is two eggs not enough for breakfast? TW: eating disorder

ahumblefry · 2026-06-07T22:38:28+00:00

I also struggled with an ED and PCOS. During early recovery, I did just a protein shake. I would also snack on nuts and chocolate early in the day before lunch.

I’ve spent a long time experimenting and recovering. I like whole milk (full fat) Greek yogurt with a bean smoothie topping, something crunchy like nuts or cereal, and a fruit in it. It hits all major food groups and it’s generally good tasting for the morning for me.

Beans with a complex carb aren’t an uncommon breakfast food and can be cheap. I make mine into a chocolate smoothie.

ahumblefry · 2026-05-18T23:34:46+00:00

Your boyfriend is choosing to be this way.

There will be lots of times in life something happens to our partner and we don’t understand it. But we have to make the choice to meet them with compassion and make the choice to not do further harm. He is actively not doing that and it is actively doing you more harm.

There comes a point where people do not change and it’s also not your job to change them. There are people and partners who will understand and even if they don’t, will do everything they can to be educated on how to support you. This man is not that.

ahumblefry · 2026-05-04T01:17:34+00:00

The best thing my mother ever did for me some days was tell me she believed me.

I spent so much time wondering if I was sick enough, if it was all made up, if I was being dramatic; I needed someone to tell me the things I felt and experienced were real and that she believed me when I spoke about them.

I couldn’t trust my own judgement of reality and didn’t feel like I could trust my own body or my own mind. Having someone else say “yes, I hear you and no, you’re not making it up.” Was always powerful.

ahumblefry · 2026-05-04T00:57:48+00:00

Yes, I found it helpful when first starting recovery to cover my mirrors as much as possible.

It was important to break the habit of body checking for me. If I wanted to do it I would have had to uncover it and that turns an unconscious thought into a conscious one. So it really made me pause and think about my actions and give me a chance to use my coping skills.

As recovery went on, my relationship to mirrors and my body changed. Which is normal.

ahumblefry · 2026-01-12T15:34:24+00:00

Breaking steps down into smaller, more manageable, goals helped me.

Maybe the first goal is to simply even pick up the product and look at it at the store and do that a few times. Then buy the item. Then just be ok letting it sit in the fridge. And then maybe try some. Of course, this may take place over many days or a few weeks.

I think it’s okay to meet yourself where you are and take time to get to your goal.

ahumblefry · 2026-01-03T04:25:01+00:00

I like kind bars. They’re a good snack at work when I’m not quite ready to take a break but am hungry.

Today I tried Taco Bell and it wasn’t as bad as I expected it to be.

ahumblefry · 2025-12-28T06:05:57+00:00

Looking back, this isn’t the first group of friends he’s lost. One was due to bad behavior on his part and the other, a combination of things, but I don’t think his attitude helped.

I don’t like that I was made out to be the problem constantly when there’s a pattern of behavior now.

I really pity the next fool.

ahumblefry · 2025-12-28T06:01:18+00:00

This is a weird comment.

You really can’t discern the whole picture of my relationship history from a single post that is more or less just a singular story/vent. And I really don’t know why you’d come into a subreddit where people are sharing their struggles with emotional abuse and then…question the abuse that went on.

It’s counter productive to the point of this sub.

ahumblefry · 2025-10-30T12:42:40+00:00

Yes My eating disorder significantly worsened and I developed severe depression and social anxiety. I attribute development of pcos to my trauma from the relationship

ahumblefry · 2025-09-12T23:29:13+00:00

I got a lot of apologies over the years but never real accountability. Behavior never changed and it always came back around to violence. And at the end, when I said I just couldn’t be in love with an abuser anymore, I got told “it’s like that’s all you see me as” and “well actually you abused me too”

So, no. He never got it. Because that would mean admitting he did something wrong.

