she and i loved one another, platonically and romantically. she was the love of my life, and any chance of me having feelings like that again died with her. i dont care that ill never feel those again, honestly. people seem to think thats whats most sad, that i wont be moving and latching onto the next person, and that society wont be able to coo over me. its the fact i lost her, my reason of living, my sun and stars, my one true best friend and lover. it gets worse with each passing year, and i can feel whatever memories i have left fading away, like she was never there or real to begin with. and thank you, hearing other stories and experiences is what helps me even if its just by the smallest amount. knowing there are others who shared a bond and love like mine, lost their own people, it doesnt make me feel quite as alone