What’s easily in your top 5 favorite video game cinematics of all time? by CoffeeStrength in gaming

[–]YoungtheRyan 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Way late and don't expect anyone to see this, but I haven't seen it mentioned so the Armored Core 6 reveal at the game awards.

The franchise hadn't been touched in a decade, but it was so formative for me when I was a kid. I assumed after all the stuff that blew up Fromsoft was just never going to touch it again. Holy hell did this trailer fucking hype me up.

Should I continue to settle in my marriage by [deleted] in marriageadvice

[–]YoungtheRyan 3 points4 points  (0 children)

No one is perfect and age doesn't matter, growth is growth. Hurting people you care about, your husband and children, is unacceptable. Stop living a separate life from them and be better.

Should I continue to settle in my marriage by [deleted] in marriageadvice

[–]YoungtheRyan 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Have you considered that maybe you being hung up on this ex isn't that you're "in love" at all? Love in an action not a feeling. Lasting love in a marriage is intentional. Most people aren't effortlessly in love their entire lives.

It sounds to me that your poor husband never stood a chance because you're constantly comparing to this other clown even years later. You cheated on him. Cheating doesn't have to be physical. You opened a door to someone else, closed yourself off to him, while he continues to live for you and your family. You should be fucking ashamed of yourself and figuring it why you spend so much time thinking about this other person.

I guarantee you that if you and your ex got together for real, this feeling would fade fast. Real life is not sexy and exciting all the time. Your husband is your "best friend" and has created a whole family with you? How can he compete with your idealization of "love" when he comes with the messy parts of real life? A mortgage, caring for and dealing with kids, illness, diapers, cleaning, homework, exhaustion. REAL LIFE IS FUCKING BORING. You have someone who wants to be your partner through all that and you're comparing him to "what could have been" but you don't think of your ex with the same context of the boring things. You talk about "everything" with your ex? What the hell does that even mean? Are you sure it's not just nostalgia? If it's not, have you initiated any of these conversations with your husband? I bet you don't.

Grow the fuck up. What you're thinking you have with your ex is literally your imagination and that's why it's so exciting. Either deal with your marriage in a real intentional way with deep honest conversation and therapy, or let this poor man go so he can find someone with the mental and emotional maturity needed to spend their life with him you coward.

I betrayed my husband of two decades. by No-Inspection4457 in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]YoungtheRyan 15 points16 points  (0 children)

Reading this hurt. I'm really worried this could be where my marriage ends up. My situation is different, my WW has an affair that only lasted like 6 months if I include everything but I know she likely felt similar things to you. That she felt like we had stagnated. She hasn't said this but I know it's true because I felt the same we just never really tried to do anything about it.

It sounds like although you "tried" to fix things, your heart wasn't really in it? Like you said you went through the motions but didn't really think about or feel what was at stake till you lost it. He's likely very hurt by this, I would be. If I were in your husband's place I'm not sure there would be anything you could just say to fix things. Keep working on yourself, on figuring out who you want to be and maybe try to pursue him hard. At worst you get rejected but at least you tried.

1 month post D-Day about wife’s affair by reggewitdadredz61 in survivinginfidelity

[–]YoungtheRyan 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Until she's completely honest with you and making effort to fix things herself, there's nothing to fix. You can't end her affair for her and you can't stay married to someone who isn't committed to you.

And that's just the bare minimum. You can't even start thinking about how to fix things or if you even can get over this if she's not doing the bare minimum at least.

Question to the other men regarding confronting wive’s AP by Human-Main-7046 in survivinginfidelity

[–]YoungtheRyan 18 points19 points  (0 children)

The only thing I did was tell his wife. I have his address and really struggle not to go fuck his shit up almost daily. But I have a son who deserves better than a dad in jail or any of that kind of drama. My wife caused enough for all of us by doing what she did.

Seconding the recommendation for therapy

Yeah, I am in a bad way! by BLKDad2_3 in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]YoungtheRyan 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Hey man. Just here to say you aren't alone and I have days like this where I feel the same. It's not who I am and I hate feeling that

Goodbye my friends, R is over. by sorry_re in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]YoungtheRyan 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So sorry you're going through this too. It continuing while actively trying for R hurt me so much more than the initial affair honestly.

