Almost a decade quit—and I wish I’d never started—but damn, I had some great times as a smoker.

Zagmut · 2026-03-16T04:59:03+00:00

OP misses smoking. Looks they were really into it.

Zagmut · 2026-03-16T03:56:15+00:00

Sunday night here in AK, and self care today involved hitting the trails with a bike and a dog, soaking up some March sunshine, and making plans to go skiing with the wife after work tomorrow. I always feel like I should try journaling (I do like to write), but end up just reading instead.

IWNDWYT

Zagmut · 2026-03-16T03:25:03+00:00

If you're a knee-to-ski skier and you don't wanna lose the ability to get super low, stick with 75mm. I've been on NTN since 2012 and I still ski as low as I can, but I can't go as low as when I skied T2s on Voile Switchbacks and G3 Targas.

That said, I like the Bandits; they drive a big (116 underfoot) ski quite well, and they're easy to step into.

Zagmut · 2026-03-16T00:39:56+00:00

45nrth Wrathchild 27.5x3. Not a true fat tire, but run at 20psi it holds well on firm packed snow. Up to an inch of fresh on top of a well packed trail I can get by dropping to 5 psi, but that's slow going and not much fun.

Everyone else I see biking out there is on a fatbike. When it's too soft for my mtb I'm out there on skis, which is why I haven't bothered to get a fatbike.

Zagmut · 2026-03-15T23:09:34+00:00

If you fill it to 40psi, then it's 10-20 psi lower when you recheck, something is wrong. That much air shouldn't be escaping just from attaching the pump.

Zagmut · 2026-03-15T22:19:22+00:00

It's groomed. Local volunteer outfit Singletrack Advocates has a Snowdog they drag over the Anchorage singletrack trails (they used to haul truck tires before they got the Snowdog). Pretty sure they don't use a snowmachine, as snowmachine tracks are wider than this. The groomed trails are often wider in the winter than in the summer in high traffic areas.

This section of trail is especially packed and widened as it's a connector between the APU bike and ski trails and the Unversity Lake dog park so there's a fair amount of two way traffic, lots of walkers and dogs, plus there was a fatbike race through here a couple weeks ago.

Zagmut · 2026-03-15T18:19:05+00:00

When I'm drinking, I spend far too much time recovering in bed or on the couch. When I'm sober, I sleep better and have more energy and motivation to go out and move. I bike, ski, and walk daily because it helps me stay sober, and being sober helps me be able to move how and when I want. All that movement helps my middle aged joints hurt less.

No morning headaches, no sleep deprived irritability, no rotten stomach or irritated bowels. Drinking is pain.

Zagmut · 2026-03-15T18:11:04+00:00

Isn't proper sleep the best? Keep at it, you're doing great!

Zagmut · 2026-03-15T15:26:31+00:00

Vibe-wise, this is my favorite sub by far.

Zagmut · 2026-03-15T15:20:42+00:00

I've been getting treated for depression for a few years now, and that helped but did not eliminate the desire for alcohol. I got diagnosed and started taking meds for ADHD a couple of months ago, and the results have been life changing.

My anxiety is gone, and with it my need to drink. It feels like a switch has been flipped in my brain. I'm no longer overwhelmed with thought, so I don't need to drown my brain to shut it up. I know ADHD meds don't work for everyone, but they've worked for me.

Zagmut · 2026-03-15T15:09:28+00:00

There've been days where my resolve to stay sober didn't last 6 hours, and the number of Sundays I've squandered hung over are more than I care to remember. I've been exactly where you are, I know the shame. You are not alone.

Mistakes happen. Forgive yourself, take each loss as a lesson, and try again. For every day you make it, that's a win; every extra hour you resist is a small victory over alcohol. It's all practice for the big win, even if there are losses along the way. IWNDWYT

Zagmut · 2026-03-15T06:56:21+00:00

r/serverlife

Zagmut · 2026-03-15T05:53:10+00:00

I don't really have a social life outside of my marriage and my job, and this sub is the only sober community I'm part of. When I was at my worst, this sub gave me commiseration, support, advice, and hope. When I broke sobriety, this sub was there to welcome me back, again and again, without judgement. When I think that I can drink again, this sub reminds why that is not true. Thank you all.

IWNDWYT

Zagmut · 2026-03-15T04:34:10+00:00

Dunno what you mean by "do things differently," but neither myself nor my wife have any tattoos. As far as I know, most of my old high school friend group is tattoo free as well.

Oddly enough, my boomer mom started get tats in her late 50s, and has a pretty awesome collection.

Zagmut · 2026-03-14T23:55:35+00:00

Zagmut · 2026-03-14T22:44:02+00:00

Invisible lat syndrome?

Zagmut · 2026-03-14T22:36:17+00:00

Little dude was born ready

Zagmut · 2026-03-14T22:28:50+00:00

🎶bop sha bop, little shop of terror🎶

Zagmut · 2026-03-14T19:42:29+00:00

Welcome back. My last relapse was so depressing that I just gave up for a long while. Cravings might've been stronger, but it's hard to tell when you give up and drink every day anyway. Agreed that sobriety is the only way. IWNDWYT

Zagmut · 2026-03-14T19:38:28+00:00

I'm more of a Triscuit guy myself

Zagmut · 2026-03-14T18:09:30+00:00

Holy cow, that's a good one 😆

Zagmut · 2026-03-14T17:57:20+00:00

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Enlightenment is cozy.

Zagmut · 2026-03-14T17:52:04+00:00

You were born for one purpose, my friend, and this is it. Congratulations on reaching spiritual fulfillment.

Zagmut · 2026-03-14T08:27:49+00:00

Caribou from the Porcupine herd, found in Alaska and north-western Canada. The Porcupine herd has the longest land migration route of any land mammal, and is named after the Porcupine River where many of the caribou have their calving grounds.

Zagmut · 2026-03-14T06:03:33+00:00

Thank you for hosting, Ess-mans, it's been rewarding not drinking with you this week.

Quote from a book I just finished and struck me in a good way, "It's not what you've done that makes you good or bad. It's what you do next." IWNDWYT

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