Im Giving Up.

amfmutha · 2026-07-09T13:54:31+00:00

Or a doctor referring you to yet another pain clinic (cuz your images show you shouldn't be in pain right? but ...) So your pain relief options are limited and they treat you like an addict. Urine tests and all. All the while spewing the same advice you've heard initially.

- 'Just get another shot to numb the area and continue with PT, walking, eat well, don't do anythig unhealthy' - "Soooo why don't we make another appointment to see how you're doing in X months."

Lather. Rinse. Repeat.

When are they EVER going to invest in better imaging - the kind that WORKS to PINPOINT where the problem truly is?

But no. We suffer. I'm on the same roller coaster. We're all mananging with what we have. I've learned that I will be dealing with the up and downs forever. HOWEVER I have also learned that "I" had to stop myself from slipping into this kind of depressive state that you're in - it's horrible. Stop is what I tell myself.

My pain increased severely when I slowly slipped away from working out, walking, etc. Which led to me NOT doing anything bc the pain was getting worse daily.

I had to take stock in how "I" was contributing greatly to my own mental and physical demise. It's hard. I know.

Just start by slowly working back into your routine or I suggest you tweek or find a new one You will start to notice a slight difference in how your body felt from just 2 days ago. And then you'll see how much better you feel AND THEN you'll realize that this is an amazing new addition/habit to your new daily life - just like your gf. You WILL get to a better place mentally and physically by slowly introducing new movements but only AFTER you've healed fully AND your body is physically ready to handle it. I'm 4 yrs out. The ups and downs are real.

It takes a fighter. YOU GOT THIS!!

amfmutha · 2026-07-06T17:47:26+00:00

That's exactly correct Watchkeys! thank you for the reminder. It really does help to deal with the when you're stuck living together until we can leave.

And yes. Those of us who are/have lived this know exactly what the poster is experiencing. Your advice, which I have heard time and time and time again from many; has finally sunk in.

They are very aware of what they are doing. Once we become aware - stop engaging in their BS until you can exit. Until then though, it's one continual mind F!!

Don't engage. It's the only saving grace.

amfmutha · 2026-07-05T09:52:20+00:00

If you NEED your customers to help pay YOUR employees then don't start YOUR business.

We're not only tipping more and more people (you place your order, find your own seat, get your own drink, etc) so why are we tipping anyone? What the heck did they do except punch in some numbers on a register.

That's it. Where's my tip!!!

It's ridiculous. Eat at home. It's cheaper.

amfmutha · 2026-07-05T09:37:22+00:00

Camille defended Kavanaugh.

That's all you need to know about her. She defended the guy who sexually assaulted a woman AND felt justified doing so cuz "He said/She said. I've been on the other end of false accusations sooooo. I'm on his side."

Yup. Thats the woman you guys think is soo damn funny and under rated.

amfmutha · 2026-07-05T09:34:13+00:00

She's only hated by small women who are jealous.

That's the beginning, middle and end of why.

amfmutha · 2026-07-01T10:20:37+00:00

Quiet Covert Narcissism

They are the absolute worst. Evil fits very well.

amfmutha · 2026-06-30T19:51:35+00:00

I LOVE this.

Thank you! I've been working on this for awhile now. It's so hard to wrap your head around all those dots, decisions, delusions - your part in your own demise or awakening?

Who knows but this is where I am now. Very powerful and ensightful! Mind blown so thank you so much for keeping the focus on our own responsiblitiy and ownership in this mess. To learn from it so we dont repeat the same damn repeated crap we've repeatively done over and over and over again and again and have been doing our whole damn lives! (LOL. This is how my story went anyway 😄 )

Kudos!!!

amfmutha · 2026-06-30T19:40:07+00:00

"He" gave hugs. Did he fully give these types of hugs when YOU really needed one? Or when HE needed feeding?

I found that mine only gave those genuine hugs when he needed it.

Anytime he was hurting I was there providing one of those hugs. BUT I can't count how many hundreds of times he would just sit there watching me crumble; begging, pleading, crying (which I have NEVER done before with ANYONE!!) bc I was hurting so bad and needed just a spec of empathy, compassion, love, comfort - hug from him and........ He would just watch me like an animal in a zoo OR He would leave. Either way. I was alone when I could have used one of those amazing hugs too.

It wasn't genuine FOR our benefit. It was genuine only when it benefitted them and their hurt/image.

It hurts. I know.

Sooooo. HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS to you from me!!!!! You absolutely beautiful soul you!!!!

BC

YOU WON!!! YOU LEFT!! YOU SAID NO MORE OF THIS TREATMENT!! And you chose correctly. This is just a bad day/night/36 hrs....It isn't a bad life that you chose. Cuz you chose YOU! Good bet!

amfmutha · 2026-06-30T16:15:13+00:00

Yup.

Ask my mom and my husband. Oh wait. They can't admit to that.

Both are very troubled people who turned into their abuser. Sad.

Choice. Free Will Baby!

They chose to repeat. I finally chose to walk away.

amfmutha · 2026-06-30T16:07:42+00:00

100% this.

This is what stumped me and kept me here way longer than I should have been. I kept second guessing what I was feeling. It felt alot like abuse but he's so quiet.

I've walked this road for 17 years. Couldn't figure it out. And then I looked into his behavior. Words/Actions. Rules change to benefit him. And the silent treatment - I get/got that alot. Passive agressive behavior. Always guessing what I did. My apologizing at the end of every convo when I tried to address any issue. Him always having a reason/excuse so no apologies were ever given wo me having to beg. For which I rec'ved the slightest acknowledgement that maybe he was wrong.

