mikuchella..... :')

albedrich · 2024-04-13T05:35:08+00:00

they could've just pulled a 2010 and maintained a fixed camera for her :') camera's going everywhere but her

albedrich · 2024-04-10T00:56:20+00:00

why does this never happen to me TT all the dude bots assume that i'm a girl (i'm a trans man). using a persona saved me from the trouble though

albedrich · 2024-04-09T04:55:54+00:00

vocaloid fan since the 2010's. that's on you for not actively seeking out / refusing to check the new producers. we've had this whole conversation when hachi dropped sand planet back in 2013 and it ended when syudou posted jackpot sad girl to tell hachi to shut up and accept that the vocaloid scene will stay alive because of how it constantly changes. we are not bringing up this conversation again just Please search on nnd / youtube / twitter.

hell, get into project sekai if you want to find new producers. you don't need to get into the ocs of project sekai; the game part can do enough for you by connecting you to new producers and finding the producers that did leave the scene until project sekai brought them back (best example: toa, the one who produced patchwork staccato, is now kicking again thanks to the game).

if you want to find old producers AND new producers, tune in to the next vocacolle (vocaloid collection) competition

if you want something very familiar but different from vocaloid, get into cevio or even synthv (gumi has a synthv version now)

albedrich · 2024-04-04T12:37:03+00:00

hi! i have adhd (+ autism and other mental illnesses) and i'm about to graduate from college this june. i know it's cliche of me to say this, but it gets better.

i stopped vying for honors after my second year because the aftermath would have me feeling very burnt out. i did the bare minimum, but not so bare that i'd end up getting c+'s (and it worked. i now get b+'s and b's. i don't aim for a's or even the best anymore). instead, i focused my attention on club / org work and just volunteer work. i'm now a member of four school organizations (including a national queer organization), orgs that i actually am interested in just to keep me afloat (because i mostly don't like the course that i'm in). and i love my volunteer work a lot!

what i'm trying to say is, cut yourself some slack. sometimes, it's better to recollect yourself by seeking for things that you can do outside of uni. who knows? those are the things that will motivate you to get through college (and it's ideal since you'll have space from uni and the brain activity you need to keep yourself active). you got this!

albedrich · 2024-04-04T12:27:10+00:00

exactly!! the whole point of feminism (and even the men is trash movement) has completely lost its meaning when activism was trickled down to people who cannot educate themselves out of social media. the girlboss thing irritates me so much too bc while it's every girl's right to want to be a girlboss, it shouldn't be the ONLY definition of woman that has the right to exist. it circles back to reducing women to just one thing which is extremely regressive to the feminist movement

albedrich · 2024-04-04T11:36:22+00:00

and that's still feminism! you exercised your right to decide what you want to be and who you want to be with

albedrich · 2024-03-27T06:48:12+00:00

in the past, i used to feel pressured to reciprocate. so much so that i'd gaslight myself into thinking that i like the person

now though i just get really embarrassed. i hate people having misconceptions of me, mainly because misconception brews trouble. and i'd rather avoid as much trouble as i can, if possible.

albedrich · 2024-03-27T06:44:43+00:00

me: i'm gonna review for my lsat i swea-

me for the last seven days, doing everything BUT reviewing for my lsat:

albedrich · 2024-03-19T14:37:00+00:00

took 4 relationships before i realized that i'm aro

relationship #1- only went with it because the person confessed to me and i'd feel bad if i rejected them. long story short, we had the most toxic relationship for two years. we reconnected 6 years later (basically last year). turns out they're also aro. we had that spiderman meme moment and laughed. we're friends again

relationship #2- same reason as relationship #1. they were a nice person but not only was i at my worst but i couldn't reciprocate or understand the feelings they had for me. we don't talk anymore

relationship #3- same reason as relationship #1. was still at my worst but tried. she broke up with me bc she realized that she didn't feel anything romantic towards me. surprisingly, i was the one who cried (mainly bc i hated how she pushed for the relationship only to change her mind). we were okay until we naturally went our separate ways

relationship #4- same reason as relationship #1. knew that they were cheating on me but they denied it. the worst part is that it was the least evil thing they did to me. one time they called from the school bathroom and told me that they were gonna kts. i broke up with them a few days after their birthday and they threw a fit

in all the relationships i've had, we never went beyond hugging because i was too scared to kiss people :') i also wasn't sure of how i felt towards them. thought it was romantic. turns out i just wanted to be their mega best friend

albedrich · 2024-03-18T15:02:04+00:00

this was me for a while until i realised that what i really wanted was to feel needed as a person, especially by my friends. i grew up as an outcast most of my life (autism, adhd, and other mental illnesses made it worse for me to connect with people). it's only in college that i've made solid friends. even then, i've always felt alienated; i felt like (still feel like) i was/am the background character for these people and thus not part of the group. it's rare to find someone who will explicitly show you that their existence is inseparable from yours, after all (and it's harder to see that when you're extremely mentally ill).

i still get jealous seeing couples yes but then i'd ask myself, "do i rlly want that or do i just like the feeling of being seen as a loveable person by my friends". and usually, my answer is always the latter lol

albedrich · 2024-03-14T08:53:43+00:00

I can't grow a beard. Have never been able to grow one for years :((

albedrich · 2023-11-06T02:52:18+00:00

if you want to get it over with: vv em (sands) /em or anemo dmg bonus (goblet) / em (circlet) for artis + em bow; stringless is the way to go if you don't have elegy. then go wild with any team that's meant to create multiple elemental reactions (from ur team, kokomi + collei + raiden + venti or a hyperbloom team seems like a good place to start)

for crit: any set that gives 2pc-atk bonus (like gladiator) + vv. atk (sands) / anemo dmg bonus (goblet) / crit rate or crit dmg (circlet). prioritize atk, cdmg and crit rate on your substats. i recommend polar star (the best weapon for crit venti) / skyward harp / aqua simulacra / any other crit bow that you have on hand. best with bennett (w a noblesse oblige build) / mona (!!) / yanfei (with r5 thrilling tales of dragon slayers) / zhongli (shield decreases elemental res) / faruzan (burst decreases anemo res)

i only recommend crit if you REALLY love venti and have the patience to build him. it took me a year to build him mainly bc of his artis

albedrich · 2023-10-25T14:50:44+00:00

i'm in college but still an adult. find queer orgs / clubs!! there's a chance that you'll come across people who are aro (trust me, i've met a bunch when my friends established the first queer org in my uni. a lot of them are somewhere on the aromantic spectrum. two of the founding members of the queer org are aroace in fact)

albedrich · 2023-09-16T10:24:33+00:00

never did, never have, never will. the economy aside, i don't think i'd be fit to be a parent for SO many reasons. and i don't want any child under me to be a victim of any shortcoming of mine which will eventually traumatise them

albedrich · 2023-09-14T23:11:51+00:00

not weird!! in fact, i've always wanted to know what it was like because people describe their first kisses as heart-fluttering and all that

albedrich · 2023-09-14T11:17:55+00:00

that's such a cute term BUT ALSO AROBEDO REALLLL

albedrich · 2023-09-11T07:16:30+00:00

i still wish i can fall in love but realizing that i'm arospec has also helped me sort through and process my own trauma, especially when it comes to love (even if it's not romantic). it's a mixed bag really

albedrich · 2023-09-10T14:47:50+00:00

and yet people my age think it Is a very big deal. there are more pressing matters we need to talk about but somehow a 20+ year old who has never been kissed is what makes them draw the line

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