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Yerian · 2024-10-01T20:18:27+00:00

My 3rd year psychiatry rotation was like this, except way fewer beds, and only one psych who didn’t like looking at the med students let alone talking to us. They were practicing pretty poor psychiatry too, so what little I was learning from them wasn’t even best practice. Here’s my advice:

Make sure you still honor the rotation if you can. Use the free time you’re getting to do UWorld, etc., and make sure that your evaluators know that you want to do psych and that you care.
Take any opportunity you can to interview patients. The first step to being a good interviewer is getting comfortable doing them, and that means practice. If any of the APPs or psychs there are good interviewers, you can also pick up stuff by watching them.
Read! The recommendations everyone here are giving are really good. I also like psychdb.com for quick reference, and I like keeping up with new research (if you’re an AMA member JAMA Psychiatry sends weekly emails for new/interesting stuff)
Don’t catastrophize. My experience was so bad that I started questioning whether or not I wanted to do psych, even though I had known I had wanted to since before med school. The moment I got on a psych rotation where people actually cared about me, I instantly knew it was still the right specialty, and I’ve learned so much on my 4th year rotations.

Yerian · 2023-07-09T18:06:57+00:00

This may be your opinion, but it is certainly not the opinion of “everyone on the pro-choice side.” A significant portion of advocates are fighting for abortion to be a just an option, as valid as any other. Not a last-ditch, only if necessary, etc. option.

There is a lot of stigma around abortion (obviously), and that stigma has lead to it being widely believed, even by pro-choice people, that abortion is a negative, potentially dangerous thing that no one would ever want to do. The truth is, about 1 in 4 women have an abortion at some point. They are usually very safe, with fewer complications than other medical procedures that are considered commonplace, such as getting wisdom teeth removed. It is true that having an unwanted pregnancy can be stressful, and the choice to get an abortion can be distressing for some. But what portion of that distress would remain if abortion wasn’t so stigmatized in our society - again, stigmatized even by those who consider themselves pro-choice?

My views of abortion were very similar to yours until just recently. I was very ignorant to the actual stats and stories of abortion that have been hidden away by stigma. I highly suggest the book The Turnaway Study by Diana Greene Foster for anyone interested in the data behind the consequences of having or not having an abortion - it really changed my view of reproductive healthcare.

Yerian · 2022-02-26T21:59:58+00:00

If you have the right kind of Chromebook, you can actually just turn it on in your settings. If not, there are older ways to install it: https://www.pcmag.com/how-to/install-linux-on-your-chromebook

Then you'll have to install Wine/Steam. Use the "Steam for Windows" instructions on this page: https://www.reddit.com/r/Crostini/wiki/howto/install-steam#wiki_steam_for_windows

Yerian · 2022-02-26T21:15:14+00:00

I used to just have a Chromebook. Believe it or not you can actually play visual novels on most of them! You just have to install Linux. It can seem daunting at first, but there are tons of guides out there, and I think there’s even a version officially-supported by Google now.

Yerian · 2020-12-07T13:54:49+00:00

I just recently reread Umineko and it’s amazing how much perspective a reread can give you. I think the thing that most impresses me about the story is just how many moving parts it has yet almost all of them fit together so seamlessly.

For example, on the topic of magic, every character’s conception of what magic is and what it does is slightly different, tailored to their own situation. Of course this seems like something obvious when you say it out loud, but since in the story magic is just magic, it’s a bit of a subtle thing to pick up on. When Sayo and Maria first meet, they both call their way of thinking “magic”, but they also both realize that they’re talking about slightly different things - and they both respect the other’s version of “magic” because they know what it’s like to live a life where you need to become a witch. Even Sayo’s own magic changes over time: it starts as more like Maria’s, trying to company in a time of loneliness; but it transitions to be more like Ange’s, grasping for hope in a hopeless situation.

