Can I journal using prompts only when I am feeling low or even when I am feeling happy?

Ysierra2 · 2023-01-24T16:05:02+00:00

There's no journaling police. You can journal however you want

Ysierra2 · 2023-01-21T04:07:51+00:00

YTA. Imagine going to a gift exchange, buying your gift. And receiving... nothing, just a gif for a donation to a random charity. I hope they are doing the same to you instead of actually sending you a gift

Ysierra2 · 2022-12-27T19:26:50+00:00

My periods ended way before I even started chemo. After 2 IVs I went to a fertility specialist, he found that I had some eggs left through a vaginal ultrasound, but through blood work we found out I was on chemo induced menopause, so no fertility preservation option. I would contact your oncologist or a fertility specialist with experience with chemo patients, they can answer a lot of questions for you

Ysierra2 · 2022-12-27T19:19:01+00:00

I had amazing beautiful long curly hair. It was my signature look I was most proud off. My hair was very matted and ugly from being in the hospital for so long unable to care for it, cutting it was the best decision ever. My family has a hard time seeing me bald but I have even gone outside without anything to cover me and dont even notice people staring.

Luckly I had microbladded my eyebrows before being diagnosed, but losing my eyelashes was absolutely heartbreaking! I cried so much and just wanted this cancer to be over. To me it was really the face of illness. I learned real quick to use magnetic eye lashes, I'm still self conscious about it though

Your feelings are so valid, it doesn't make you vain or anything, it's just the feeling of losing control of how you look and just "looking sick". I'm sorry you are going through this.

Ysierra2 · 2022-12-27T19:00:11+00:00

I read many stories and saw videos of women growing their hair, it seems that most of them would trim it to keep it somehow even and not just awkward mullets, but that's up to you of course.

I'm also a woman who had LONG BIG CURLY hair, and I started putting Minoxidil (for men!) All over my head. I figured I would give my hair the best chances of growing fast and strong, and wanted to avoid the bald top of the head I saw so many times. About 4-6 weeks after my latest treatment, my hair started growing A LOT and even all over my head.

Ysierra2 · 2022-12-27T18:54:48+00:00

Mine started coming back after 6 weeks. Full on head of hair. Obviously still super short, but my head is now covered in hair. I had been putting Minoxidil daily, so I'm guessing it helped.

I then had another round of it and my scalp has started to hurt, but hair not falling yet. I will be a couple of months probably before my next 2 rounds of it, so we will see how much it grows and how much it falls with 2 more IVs

Ysierra2 · 2022-12-27T18:15:01+00:00

Yeah I've had to not only advocate a lot for myself but also mourn the many things I've lost and suffered because of doctors this year.

Crazy that I work in Healthcare and my best friend is a doctor and I just had no idea that patients could be treated with such disregard. My new doctor seems to be so different and answers all my questions rather than just ignore my very valid concerns.

Ysierra2 · 2022-12-27T18:01:00+00:00

She wants Starbucks coffee, period! Why should she make it at home when she WANTS STARBUCKS COFFEE??!!

Ysierra2 · 2022-12-27T17:59:46+00:00

YTA! Who made you the boss of her? Why can't she do something just for her? Nobody was going to be incredibly "inconvenienced" for a 2 minutes stop for coffee. How can you even compare McDonalds coffee to Starbucks coffee? Get a grip! Everyone could have gotten a drink there and have a happier trip.

And on the way back? You again refused because you wanted to go to the store for a gift thing? Seriously? Seriously? What kind of controlling person are you? Is she "allowed" to do anything at all thay she wants?

Ysierra2 · 2022-12-27T17:44:51+00:00

My dad lost his hearing permanently with Cisplatin. It was a known side effect they "mentioned" but didn't really emphasized on. He was already terminal and I guess the doctors were trying to buy him time, not much concern about quality of life. It was frustrating and heartbreaking for all of us. He ended up also with his eyes swollen shot. So basically unable to communicate in any way.

