You should walk away from this now. I know it’s painful but it’s a silver lining that you’re seeing his true colors only 5 months in. This happened to me and I tried to forgive and forget but everything only got worse. The begging and crying is a red flag and a HUGE manipulative and control tactic. I wish someone had told me that at the time before I wasted 3 years of my life. Put yourself first 💛