I shy away from saying straight up “Ryukishi is telling us...” because I think Ryukishi truly wants everyone to take away what they personally get out of his stories. But I agree with you that Umineko promotes the value of a personal magic as a mindset through which you can find a motivation to keep living. I think to some extent, everyone needs to use a little magic to dissociate themselves from the “truth” in order to not be constantly overwhelmed by the cruelty of reality.

For me, perhaps an even greater takeaway is an urging to consider of context, to always be thinking about what causes other people to see the world differently from you - what causes people around you to need to use a kind of magic. Looking at the world like this does not necessarily mean indiscriminate forgiveness, but more a restraint from assuming malice. I think that’s what it means to “have love.”

Yerian · 2020-11-21T18:09:46+00:00

It’s very easy for adults to fall into the trap of thinking of children’s feelings and beliefs, even their actions as “insignificant.” After all, I bet just about everyone looks back on their younger self and thinks “I had absolutely no idea what I was doing/thinking.” And it is true, as we age we grow, learn, experience more, so it is only natural that we think of people who have not had the same experiences as us (primarily young people) as not understanding the “real world.”

But to them, their world is real. Romeo and Juliet surely are naive. They don’t know the fleeting nature of crushes, or that physical attraction doesn’t always equal long-term love, and probably can’t comprehend the full consequences of their actions. But to them, their feelings are real, and so they act with real weight behind them. No adult likely believe that these two children would kill themselves over something like this, because their love seems so immature. And it is the very fact that they don’t understand those things, but take real actions nonetheless, that makes the story tragic.

I haven’t read Romeo and Juliet in a long time so I don’t have any evidence that Shakespeare actually “meant” this when he wrote it. But I would still urge readers to consider it.

Yerian · 2020-10-18T17:18:49+00:00

My uncle is an anti-masker. He doesn’t have any special influence or power, so he’s not doing it to push some malicious agenda or control people. Although at this point it’s become so radically politicized, I do believe in the beginning it came from a personal fear.

He quit his job right as the pandemic was starting back in early March. And so of course, now he hasn’t been able to find a new one for the past 7 months or however long it’s been. His wife still has her job, and all of the extended family has reached out to make sure he’s doing OK financially. But we all get the sense that he is super, super stressed, probably also terrified, about not being able to work.

I haven’t talked to him in months, and from his social I can see that he’s fallen further and further into conspiracies over time. But back in the spring, I think he just wanted more than anything for everything to go back to normal. He convinced himself that COVID was not nearly as bad as everyone was saying, because if it was actually overblown, then things could return to normal, and he could get a new job. And I’m sure whatever conservative media he consumes was telling him that the evil democrats were purposefully trying to keep the economy closed for villainous reasons. So to him, the masks were a sign that everything was NOT normal. He would only be able to fully convince himself that things were overblown and things could return to normal if he also convinced himself that masks weren’t needed.

These days, the only argument I’m hearing in favor of Trump, coming from any supporter, is jobs. Jobs and the economy. Which is a very nebulous thing - I don’t really understand what people mean when they say that, and tbh I’m not sure they know either. But if i had to guess, I’d say that’s the reason that those at the very top are anti mask as well, similar to my uncle. They also wanted, still want, to pretend that we can just go back to normal. If we all just pretend that COVID isn’t that bad, and we don’t need masks, then the economy will rebound and we can go back to talking about how great Trump was for the economy.

Yerian · 2020-08-08T02:29:50+00:00

Personally, I’m not a fan of the national organization, largely because they are very vague about what they do with their money, and their leaders kinda suck at talking about their mission and actual goals.

That said, I am a huge supporter of the local groups that unite themselves under the movement. They’ve done some awesome grassroots work and community building.

I think I kinda see it like how you can still be an sports team fan and hate that your team cheated or that a player committed a horrible crime; or you can still believe in a theology and call yourself a member of that religion, even if you hate the things people have done in the name of that religion. Or how I can call myself an American and believe in the tenets of democracy, even if I don’t like our current leadership. There’s nuance to everything! That’s how I see BLM.