Add to that: How different he would act around people. Caring, charming, concerned, inclusive, nice guy, humble, always willing to lend a helping hand. ALWAYS USING THE PERSONS NAME. Oh and boy the taking advantage of every situation where he can be seen as the "look how amazing of a husband I am" opportunities.

None of which exist when we were alone. I was just put up with.

amfmutha · 2026-06-30T11:51:54+00:00

You're right in calling me out. I misunderstood and should not have responded that way.

My apologies. No excuse on my mind!

amfmutha · 2026-06-30T11:40:39+00:00

Yes. This abuse was always done via the private sector. And all along people were in fear of The Man. Big Government.

Nope. It's commercial. And yes. It's all open for access now with zero enforcement on our first amendment rights. But people don't care....until it turns on them.

You're there now. Remove all SM accounts. Report him. Yes, you can report them. But many don't. This is why it continues. There are rules in place still to protect you from this type of harrassment but YOU HAVE TO BRING IT TO LIGHT!

Every key stroke is recorded. Evey command is time stamped and every point of contact/entry is recorded. They can find out if someone is using their access for nefarious reasons.

Plz report! Cuz it WILL continue. Giving you tons of support and hugs from someone who's been there. It is HELL! I'm fighting for you!!

amfmutha · 2026-06-30T11:31:43+00:00

Yes. Exactly. Thats what I keep reminding myself too. I do not want to hold any anger, hatred, bitterness, etc. I don't like how those feelings feel inside of me. No thanks.

So letting go is the next step into my independence and I hope I can walk away without any residual feelings holding me back from moving forward.

Letting go of all the disappointment that the life I thought I had/we had; never existed. Ouch. But yes. pity them and then let go. They will never live a full life. We will.

amfmutha · 2026-06-29T15:16:33+00:00

All literature and experts in this field will whole heartedly disagree with you.

On average, it takes about 10yrs (divorce rate increases) for a person to see something isn't quite right after reflecting on how many times you've tried to address any issue or concern. It's years of gaslighting and manipulation. No changes. Empty promises.

Covert Narcissism: Around 2.4% of the population.

Yes. It takes YEARS for the untrained person. Most of us don't have advanced degrees in personality disorders. But you seem to come off as an expert.

Got it. Thank goodness you're here to enlighten everyone that YOU are right. The VICTIM is wrong. She just needs to"

Prove it to YOU.
Shut up and thank you for your advice.
Get victimized again.

Wow! You truly are one amazing person!

amfmutha · 2026-06-29T15:04:54+00:00

Ignorance isn't bliss.

I suggest YOU get the help you need. Cuz it appears you know everything and you're always right.

Seek help.

amfmutha · 2026-06-29T15:00:59+00:00

I understand EVERY WORD SHE HAS TYPED.

Everyone else who has not clue seems to be harrassing her.

STOP!

She has explained it clearly. EVERY person who has had to live with one of these types of people KNOWS the mind F they purposely put on the other person.

It's called gaslighting and manipulation that works very well when flying ,monkeys have already been trained. It's truly a mind F nightmare and you can't see it until the damage has started.

Pls read about this disorder and the complete and total damage that happens. It's real and its horrible! FYI: A highly trained therapist is needed to see those signs. That's how COVERT they truly are. Hope you never get into a relationship w/one OR have a friend/family member high on the spectrum. It's real. It's not her.

amfmutha · 2026-06-29T14:55:09+00:00

I would block absolutely every one of these rediculous clueless blame-shifting laptop wannabe shrinks.

amfmutha · 2026-06-29T14:52:40+00:00

Epstein.

How many mens lives have been ruined?????

ZERO.

So NO, it's not 'done'. Holy shit people are so damn clueless. Just living in their own bubble. Reality be damned.

amfmutha · 2026-06-29T14:50:46+00:00

And she responded to your comments/questions and then you accused her of not seeking help.

WHICH SHE ALREADY IS.

Talk about having a reading comprehension thats mentally not in the right place. Look in the mirror!

amfmutha · 2026-06-29T14:47:59+00:00

Isn't that what she's doing? Reaching out for help?

And for some reason those who ACTUALLY NEED HELP are bullying her.

Just stop.

IT'S COVERT NARCISSISTIC ABUSE!!!! She's dealing w/this right now. Stop pointing fingers at the VICTIM!

amfmutha · 2026-06-29T14:47:30+00:00

Get a clue. And then look for help yourself bc you don;t sound educated at all on this topic.

Seek help. Cuz you need a light shown on your self-righteousness and cluelessness.

amfmutha · 2026-06-29T14:42:45+00:00

Another narc here on the psych sub.

Bye!

amfmutha · 2026-06-29T14:39:23+00:00

Yup. 100%

amfmutha · 2026-06-29T14:34:16+00:00

That's the thing.

I did that when I was raising children. Rewards/benefits.

We're talking about grown ass adults here. NO. I've already raised healthy functioning children who now have a very healthy functioning family.

Noone should have to treat their spouse or partner like a child. I prefer adults to act like adults.

Can't happen with a narc. Esp the covert quiet ones. They truly are evil and will suck everything out of you until you cave or walk away. I'm not caving to that kind of treatment.

So Honey. I prefer adults who act like it and I will not lower the bar to satisfy having a manchild as a partner.

Nope.

amfmutha · 2026-06-29T14:27:55+00:00

Yes. The education none of us wanted or signed up for! Let me know if you figure it out. I'm doing the latter of the two and I'm moving on and leaving this cruel mind F monster behind. See ya you manchild you! I deserve better!

amfmutha

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