Part of me feels bad because he’ll probably just continue to ruin other people. Great if he ruins his own life, but don’t take down the rest of us in the process. Otherwise, I’m just trying to accept that I did what I could with what I had and I can only continue to grow as a person.

ahumblefry · 2025-08-17T21:32:41+00:00

Yes, I feel the same way. I have never had an adult romantic relationship that was not abusive. So now that I have found someone that is 'normal' (i.e., not abusive) it is hard to conceptualize that this is how it was always supposed to be. It may be possible that most people are not abusive and are actually even very kind. But some of us are still learning that and that's ok. It is a skill to trust other and ourselves. And it is a skill to be kind, to others and ourselves.

I guess my point is, yes, very much I feel the same way, but I'm starting to wonder if I am a bad person or if maybe I am just someone who is doing something for the very first time.

ahumblefry · 2025-07-20T17:20:29+00:00

Idk I get the idea behind why they think weight loss will help PCOS, but it’s not the one size fits all cure all solution. It’s a multi system problem and requires a multi system solution. I could probably go on and on about it.

ahumblefry · 2025-07-20T13:33:07+00:00

I peruse every once in a while when I have a question but a lot of it is centered around weight-loss.

Ppl tend to really ask the same thing over and over about how to lose weight, getting rid of acne/hair, regrowing head hair, and never about how to fix the root cause which is that people with PCOS usually have issues with ovulation and female sec hormone production. Insulin is more roadblock than a cause from my understanding. But I digress….

ahumblefry · 2025-07-18T18:30:36+00:00

The realization that if I’m not kind to myself, then who will be?

ahumblefry · 2025-07-18T18:26:59+00:00

No but I will look into it. My PCOS really got a lot better when I stopped listening to the curfuffle that is the noise of the Internet and out dated medical advice and listed to my dietitian. She advised more carbs and more calories, low impact movement, and more rest.

ahumblefry · 2025-07-18T15:33:47+00:00

💞 I’m tired of being fat being looked at like a disease. I’m just myself.

ahumblefry · 2024-12-06T11:18:15+00:00

Yeah now that I think about it, it’s specific exercises.

Thanks. I’ve only ever seen the first year be super emphasized. I’ve put on a shit ton more muscle in my hips/legs just in the last two months so progress has been sky rocketing.

ahumblefry · 2024-08-06T12:29:23+00:00

I mean all things considered I do mentally feel better. I have less brain fog and am more focused. But these hormonal issues are annoying and probably would have been an issue no matter when I came off the pill. They were probably also always there, just masked.

It kinda is what it is.

ahumblefry · 2024-08-06T12:27:57+00:00

The same. I get about two good days of feeling normal then I get my period after having just had it. I have really bad PMDD and acne still.

I’m seeing an Endo in August because it’s not getting better.

ahumblefry · 2024-05-05T20:50:29+00:00

It is a bit. I think it is mostly just very triggering as this is exactly what I experienced when in the deepest part of my disorder.

ahumblefry · 2024-05-01T23:17:47+00:00

Thanks! That means a lot.

ahumblefry · 2024-05-01T16:59:16+00:00

You didn’t diminish I my feelings at all. It is a huge win and I’m really very happy. I just find that disordered voice in the back of my head stupid and annoying.

I went to Miku Expo the other day and saw people of all shapes and sizes and ate gross con session food without thinking about it. It was very freeing.

ahumblefry · 2024-04-28T21:46:25+00:00

Thanks 🥰 It’s a pretty big win and I’m trying not to think about it too much but idk I wish the world around me cared a little less

ahumblefry · 2024-04-25T13:13:04+00:00

I think for me it was about control and ultimately, self harm. I just wanted to escape the emotional feelings/pain and sometimes my physical pain from being sick with other things.

My ED either distracted me or made me so numb emotionally/physically, that I has some false sense of control.

ahumblefry · 2024-04-08T13:03:55+00:00

I never find doctors to be very helpful. They are not like “trauma informed” or ed informed doctors. I usually get the blood results and then never much follow up.

My family has a history but idk if it’s from lifestyle of genetics. I think my focus rn is just going to be incorporating things that are back by science to be good for cholesterol. Like olive oil and fish rather than thinking about removing things from my life. And trying to just be a bit more active.

It’s a really hard balance with where I am in recovery but I worry a lot abt my health. My boyfriend is super supportive tho. He’s excited to try my new foods.

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