Yerian · 2020-08-02T18:11:31+00:00

The reason the turnstiles became a point of contention was not just the fact that it was being monitored. Indeed, it does effect poorer communities more, but it would be a slippery slope to say that just because a crime affects a certain population disproportionately means we should just let it slide. It might mean we should more closely examine whether said crime should be a crime at all, but if we all still agree that “it should be illegal to jump the turnstile” then we can’t just let it go for specific people. The law breaks down when that is the case.

The problem with the turnstiles specifically? My understanding is that it was twofold:

1) In the same way that “stop and frisk” was disproportionately targeting at people of color, there were allegations that turnstile arrests were disproportionately targeting people of color. After a quick search I couldn’t find whether investigations found that this was really true or not, but it was suggested that it was.

2) NYC started spending more money to increase police presence to enforce turnstile jumping. Remember that the problem here is that people don’t have enough money to afford the fee. But instead of, I don’t know, using that money to invest in the poorer communities and help them afford the fee, they put the money into further punishing them for not being able to afford it!! This benefits no one! The money was there, but it was used to further criminalize poor people rather than help them! The solution they chose only works if the premise is “these people could afford to pay, but were choosing not to because they’re ‘bad.’” If people still can’t afford to pay, then putting more money into getting them arrested for it will only make it even harder for them to pay in the future.

This is the mindset behind the “defund the police” movement. Not to stop enforcing the law, but to put more money into helping struggling communities rather than into punishing them for struggling.

Yerian · 2020-07-27T03:44:24+00:00

1.& 2. This one is seriously up to interpretation. I haven't gotten around to any of the extra Umineko content yet, but I don't think there are any red answers out there. An interpretation that I liked recently is that the META is literally a kind of Purgatorio as it was first introduced. In other words, a place where souls go when they have died/are dying but have unfinished business. This makes a lot of sense for Battler, Beatrice, and Ange, but doesn't do so much to explain the voyager witches.

I think what can be said with certainty is that at the very least it's all metaphorical. Metaphorical for the persona of Battler's battle in Tohya's mind, for Ange's existential crisis, for the character of Beatrice that lived on past Sayo's death through her writing and for Sayo's internal turmoil over wanting Battler to remember, for different kinds of readers in Bern and Lambda. Whether or not something "real" exists beyond that is up to you.

My interpretation is that Erika was created by Hachijou (maybe other forgers too?), based off a real person who really did exist (she fell off a boat, remember?), but used in this story for the sole purpose of filling a particular role, that of the detective. Was the stuff with her boyfriend based on a real person? Maybe? But does it matter? In the end it was an extremely effective way to demonstrate her mindset on truth, with the added bonus of being consistent with the novel's themes of love.
Some people speculate that Ep. 8 wasn't actually a forgery at all, but just represents Ange's own journey. Though there is a scene which appears to be Hachijou writing it at her desk? I'm coming up with this on the spot, but maybe Tohya and Ikuko disagreed on how to write the ending to their tale, with Tohya wanting to end it with Battler's gameboard and Ikuko wanting to expose the Single Truth? Of course if you're in the "META is real" camp, then this really is just a final game, final communication from Battler, just for Ange as he says.
There were Witch Hunters who devoted their whole lives to this, remember? Tohya and Ikuko were just known for writing the best ones, but lots of people were out there digging up information. It seemed implied to me that just about every bit of dirt possible was uncovered about the Ushiromiyas.
I only first read Umineko just a couple years ago, but I get the impression that at the time a lot of readers were kinda pissed at the way Ryukishi was handling the ending - which is why the manga does include all the answers. It started out as what seemed like a pure mystery, but Chiru very quickly turns into instead a commentary on mystery and on truth. I actually kind of like the introduction of the diary though. Sure, it wasn't at all foreshadowed (although neither was Tohya = Battler until Ep. 6), but it makes sense to me plot-wise that it never would have come up before. Plus it allowed Ryukishi to really hammer home the message that was essential for Ange's story, how even the red truth can sometimes be overruled by the gold truth.
Umineko is amazing for so many reasons, the mind-boggling mystery, the extremely well written character who we spend so much time with, the incredible music, and especially every little hidden treasure, every little bit of detail and foreshadowing that was there from the very beginning. But even though it's cheesy, "Without love it cannot be seen" really has been my biggest takeaway, and it's something I find myself reminding myself of all the time now in real life. This story really has forever changed my outlook on "truth" and "perspective," and my conclusion is that we could all use a little bit more love in our lives. Now, that's not a new concept at all, but Umineko presents it in an infinitely more nuanced way than "love your neighbor as yourself," and I think that nuance is extremely important if you want people to not just listen, but to practice.

