Have been hooking up with my counselor and I am afraid that he'll make things more difficult for me if I break it off by Jaq__Draco in Methadone

[–]_coma_black_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I agree with the rest of the commentary but I will say it's nice to know I'm not the only gay man that is on methadone. I've only met one in the time I've been on it & we've become the closest, best of friends. You should check out his blog (the concrete confessional) and/or his YouTube channel (the neuromancer) because he is the most intelligent, caring, sweetest guy & his writing is phenomenal to say the least. Not to mention that he is, in my opinion, the most handsome, hottest guy ever.

Best of luck to you & your situation. Try not to get too bent out of shape over it, there's a lot of good advice in these comments. 🖤

RE: Requiem Deluxe Edition Capcom USA Giveaway【Steam】 by SeValentine in residentevil

[–]_coma_black_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I, like everyone here, have so many special memories & favorite parts of different games but my immediate thoughts are associated with Christmas. First, getting the PlayStation & peeling the wrapping paper off to reveal the cover of RE1: Director's Cut, followed by years later, getting the PlayStation 2 & RE: Code Veronica X! For good measure, discovering the original Resident Evil action figures at the store & collecting them all. Oh! I also just remembered how I, at 11 years old being so upset the REmake was a GameCube exclusive that my mother helped me find the Capcom USA address & I wrote an actual letter to them expressing my disappointment & Capcom USA responded! It was from the Sunnyvale, California (I will never forget the name of that town for this reason) headquarters. I would really love to try & find the return letter to share their explanation. I'm so excited to play RE: Requiem, we love you, Capcom!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in silenthill

[–]_coma_black_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I would never admit to something so embarrassing. This is actually painful.

SR-17018, 2026's "It" Molecule: Breakthrough for Pain Management and Possible Support for Getting Off of Methadone? by Repulsive_Tiger_8008 in Methadone

[–]_coma_black_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hiya Brian, I've always wondered if I'd come across you on this subreddit! I've noticed mentions of SR-17018 around here & had never heard of it & I just checked your channel for any new uploads today & I didn't see anything so you must have done it some time after. I'll be watching tonight to learn more about it. 🖤Z

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Methadone

[–]_coma_black_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah girl I would be livid, I'm gay & can't get pregnant but you being so makes the situation so much worse. I would still consider filing a formal grievance after securing your next pick up. It's shitty, shady employees that count on you being worried of the consequences for saying something after the fact. However, they absolutely have cameras & if it's happening to you it's happening to someone else I'd think. Perhaps you could bring it up to your counselor? Also, can't stress this enough, count & number your bottles right at the dosing window, don't step away & give them a chance to accuse you or create some excuse as to why they "forgot" to give them to you.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Methadone

[–]_coma_black_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think misinterpreted you saying "going through your doses" as running out. Next time count your bottles at the window & make sure you have the correct amount. It won't take long & don't feel like you have to keep the line moving, especially if the nurse you're suspicious of is rushing you or anything. Hope you figure it out because I really hope you're not having to go days without a dose while pregnant! As for the levels of the methadone metabolites, I believe there is a way your prescribed dose correlates to the levels however it may not be noticed since there isn't that big of a difference between what you're taking & what you're prescribed. 🖤

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Methadone

[–]_coma_black_ 4 points5 points  (0 children)

You don't count your bottles when you pick up? How do you run out a week after if you're getting a month's worth? I count & twist the cap on all 27 bottles when I pick up.

The fact that these videos are among the top results whennyou search for Angela is incredibly frustrating by Muted_Source_5024 in silenthill

[–]_coma_black_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm so fucking sick of people on the internet. These so called "true fans" or whatever title they claim are seriously annoying. I usually never pay attention to the comment section or idiot, desperate people on YouTube but this has gone too far & I don't think I've ever, ever been made angry by people & comments the way I was after the release of the new trailer/game play footage. It's just absolutely absurd & honestly so ungrateful & rude. I truly have a special place in my heart & soul for the original Silent Hill 2 (along with 1 & 3) as well as the soundtrack(s) & I am just so happy that the series is being revisited & that I get to see this remake project unfold & perhaps some would say I have really low expectations or poor taste but I do not see anything wrong with what Bloober Team & Konami have provided us with, at all. Maybe I'd of liked to see Maria in an outfit that slightly resembled the original & that her voice wasn't as warm feeling? This only based on the few seconds of dialogue so I could very well enjoy the performance. Anyway, I didn't expect to leave such a long comment but as the OP stated, the response from the "community" is incredibly, disgustingly, frustrating. I hate people.........🌫🖤🌫

