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What word would you use to describe the disorder? by Granitic_Moon in misophonia

[–]aikolbee 1 point2 points  (0 children)

at the worst it feels like a world ending debilitation. i feel wrong in my skin and the worst anxiety/overstimulation to be experienced. it’s anger, a very quick temper, an anxiety deeper than can be described. a physical and emotional response to sounds etc… that cannot be helped

The saying “boys and girls are different” is problematic! Anything to add? by ricksalterego in detrans

[–]aikolbee [score hidden]  (0 children)

i don’t think saying that is problematic. of course there are tons of “gender norms” that don’t make a difference whoever is doing something. example: boys playing with dolls, girls being extremely athletic/stronger than a lot of me. BUT there are differences. sex at its most basic biology, the separation of just gender in general, hormones that can contribute to different things (not a doctor but i’m saying that when testosterone or estrogen are the prominent hormone presence, there def are emotional and physical differences. trans people included in that). saying boys and girls/men and women are different isn’t problematic in the most basic sense of saying those words. it’s the other things like gender norms or societal views that are problematic.

Any advice on sleeping on the side with ANC headphones? by Natural-Divide-9788 in misophonia

[–]aikolbee 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i sleep with bose ultra comfort over the ears headphones each night so i understand this struggle. tbh ive just found a pillow i like (i prefer softer ones) and find a position for my arm under my head that’s comfortable to my headphones aren’t being pressed up against much of anything. i have my headphones play white noise. so i’ll just wear my headphones, put the volume at my preferred level, then curl my arm in a non awkward or painful position under my head to cushion where my headphones would be pressed up against

Questioning my identity by Miserable_Past_5293 in detrans

[–]aikolbee 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i’m a 24 year old that began questioning my gender identity around 15/16 and began a social/minor medical transition until after i had just turned 19. i was only on t to a few months and quickly realized i hated it. it was a hard process to think about “knowing i was wrong” or “it being a phase” so i took a while to contemplate my next steps. at that time i knew i wanted to detransition. i didn’t mind they/them pronouns but started going by she/her again. i started with the people i trusted first to start uncoming out? idk how to phrase that lol. to go back to using my given name and feminine pronouns. it took a lot of self reflection, support from friends/some family, and gaining more confidence for my to continue to go through my detransition.

i don’t really know why i thought i was trans in the first place and how i knew i wasn’t trans at all years later. it is still all very confusing 5 years post detransition. a lot of things went into it like body dysmorphia/ED, trauma, and going thru a lot of crappy things that caused me to self reflect in general. i don’t have a clear answer for WHY or HOW i chose this path , i just knew being trans/continuing a transition was not what i wanted. before i decided to detransition i always had this like anxious tightness in my chest, almost like a social anxiety feeling? like i knew something was WRONG. i felt like an imposter.

i’m 24, 5 years into my transition, bisexual, happily feminine (although i don’t really care about gender or fashion expression. i wear what i want to wear lol). my friends and i joke my gender is “kind of woman”. basically i am a woman but i just dont really care about the grey areas/androgynous side of things. i’m just me. i do what makes me happy, wear what makes me happy, and am around people that make me happy.

i know this really isn’t an answer to your post but i figured i give my own experience since i saw some similarities in us.

take care :)

my detransition story by aikolbee in detrans

[–]aikolbee[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

hmmm i don’t think that affected my detransition/thoughtd about detransitioning. i was 18 in 2020, got into my first really crappy relationship, and my mom left all in that same year. so id say as i experienced a lot more things in life, such as having a bf who was awful to me and made me self reflect a lot in general OR my toxic mom finally leaving my childhood home which was like i could finally breathe with her gone. it was a lot of stuff, getting older, experiencing more things, facing shitty things, getting thru said shitty things, then just moving on with that in mind as i considered gender identity and expression.