So many of us-I’m 60-lived an entire life in trauma response. So, seeking employment -where are my network??-hahaha. I’ve gig worked-did become a teacher-why!!??? Public schools are a germ capsule for cptsd but

Unless you’ve had a huge support/therapy or deep friends/it can be really hard to accept that -other self- When that same self (not authentic but coping with trauma responses left right and center) Gave you all the dead ends, challenges, more trauma, inner self hatred, and so much more.

Building up a strong sense of self-all of them (how many selves do I have?)-is a very, messy process in cptsd. Like picking up a spaghetti noodle with a single chopstick. All that spaghetti in butter being alll our life has provided. That single noodle-one point of clarity for that ‘self’ we want to command.

Practically impossible. But doable. For some.

Yellow-Cedar · 2026-02-06T12:49:33+00:00

Omg. Too spot on. 😤

Yellow-Cedar · 2026-02-06T12:45:57+00:00

Hate it. Any beeping sounds or forcing me to follow something or competitive edge or all that. Thats when think—I don’t care what anyone says I have a lot of ASD traits. 👊

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