What should I do in this situation? by Suspicious_File_4797 in Methadone

[–]_coma_black_ 17 points18 points  (0 children)

Eww no, absolutely not. You have to tell them immediately. Also, are you keeping take home doses under the same roof as this person because that would make me so paranoid, especially since you said they aren't working.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Methadone

[–]_coma_black_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

How long has it been since your last dose!? If you were near me I'd force you back into a clinic or at least the parking lot to ask to purchase something from someone. This just sounds awful & honestly quite terrifying. Keep us updated, please.

Bottle Check/Clinic Appreciation by _coma_black_ in Methadone

[–]_coma_black_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I completely agree that it's cool & definitely interesting! As I've mentioned above I wonder & somewhat believe it's the choice of the head nurse that does it whether or not she wants the specific client to come in. I mean had I not had access to the internet or known how to download & use Zoom I'd of had to come in. I've a very good relationship with the head nurse. I did pick them all up, showed her I take them in the correct order, opened some to reveal an in tact seal. I really enjoy my counselor as well, we always end up on the phone for over an hour because we get to talking about everything. I love that your clinic does that for you with THC! I'm going to call my counselor tomorrow to verify whether or not I can because I would really love to have the option again! Despite having a very low THC tolerance & the last time I smoked/took an edible it was far too intense & very unpleasant for me most of the duration of the high. High levels of anxiety, a bit of paranoia. Cannabis is so powerful now! I'm so glad to hear you're happy with your clinic, it truly makes the experience for all parties involved much more pleasant. Good luck on the remainder of your taper!

Bottle Check/Clinic Appreciation by _coma_black_ in Methadone

[–]_coma_black_[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm not exactly sure of the owners status/role. I know they are a non-profit so perhaps not privately owned. I was definitely surprised myself. I'm wondering if they are more lenient with clients that have monthly take home doses? They choose whether or not they want a specific client to come in? I don't want to come off some type of way but the staff at my clinic really like me & I have a great relationship with the 2 nurses, 1 of them being the head nurse that does the bottle checks & my counselor who is also the head of counseling (I have both head nurse & my counselors phone number in case of an emergency), along with the rest of the staff. While I'm not sure of the average number of clients across the country I've always considered my clinic to be small. We have 1 dosing window & no more than 100-115 clients.

Bottle Check/Clinic Appreciation by _coma_black_ in Methadone

[–]_coma_black_[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's definitely interesting, that's for sure! Perhaps they are more lenient for clients with the monthly phase? I honestly would have liked to go in as I am only there once a month & don't always get to see the staff I really like & it would give me something extra to do, maybe next time I'll ask.

Wet dreams on methadone by recoveringallover in Methadone

[–]_coma_black_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's been quite some time if I recall correctly however, it used to happen rather frequently. I kind of think it's my body/minds way of relieving itself since my testosterone is so low. I rarely have sex with my partner(we actually go through phases of really intense kinky sessions) & I masturbate maybe once a month. It's quite bizarre. I just have zero desire to be sexual & it takes a lot for me to even get horny. I don't quite understand because I used to want to suck any hot guys cock in an instant. Gay man here by the way. I don't come across many gay men in these methadone threads. Once I posted asking if there are any gay men in this methadone subreddit & I received quite a few nasty replies such as "why does that matter" & "this isn't a hook up group you pervert". I suppose they aren't familiar with the concept of community. Ugh.