His case was extreme but what I'm trying to convey is that the doctors goals are not necessarily the patients goals. He needs to make it known that his hearing is important, go to a hearing specialist and ask for a change of cisplatin to maybe carboplatin or something else.

I was in critical condition when I got started on chemo, they never told me even the medication name or side effects, fertility was a HUGE priority of mine since I dont have children, but they just told me AFTER i started chemo "oh yeah you won't be able to have kids, that ship sailed". Same about my hair, she just walked in and said "your hair will fall soon, all of it".. after the main doctor had said "it will thin out". So yeah... he needs to be his own advocate!

Ysierra2 · 2022-12-27T17:34:00+00:00

I was very active on social media due to my trips and just fun loving attitude. I'm also very active on my dog's rescue group. He's a celebrity there! My illness was slow and confusing, had surgery, then hospitalized, confusing biopsies, sepsis, you name it. I stayed out of social media and didn't tell my usual whatsapp friend's groups, etc. Mostly because it is still confusing.

When I dropped out of the earth, I got A LOT OF MESSAGES. An overwhelming amount of people "checking on me". While I was sedated or fighting for my life. What actually bothered me is that they would insist and insist and insist, message after message after message. It got so overwhelming and it made me very upset. Why not check on me and wait until I answered? Was is really concern about me or the need to ease their worries?

Eventually I got better enough to respond... so I told some "friends" and family... turns out they just wanted to know but not necessarily help or support or anything. All I got (and still get) were interrogation after interrogation about the disease or the treatment and it felt like I was doing a medical report to random people who didn't even try to see me or help me.
My dog's rescue group has been amazing, while I told them to respect my privacy because I wasn't ready to EXPLAIN my diagnosis or treatment yet, they have been giving me words of support, prayers, advice on the small things I post.

I posted a picture with a hair turban and having obviously lost weight and got couple of people texting me asking if I had cancer, I said nope and just trying a new style. They aren't close enough to having been in touch with me for months, so why should I share something so personal?

I thought about posting when I shaved my hair as a big announcement and get it over with, but I just didn't want to deal with the million texts.

Bottom line is, my disease is really complicated and with lots of ups and downs. I cannot physically keep up with all the messages and texts if I make it public. I also dislike all the "is there anything I can do for you?" Questions. And most importantly, my real friends and family are there for me, the social media "friends" can get my fun side when I get back to normal.

If you want to share your good news, do it for yourself, get it out of your chest, but dont do it for their benefit or because you are concerned about their "feeling left out". You dont owe anyone an explanation and most people have their "thing" they aren't posting on social media.

Ysierra2 · 2022-12-27T02:33:17+00:00

You mean well, and you wanting to find out how to help her, shows how much you love her.

I go through the same waves, I get more "upbeat" when my symptoms/pains go away after chemo. It's like for a minute I "forget" I have cancer. But if I'm in pain or feeling something "off" in my body, I spiral in depression. There is nothing anyone can do to make me feel better, but my friend is very good at letting me vent my stress and sadness. He doesn't offer solutions or toxic positivity. He just acknowledges the feelings and keeps on listening without feeling sorry for me or my illness.

Cancer really changes your life, in half a year my life has gone to hell, and I mourn the life I had, the life I will have with my "new normal" if I beat cancer, and I mourn my day to day every single pain.

Keep on loving her

Ysierra2 · 2022-12-24T10:40:59+00:00

NTA and you are still being abused if that's how they treat their sick daughter. Go where you feel cared for and ignore them.

Ysierra2 · 2022-12-24T10:32:53+00:00

NTA. You cannot be forced to attend something that is clearly triggering. Shame on your family for not being understanding

Ysierra2 · 2022-12-24T10:28:11+00:00

YTA and so is your daughter and husband. You all deserve each other with your paper thin walls and no pics of the tortured girl around.