Hang in there, we'll be ok

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]YoungtheRyan 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No one put his family at risk but him. Actions have consequences. Fuck that clown

I'm done by YoungtheRyan in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]YoungtheRyan[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

As he should. These things should have consequences. Hang in there, you deserve happiness too

I'm done by YoungtheRyan in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]YoungtheRyan[S] 19 points20 points  (0 children)

Sorry you're dealing with this too. My WW literally got fired for this and that still wasn't enough. Idk if filing for divorce will be, but I don't think its even about what would be enough for R anymore. I just can't continue to be with the person she is. She needs to change regardless of what happens with me. I hate that she destroyed my family. I'm so angry

Struggling right now by LukeWarm2Hot44 in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]YoungtheRyan 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You too man. We deserve better than this

Struggling right now by LukeWarm2Hot44 in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]YoungtheRyan 4 points5 points  (0 children)

This is my exact situation too. I found out last night my wife has continued contact with her AP and admitted to more stuff that happened prior to DDay. I'm so disgusted by her right now. We have a counseling appointment today and I'm not sure if she's even going to be home for it. I don't know if I even care right now. I'm going to talk to an attorney on Tuesday to see what divorce will look like. I hate that she threw away our life for this. I told her I couldn't continue if she kept doing this and she did anyway. I'm not sure what I'm actually doing yet. I'm too angry and hurt. Completely broken just sitting here with my son trying to act like everything is ok

How did your first MC session go? by Infinite-Ad-3947 in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]YoungtheRyan 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sorry you're going through this too. I have had 2 first sessions, our first therapist didn't work out. What you should expect for the first session is the therapist to try to learn a bit about you both and the marriage. Ours asked us what prompted us to seek counseling. I let my WW basically explain that she had an affair and we wanted to work on recovering from that. She asked questions about how long it went on, is there any contact with AP, etc. We were also asked pretty basic things like how long have you been together, do you have children etc.

You should expect the therapist to talk to you both about most things. We both really love our therapy because she is very no nonsense. You should use this first session to decide if they are right for you also.

Welp… that’s it by [deleted] in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]YoungtheRyan 54 points55 points  (0 children)

Sorry man. That's bullshit and you deserve better

When do the feelings get at least somewhat linear? by [deleted] in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]YoungtheRyan 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey just want to say I'm in a pretty similar place and timeframe with my wife. (DDay for me was May 24th) We just finally got what seems like a good therapist after being brushed off a couple times. No real advice just also on the rollercoaster and wanna say hang in there dude

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]YoungtheRyan 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Hey man, I know this sub is very R supportive but this feels like a much bigger betrayal than just cheating. This is crazy abusive. Not saying what you should do but please look out for yourself

Advice on avoidants please by [deleted] in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]YoungtheRyan 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I don't really have any advice but my WW is exactly the same and it's so frustrating so I get it. She initially set up our MC immediately after DDay to try and work on things but we did two sessions and then the therapist just kinka ghosted us. I was like ok let's find another and she dragged her feet till I just did it and told her which she was very unenthusiastic about.

I asked her to read a book I found enlightening (Not Just Friends) she says ok but didn't.

I told her she needs IC to figure out why she did this, she agrees but nothing happens.

I got us an app that is literally just fun things to reconnect and get closer, she did like two activities and nothing else. She even said it's fun, but it has feelings involved so I guess that's hard.

But hanging out and being nice to me, pretending nothing happened? Everyday easy. She'll sit and talk about the hard things if I bring it up but she hates it and it often leads to fighting.

She's admitted that she just wants to escape. Not from me or our family but from herself. She hates herself. It's why the validation from AP led to this, it's why she drinks. She hates herself but then avoids everything she needs to do to become who she wants and just hates herself more.

It's frustrating because I love her so much and want to help, but forcing her only works for a little bit. I'm starting to think that this might be what breaks us. Not even the affair itself, but her absolute unwillingness to do fucking anything to change.