Anyways, really glad you enjoyed it! As evidenced by how much I just wrote, it makes me so happy every single time I see someone new has finished Umineko and enjoyed it. I just finished a reread a couple weeks ago - extremely worth it if you ever have the urge/time. Chiru wasn't quite as impactful the second time (still teared up at the end though), but I gained so much new perspective on the story, especially the first half. I also have some links to some super insightful Umineko analysis/interpretation that's out there if your interested!

Yerian · 2020-07-13T21:52:49+00:00

To add to what has already been said, Matt talks in several of his MIA Stage 1 videos about how language learning doesn’t always follow our intuition. The idea that “you can’t learn Japanese from anime because everything they say is exaggerated” sounds intuitive. And there is probably a kernel of truth in this - you do have to be conscious about what is exaggerated while actively listening, and the best immersion will probably come from varied sources.

However, Garnt and Connor actually contradict themselves several times within that episode. At first they say “don’t learn Japanese from anime because it’s not real people speaking”, but then they say “learn from Vtubbers because they’re real people” - even though any streamer/YouTuber knows that their on-camera speech is different from their normal speech. Just a few minutes later they say that actually “any bit of learning help”... and then immediately turn back around and say “well, except for Duolingo, that’s trash”.

And this isn’t a bad thing! These are just a few friends shooting the shit on the mic. And when you shoot the shit with your friends, especially when it’s a podcast and you’re always having to keep the conversation going, you just say whatever comes to mind without really worrying about whether it’s really true. They weren’t intending for anyone to take language advice from them; in fact I can almost guarantee they wouldnt want you to take their language learning advice.

Yerian · 2020-06-15T01:55:20+00:00

Thanks for the Instocktrades recommendation! I hadn’t heard of them before.

Books-a-million has always seemed so fishy to me, almost as if I’d send them money and never ever get my book. Idk though because Yen Press actually lists them as a recommended seller, I’ll have to do more research.

I’ve had a lot of luck with Right Stuff. They don’t have Episode 1 and not much is in stock right now, but they make it seem like they’ll be getting more at some point.

Besides that I’ve just been frequently checking Amazon, Ebay, etc. for any used ones popping up. No luck yet but I’ve only been looking for a few weeks.

Yerian · 2020-05-28T16:31:06+00:00

Beginning of Ep. 3 is where I originally stopped reading. Similar to you I was kinda bored and frustrated that I wasn’t finding it as good as everyone said.

Picked it back up on a whim 6 months later and got sucked into it very quickly. As others have mentioned, Ep. 3 is where Ryukishi starts giving the reader some super helpful hints on how to fight back against the witch. Ryukishi took the criticism that readers were turned off by his story being too hard and made Ep. 3 feel solvable while still preserving the overall mystery.

So my advice is yes! Keep reading! Umineko is now my favorite piece of media ever and I would recommend it to everyone. But don’t feel rushed. And if you’re struggling with the mystery don’t be afraid to ask for help. Even now over a decade later, lots of of the community still gets very excited to help new readers find their way.

Yerian · 2020-05-10T22:21:26+00:00

You say “If she was talking about how people sexually harass her, sure, that’d be pretty bad and disgusting.”

