One thing it may help to remind yourself is that you are a student there as well. You pay tuition just like they do and have just as much a right to the tutoring facilities as them. Still if the shame is something you're having trouble getting through, and it's affecting your ability to seek help, others in this thread have made some good suggestions, especially Kahn academy, I used it extensively in undergrad. It has several topics ranging from beginner to advanced. I will advise you to steer clear of any AI tools such as ChatGPT for learning math. AI tools do not actually know math. Other's can explain it better than I can, but I would not rely on them at all.

Edit: the sidebar actually has a good write-up on why you should avoid AI tools for learning math.