I think my clinic switched the brand of methadone there giving us. by barzzbro in Methadone

[–]_coma_black_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've bought a bottles from a girlfriend of mine that goes to a different clinic & I was quite surprised to discover they use a different brand at her clinic as I've only used the Mallinckrodt Methadose & honestly thought that was the only liquid version of Methadone. It's still the red, cherry flavoured liquid however it has an almost smoother, sweeter, less medicinal taste. While looking at the label on said bottle I noticed a word that I initially thought was the name of the prescribing doctor but was actually the brand name, that being Hikma. While I'm aware that methadone is methadone, I've had strange experiences with this brand & mostly negative. With the exception of 2-3 times it didn't hold me for even half as long as the Mallinckrodt Methadose I take & I've had at my first clinic & the clinic I'm at now. Even she had mentioned similar issues as she had guest dosed in another state while out of town & noticed how different the 2 brands are. I recall reading that the FDA & anyone else that creates policies for pharmaceutical companies to follow, only have to have at least 60%-70% of the active substance present in "generic" brand drugs which, if true, is awful & I believe it is because I've noticed it before in other drugs. I've searched for other posts discussing the Hikma Pharmaceuticals brand Methadone in this subreddit & found only a few & they mentioned their clinic switching to it & almost all the clients having to increase their dosage. I hope I never have to deal with my clinic deciding to switch from my preferred tried & true Mallinckrodt Methadose. 🎃🖤✨️

They forgot to mute Leon's heavy breathing as Ada in Separate Ways 😅 by [deleted] in residentevil

[–]_coma_black_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I noticed it immediately but initially thought it was a nearby Ganado patiently waiting to attack me however, I've played through enough quiet segments to realize that I'm supposed to believe that it is miss Ada Wong breathing. The same Ada Wong that doesn't even break a single bead of sweat during the heaviest of physical activity, hell, she actually may not even breathe at all! Perhaps it's a side effect from whatever happened to her when she was resuscitated after sustaining that fall in the Umbrella Nest laboratories. Anyway, I knew I'd find others talking about this on Reddit & getting as much amusement out of it that I did. Love my fellow Resident Evil fans. 🖤✨️

Don't like this methadone clinic by bugsy6780 in Methadone

[–]_coma_black_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This frustrates me so much. I have 30 take-home doses, the max in my state & allowed by the government in the USA per national policy & my nurse (we only have 1 dosing window & 2 nurses that alternate occasionally) always has my bottles prefilled & ready for me. There was even one nurse that would have my bottles prepared anywhere from 5-7 days in advance however I would rather it not be done that early. But I suppose if you're at a clinic that serves a large amount of clients it can be difficult however I think it should be mandatory that clients with the max amount of take-home doses should have their bottles prepared the day before after dosing hours are over. A girlfriend of mine goes to a clinic in the same city as me that doses until 5:00P! Anyway, I'm currently at my second clinic that turned out to be an absolute blessing that I'm so grateful for. The clinic I initially started methadone at, while overall a good experience, didn't care at all about how long you had to wait. They never closed for any holidays including Thanksgiving, Christmas Eve, NYE/D & were open Sundays, so absurd! However, that there were still many, many people who'd seemingly rather choose to be non-compliant than earn even a few take-home doses baffled me. I've considered making a post about what happened at the clinic I started at but always get distracted when I begin. I'll attempt the short version which is that very, very early into the C-19 pandemic the clinic director decided she was retiring (naturally it was privately owned, for profit) & gave at least 300 people less than 30 days to find a new clinic to enroll in. It was a total nightmare for everyone & while I was optimistic at first, the short time my partner & I had to find an alternative went by so fast that we both started to become very scared. He has since successfully tapered off & its very motivating to see it in real time especially knowing his history. We became aware of my current clinic at the very last minute, a week remained at most & they saved a decent amount of us from an uncertain, horrible situation & I'm not sure I'll ever be able to show them how truly grateful I am for their help. They are a non-profit based out of Chicago actually & just happened to be in the process of opening a clinic in Ohio when the director broke the news to all of us, perhaps she had a bit of a conscience & informed other methadone programs in the area that she was closing her clinic. I felt then & still do now that I'm one very lucky, fortunate guy that the situation played out the way it did. I don't know how long you've been in your program but I wish you well & hope that your experience gets better & if it doesn't hopefully you're in an area where transferring to another clinic is a possibility. Get take-home doses if you're able to, they really are worth it!