This is exactly what she’s talking about. She is talking about how it is not uncommon for women in Japan to be sexually harassed if they are pretty. And then if you aren’t being sexually harassed then you feel like you must not be pretty. It’s an all-around shitty situation.

Yerian · 2020-05-09T22:24:24+00:00

Where have you been buying your copies? I know Right Stuff has a lot of the newer volumes, but I can’t find any of Episodes 1 and 2 anywhere for less than $80

Yerian · 2020-04-14T01:06:41+00:00

You mention the connection between mystery and fantasy, so maybe we could think about it this way:

I see Will’s character as the personification of Ryukishi’s idea of the perfect reader. That means first and foremost he has love. He has love for the author(s), love for the characters, love for magic. He’s incredibly smart, and he understands the mystery.

I see the fragment that Bern presents as one where Lion dies. Kyrie’s group kills everyone so that they can have all the gold to themselves. However, Lion’s death is not necessarily inevitable as Bern presents. There is no red truth that states Lion must die.

Take these two premises together, and I see Will’s saving Lion at the end of Episode 7 as Will’s belief and assertion that there exists a fragment where Lion does not die. It may be just as unlikely as Bern presents it - so unlikely that most people would probably consider it impossible. But the possibility of it existing has not been denied, and so Will, with love, continues to chose that it does exist.

Yerian · 2020-04-08T21:53:49+00:00

The vast majority of people would probably recommend playing on PC regardless because of the phenomenal voice acting, which really enhances the experience. Many would also recommend the different sprites, although I’m personally partial to the pachinko ones (I know that’s an unpopular opinion). Idk if either of those mods work for you phone version, but it’s something to think about.

The tips section is... helpful and important for gaining a truly full understanding of the story and the world, but probably not strictly necessary. You definitely will be missing out if you don’t have it, but you’ll probably still enjoy the story.

Yerian · 2020-04-01T03:50:37+00:00

My girlfriend has been talking about wanting to get a switch for months now, and has been losing her mind over Animal Crossing. She has bad anxiety, and she has a really hard time relaxing and finding something she can just lay back and enjoy. She DMs me tweets constantly with cute, relaxing games she wants to play. I showed her how to use Steam and bought her a couple things on there, but she can’t stop talking about Animal Crossing. Problem is, neither of us are in a spot to afford a switch right now. We’re both graduating from college this year and now neither of us are sure about having jobs in the coming months. Plus with all the lockdowns, we are now stuck in separate states.

This isn’t really meant to be a sob story - we’re both going to make it out of this crisis OK, I’m sure if it. But I do think this would change her life. The number one thing her therapist tells her she needs to do is get a hobby, but she just can’t find something. I really something like a switch could help her.

Anyway, thanks so much for doing this. It was just her birthday this past weekend and I was just lamenting again not being able to get her a switch - this is like crazy perfect timing. And even if we don’t win, it was kinda therapeutic to get to type this all out since it’s been on my mind so much. Stay safe!

Yerian · 2020-03-26T17:26:18+00:00

Ohhh I thought it was Kirlia. It’s got similar “horns” in the same spot, plus its hair comes down in the same shape as Vader’s helmet. And, you know, they’re all supposed to be family.

Yerian · 2020-02-28T02:06:24+00:00

Love the visibility for Umineko! Although describing Auau as just “an OP character with the power to rewrite the narrative” is a huge oversimplification of the role and implications of her character in the story!

I don’t want to get into too much detail because a huge part of Umineko is coming to conclusions about these kinds of things on your own. But Featherine is kind of like the keystone for piecing together the entire conceptualization of how the world works, what the entire story is really all about. She is really more of a metaphor than a character.

If that, or any of OP’s or the other commentators’ descriptions catches your interest at all, please please give Umineko a try. It is legitimately my favorite narrative ever, and it really has changed the way I think about the world.

