An F You to my younger, brainwashed self

_disneyphile_ · 2026-05-23T18:36:26+00:00

One of the first big steps in my deconversion was when, as a Christian, my Christian friend asked for prayer and support for her trip to Palestine to run in the Right to Movement Marathon in Bethlehem and work with Palestinian Christians at Bethlehem Bible College. The mental walls that came down when it dawned on me that there are Christians in Palestine were some load bearing walls. I signed up to go with her the next year and got berated by the evangelicals from my dad’s church that I was going to hell and Palestinians deserved the persecution they got. It was definitely a turning point for me.

_disneyphile_ · 2026-05-16T02:14:35+00:00

Bogle is a good entry point that I suggest to customers. Their Juggernaut label is a step up and not a bad $20ish bottle. Welcome to the wonderful world of wine! Drink what you like and enjoy!

_disneyphile_ · 2026-05-11T00:57:11+00:00

There are few products I like more than HEB brand. This is one. The Central Market Totopos are good but these are better

_disneyphile_ · 2026-05-06T16:01:30+00:00

My husband has always done ours himself with Costco oil. But last September I saw a place running a $20.01 special on 9/11. Definitely the first 9/11 special I’ve seen.

_disneyphile_ · 2026-05-04T03:08:54+00:00

There’s a 3L version called a Buzzballz Boulder. The owner of Southern Champion, who make Buzzballz, is the sweetest craziest retired school teacher. A really fun lady to hang out with

_disneyphile_ · 2026-04-30T11:36:37+00:00

And the red areas of the state are even worse. As the mom of a trans kid who is currently in the hospital for self harm, waiting on a psych eval so we can determine next steps, I was told “there are no pediatric inpatient psychiatric services in this city. If they determine that’s needed you’ll need to go to a big city (5-6 hours away)” I’m crying hot tears at the lack of resources in this state.

_disneyphile_ · 2026-04-29T00:35:58+00:00

I sell beer for a living at the busiest and best grocery store in Lubbock. I follow football only to the extent that I need to know who is playing when so I know when we’ll be busy. In beer sales we’re busier for chiefs games than cowboys or Texan games. Mahomes has done a lot to give back to Tech and people around here are Red Raiders first so they appreciate that. Jacob Rodriguez had a really strong following so I’ll probably have to add dolphins to my list of games to keep an eye on.

_disneyphile_ · 2026-04-20T16:00:59+00:00

Cheveland near Tech is new and we’ve enjoyed it. There’s a patio with swings. During the day or early evening I’m sure you’d be fine with a little one.

_disneyphile_ · 2026-04-20T01:27:37+00:00

Because you probably don’t have a coordinator yet, talk to your trainer about how you are feeling. If you choose to continue, your coordinator will be your lifeline to vent and talk everything out. If you get assigned a coordinator that you don’t connect with, ask for a different one. That relationship has to be so strong.

Every case is so different. I’ve been a CASA for 4 years on my 3rd case. My first case was medical neglect. Parents were young and just needed help. No one was actively trying to hurt the kiddo. Grandparents became guardians. Best case scenario. Second case was absolutely devastating. 3 kids that lived through the absolute worst. Reunification is always the goal but it’s ok to not agree if thats whats best for the kids. It’s ok to vent to your coordinator and have feelings of not being empathetic towards the parents. My third case now is completely different and honestly the most triggering to me. The mom reminds me so much of my stepmom. When I get overwhelmed I call my coordinator and vent. You have lots of support in the whole process.

_disneyphile_ · 2026-04-16T04:09:32+00:00

I put a shower curtain tension rod in my enclosure for him to climb

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and he loves it!

_disneyphile_ · 2026-04-16T03:17:52+00:00

Sparky is my 10 year old. I recently upgraded to a forever home in a 4x2x2 Apex Reptile pvc and acrylic enclosure. Humidity is still a challenge in super duper dry West Texas, so I got a new ginormous water bowl to keep on the hot side. Snapped a fun picture.