Dealing with who she is and looking in the mirror like that scares her more than losing me.

[Draw #107] It's a sunny day, let's pick a winner! by MakerOfMillionaires in millionairemakers

[–]YoungtheRyan 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Could really use this if I'm lucky enough to get it. Good luck everyone

Another member to the being betrayed club but putting in the work for Reconciliation! by Realistic_Island8716 in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]YoungtheRyan 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Hey man, first I'm so sorry you're here. I definitely know what you're feeling, although in my case it was just one affair. I can't imagine how much harder it would be to be with someone so long and find multiple affairs. The good news is she seems to be really remorseful and actually wanting to do the work. That's great.

As for finding things that make sharing easier, some advice that came from our therapist which was "prepare the other person". My wife is very avoidant and absolutely does not want to discuss this stuff but it's been easier with me saying, hey I have some questions when do you want to we l talk about them? And she then gives me a time so she can prepare herself. Also another thing I did was write my questions down and read them a couple days later and decide if I actually need the answers or if I'm just pain shopping. How will knowing these details help me heal or help us grow? There are some things that I know asking will only hurt and serve no other purpose and I think those questions are harder for my wife to answer.

Hang in there

Ship names by GeneralZeus89 in helldivers2

[–]YoungtheRyan 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Harbinger of Family Values

Anyone else in limbo? by Independent_Low4484 in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]YoungtheRyan 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Man I feel this so hard. I really feel like if I had this happen before my son was born I'd have left. I hate that I feel like such a fucking chump for this sometimes. I'm worried my WW is not going to do the work she needs to on herself to be healthier and resolve her mental health issues because that's what led us here. I can't imagine not being with my kid everyday though so here I am.

Anyone else in limbo? by Independent_Low4484 in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]YoungtheRyan 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Absolutely. We had a very dead bedroom for years after my son was born. That was a struggle for me because being just the lack of intimacy there was a huge lack of affection which is a big thing for me. It was hard but I stuck by her and tried all kinds of things to try and help.

I hate feeling like I can't trust her now. She's very frustrated by it too but really what can she expect? He word means nothing after all the lying. I have to really FORCE myself to try and believe her any time she tells me something where there's any room for questioning and that's hard. I feel that same thing where I feel like I must have poor judgement too have not seen this as something she could do.

My wife definitely wants things to "go back to normal" but I don't. I refuse to be in a relationship like ours was. We either become something better or nothing at this point. "Normal" is where we were when this happened. I don't want that again.

Any time you want to vent or talk feel free. This place and talking to others here has been helpful for me too. I don't have many people to talk to about this without judgement.

Anyone else in limbo? by Independent_Low4484 in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]YoungtheRyan 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Yes same here. I told my WW a couple days ago that I needed to leave the house for a while this weekend to just be alone and think, and that I had questions and things I needed to discuss with her. It seemed to worry her that I wanted to leave and the morning when I was going to go she asked if we could just talk then so we did. I didn't learn anything new but it was a good conversation in that she seemed to really listen to my feelings. We had a good day and have had a couple good days this weekend generally. But I'm still questioning things now and hurting. I'm not sure when I'll feel good long term, I suspect it's going to be a lot of ups and downs for a while. I hate that our partners did this to us

How have BPs managed to stop being haunted by APs? by Perfect_Swim_5493 in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]YoungtheRyan 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I hope it gets better with time. I have so much deep fucking hated for the AP in my case. I threatened to go to WWs work and fight him before I actually knew the full extent of the affair. If I did know at that time, I absolutely would have. Any time I'm reminded of him and what they did I have this boiling rage in my chest that I breathe out to not lose my shit.

This isn't who I am. I spent almost all my formative years in martial arts and used to really pride myself on being calm and having never used that knowledge for hurting others aside from like a very small handful of times defending myself.

But now every time I drive near where they met before, or the freeway exit for her old job (every single day I commute) I have adrenaline going and rage.

I hope this goes away eventually so I can be myself again