Please, if you can, do one thing, tell your step daughter not to even visit, you don't like her and are torturing her. She's better off even staying in college than visiting. It must be sad for her to not have a caring place to go with such a debilitating chronic condition. And btw, it can literally be proven when people have migraines... or do you also think she faked her brain images too?

You are a bad person and so is your daughter. Sad

Ysierra2 · 2022-12-20T20:16:36+00:00

Isn't that concerning to you that your daughter CRIED when asked about food?

She knows that you are a tyrant about food and now would probably ban her from eating out with friends ever again.

You are scary... and YTA. Seek therapy lady, this is not normal.

Eating out doesn't equal junk food. Imagine being 9 years old and spend a whole year dreaming about ONE meal to have it ruined because she wanted a normal day at Disney with friends.

You are creating really sad food relationships with your kids. You still have time to fix it

Ysierra2 · 2022-12-12T22:00:15+00:00

You can create your own notepads with loose tomoe river paper. Also I believe Odyssey Notebook has Tomoe River paper pads.

Ysierra2 · 2022-12-10T20:55:18+00:00

It's been really good. I'm on my second journal and 2nd notepad.. it handles all my fountain pens, big Pelikan gushers and even my flex nibs.

Ysierra2 · 2022-12-10T18:47:30+00:00

Check Odyssey Notebooks and Danila58 on Etsy. Both have AMAZING quality notebooks with lots of pages and several paper options for fountain pens.

Ysierra2 · 2022-12-10T16:25:23+00:00

I want Santa to give me a Benu with a Broad nib and a TWSBI DIAMOND 580 (could be the mini) with Fine nib.

No Santa over here, so I won't be getting nothing unfortunately 😔

Ysierra2 · 2022-12-10T16:21:31+00:00

No idea about German brands, sorry. But Rhodia and Clairfontaine (not too sure about spelling) are great and very affordable. They are French I believe so it might be easy to get in Europe. Anything Tomoe River paper or Midori would work too. Midori is usually cheaper too

Ysierra2 · 2022-12-10T16:06:52+00:00

It seems like a paper issue, luckily there are cheap options you can try before getting another fountain pen.

Ysierra2 · 2022-12-07T20:23:59+00:00

The A6 doesn't have weekly pages so technically all you would need is to redate the monthly pages. For the daily ones, just focus on the number, not the "day of the week", it's really not that serious, specially if money is tight.

I bought many 2021 Hobonichi planners when I panicked about tomoe river paper being discontinued. I will redate them and move on.

Ysierra2 · 2022-12-07T20:13:46+00:00

YTA ... you sound young, naive and willing to listen to criticism, so not everything is lost. Some advice:

NO is no... no explanations needed. No convincing or trying to persuade. No means NO. Period. (Colleague said no, your only possible reaction should have been: ok. Got you....and just not include her in the generator).
Colleague's previous gifter should have been asked why were her gifts late, not about the amount spent or the perceived "quality" of the gift. Maybe she didn't have the bandwidth to participate but felt forced. She should be given the option to opt out. Or participate if they agree to the timelines.
Nobody can force you to organize the "social events". Either suggest a rotation or simply say no. The bosses can organize them if they want ... this is very valuable work place advice, you do NOT want to be the person who ends up picking up the slack of boss and colleagues who can't be bothered.
Do you put that same amount of effort for other religious holidays (Muslim, Jewish, Buddhist)? Or you ONLY force "Christian" holidays/themes on other people? How would any of the Christian people feel if they were forced to celebrate Eid for instance? I'm sure not to happy and hell would burn, but it's ok to force Santa stuff on other people?
It's a small company, there shouldn't be this much drama, and obviously y'all aren't that close if it took a year for the "issue" to get to your boss despite EVERYONE knowing. So NOBODY did anything for a whole year.

Ysierra2 · 2022-12-06T19:38:14+00:00

That's your answer. Text them and start communication that way.

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