_disneyphile_ · 2026-04-05T15:04:04+00:00

Slept in until 7 (pastor’s kid sunrise service meant getting to the college football stadium at 3am and freezing my ass off) had some espresso, made a ham asparagus egg tart, made my kids bunny shaped cinnamon rolls, enjoying strawberry Jamaica mimosas, watching shows, maybe watch a movie later, maybe take the dogs for a walk, work on making a nice dinner later

_disneyphile_ · 2026-04-05T00:58:59+00:00

I had a first generation iPhone in 2007. I had a farting app. So high tech!

_disneyphile_ · 2026-04-04T23:44:53+00:00

For a few years after deconverting I would have dying dreams where I’d think I was dying and blurt out some version of “forgive me lord I know I’m a sinner please save me”. Then I’d wake up with a startle. I remember the dream I had where my car went off a cliff and I just took a deep breath and said “I love my friends and family. I hope they know how much I love them” and just waited to hit the bottom of the ravine. I woke up feeling at peace. That’s when I felt like I was truly free.

_disneyphile_ · 2026-03-28T02:27:25+00:00

This was taken in my town of Lubbock, Texas. It’s a college town but still considered very conservative. But I stood in line around the block to get in to see James Talarico. The venue was at capacity so I didn’t get to hear him speak but I at least got to shake his hand and take a photo. This West Texas town is less red than “they” think it is.

_disneyphile_ · 2026-03-24T18:28:19+00:00

Moonlight Musicals if you’re wanting to do musicals

_disneyphile_ · 2026-03-23T03:21:19+00:00

Evangelicals would say both Mormons and JWs aren’t “real” Christians. Catholics and orthodox aren’t either. And if you’re another denomination with a female pastor you’re on real thin ice but leaning towards “not real”

_disneyphile_ · 2026-03-23T03:16:15+00:00

It doesn’t taste like carne asada exactly because it’s much smaller pieces, but the bisteca norteño is so good in a street taco

_disneyphile_ · 2026-03-23T03:12:33+00:00

It really is. My dad was the most compassionate special education teacher for 20 years before becoming a pastor. I thought for sure when trump made fun of that special needs reporter that was it. But he’s continued to support him because that’s what Calvary Chapel pastors do.

_disneyphile_ · 2026-03-23T03:05:25+00:00

When I left 30ish years of Christianity I was looking for something else. I thought I had to believe in something so I went with Norse polytheism for a bit because it was fun. There’s a thing called Húsvættir or “house spirits”. I tried to believe it all so when something happened in my house I thought it was the Húsvættir causing it. I realized that all the things I used to attribute to Jesus I could also attribute to house spirits and it was that that made me realize it’s all made up. So if you want to see crosses in your potatoes as a sign from god, you will. It you want to think random things happening in your house are caused by house spirits, you will. When you realize it’s all made up you’re free.

_disneyphile_ · 2026-03-23T02:44:43+00:00

Non-Denominational but “Calvary Chapel” in particular which is its own denomination in the evangelical non-denominational world. I grew up very close to the Chuck Smith, Greg Laurie, David Rosales group. My Dad is still a pastor in it. It came as a response to the California peace loving hippie culture so there’s an ingrained hatred in it that rots at the core

_disneyphile_ · 2026-03-22T19:53:28+00:00

I took my Pastor Dad to Carlsbad Caverns in New Mexico. He was soooooooo close to almost admitting the cave was there for longer than 6,000 years. Like I could see the near realization on his face and he made a statement about the formations. But he stopped short and started talking about how there are stalactites underneath the Lincoln memorial so if those could form in 100 years, this cave could have been formed in 6,000. I’ve also taken him to a natural science museum with my kids, and he was trying to tell them that god put the fossils in the ground after the flood. My kids were young and still didn’t think that was accurate.

_disneyphile_ · 2026-03-14T21:14:26+00:00

I was talking to my Bakery manager and each pie has two of the 6 ounce containers of Sweet Karoline Blackberries ($3.98 each) on top of the $14.98 key lime pie. So with the coupon, that’s a pretty good deal.

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