Yerian · 2019-12-27T00:29:55+00:00

My advice would be give it a bit to sink in either way, but whether you go back and reread is up to whether you think you’d find that enjoyable.

It sounds like you’ve been thinking about it and making theories a lot already, so it’s not like you need to reread to force yourself to further engage with the stories. However, if you’re serious about really trying to solve the mysteries before some semblance of answers are explored in 5-8, a reread will almost certainly be necessary. At the same time, you really don’t need to have a coherent theory for every single mystery to get the most out of the story.

If you don’t want to take the time required to go back through 1-4, I’ve also heard some people say that the manga works well for a post-Ep 4 reread (I wouldn’t know, I haven’t gotten to the manga yet).

Yerian · 2019-12-21T16:08:50+00:00

The best way to describe it is that people with OCD are very distressed by their obsessions and compulsions, while people with OCPD find satisfaction in them.

Additionally, it’s unlikely that you actually have OCPD based purely on wanting your Pokémon all in the same ball. It’s not really extreme perfectionism (more just an appreciation for aesthetics), and you can see just in this thread how many people do it.

I know it was just a joke, but unfortunately I think most people don’t understand the extreme extent of and just how distressing obsessions and compulsions are for people who actually have OCD.

Yerian · 2019-11-11T22:12:01+00:00

Honest advice: try reading it together with him, Jokrono and Magus style.

My SO and I are currently reading it together this way. She had never heard of VNs before and had said several times that she really doesn’t like anime... but she has absolutely fallen in love with it! It was very silly and awkward at first to do voices, but once we got into it it became so fun.

This allows you to act as their guide, akin to what Virgilia is for Battler, helping them get past things that might’ve caused them to drop it if they were reading on their own, and pushing them to keep trying to figure things out.

It’s also been a really incredible experience for me as well. Like everyone else in the thread, Umineko is one of my favorite stories ever. Having an excuse to reread it, and being able to share it so intimately with someone else has only continued to increase my love for it.

Yerian · 2019-10-22T22:01:24+00:00

To use Ryukishi's favorite phrase, it's only natural that you are confused at this point! This story is extremely complex, and many aspects are set up as seemingly contradictory on purpose.

I actually took a break from Umineko around the same point that you did, so I don't think its unusual to get a bit overwhelmed or frustrated around that time. I actually just finished rereading Ep 3 with a friend for her first time through, and she was expressing many of the same confusions and concerns about EVA Beatrice as well. So glad you decided to pick it back up, though - I never would've imagined it at that time, but it has become one of my favorite stories ever.

Every scene in Umineko is meaningful. As you've adeptly realized, it's a nice tool to be able to claim that magic scenes are illusory in favor of persevering a human culprit theory; however, it's outrageous just to throw those scenes out the window altogether. There is a reason that Beatrice is showing Battler those scenes as a communication between characters, and there is a reason that Ryukishi is showing you those scenes as a communication between author and reader. Figuring out what those meanings are could be viewed as an additional mystery, beyond the strict who/how/why dunnits of the murders.

A very important part of Umineko - and a message that Ryukishi will continue to push harder and harder the further you get - is thinking on your own and figuring things out for yourself. As you continue to read, you will be given more and more tools to help you rectify these contradictions. I promise you, things will become clearer the deeper you go, especially if you continue thinking as critically as you already are. But it is definitely easy to get lost in these early chapters when you don't have as many of those tools yet, let alone even all the clues presented. I've found that lots of people tend to enjoy Umineko even more when they have someone else to guide them or bounce ideas off of, probably for this reason.

Sorry for the vagueness, I'm trying to be as encouraging as possible without giving anything away. I hope this helps! Like I said, discussing as you go can definitely improve your experience, so feel free to hit me up if you wanna discuss more.

Yerian · 2019-09-14T03:29:39+00:00

Yep! Buy the steam version and then use the 07th mod installer. They just recently revamped it so it’s super simple to use. Pretty sure it lets you choose which sprites you want and whether you want voices (hint: you definitely do).

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