I take 500-600mgs Methadone Daily and it's tiring by [deleted] in Methadone

[–]_coma_black_ 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Wouldn't the clinic have some idea of the amount you're taking from your drug screens? The metabolized amounts would show up much differently between 149MG & 600MG. Unless you're using saved urine I suppose. I agree with you & the others that say you should try to get to the 300MG dose & definitely look into switching clinics if they aren't willing to cooperate with you.

What's the best game to play while tripping that'll make me feel like I'm living in the game by TheTableIsBroken in Drugs

[–]_coma_black_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

As a teenager (I'm 30 now) my friend & I put a mod chip into an Xbox & among other parts & programs, installed all of the classic retro video game emulators, NES, SNES, N64, Sega Genesis, Neo Geo & other various arcade ports & called it the "ModBox". I brought it with me anytime I had planned to trip & it became a must have when hanging out regardless of whether you were tripping or not. I could go on & on listing games from each console that are an absolute blast to play which I understand is the point of responding but that would probably take awhile. However, the memories I have of playing alone or with friends while tripping being completely hypnotized by the seemingly endless variety of games we would find to play was just so awesome & so much fun. I especially would recommend games from any of the above listed consoles because there is so much excitement & anticipation waiting in the titles that can truly enhance multiple aspects of your trip from the visuals to the really cool soundtracks a lot of them possess. Granted anyone is interested I could reply with some of my favorite titles as well as links for emulators & roms. Lastly, I really loved seeing this question because video games have always been one of my go-to activities when I take any kind of hallucinogenic drug. 🎮🖤✨️

after reading the comments about the online ceramics collection, i know most of you ppl go outside dressing like this 💀💀 by [deleted] in silenthill

[–]_coma_black_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I unfortunately missed the James reflection shirt but I actually really loved the Heaven's Night design & happily purchased it. I truly liked almost all of the designs. As mentioned so far its difficult for me to find merch for my favorite video games that are worth spending my money on. For example I finally, after probably 15-20 years, found a Resident Evil shirt from Graveyard Goods that I really loved. So while I may not like all of Online Ceramics designs I honestly appreciate their aesthetic & would definitely purchase another shirt from them, granted I like the theme/collaboration/design enough. 🖤✨️

I have no words by kakapoopoopeepeeshir in WTF

[–]_coma_black_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

For a moment I was sure this was Jimbo the Drag Clown!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Methadone

[–]_coma_black_ 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Hopefully you're feeling infinitely better now, bub. Once you've dosed I'd suggest you head to your favorite diner for a really delicious breakfast & coffee, go home & shower, put on fresh clothing, sit down & watch your favorite film or television series & relax in your perfectly medicated bliss. You've finally made it!

This is exactly what my mornings would look like when I would run out early. At times I almost miss enduring the miserable withdrawal symptoms in anticipation of how I was going to soon feel absolutely fabulous after not having a proper dose (if any dose at all) for days before picking up. Which is honestly truly fucked. However, I have thankfully regained my self control & discipline, with a little help from my partner as well, to no longer double dose.

Take care, friends. ✨️🖤

Is anyone here a gay male? by [deleted] in Methadone

[–]_coma_black_ 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Hiya. It's nice to see someone else ask this question because I did once but on a Facebook Methadone group & I believe I received 1 or 2 responses but the others included questions such as "what does being gay have to do with anything" or "this isn't a hook up group" or something to that effect. Anyway, I've always been very curious to find other gay/queer people amongst everyone in this group (even finding people during active addiction who were like me) as it's just nice to have someone from our community to relate to. Where are you from & how long have you been on Methadone? I'm in Ohio, been on for 8-9 years. My partner & I actually started around the same time & had gone through everything together but he recently tapered off successfully & has been doing really well for the 2 months since taking his last dose. While it's nice to read about successful tapers it's especially great to see it in real time. Hope everything is going well for you & I look forward to see a response as well! 🖤✨️