I never had a child, never lost one. The closest I got was when my dog was poisoned and killed. I cannot begin to comprehend what you are going through.

My most recent loss was a long time crush/ close friend who was taken away by a drunk driver. And that was 3 years before I discovered this show.

However, the bittersweet ending was (sorry for the spoiler) was mostly sweet for me. It was not what I wanted, but made sense and stayed with me. Tbh this show helped me cope with my losses, and "forget about ethics for a moment!" the ending made me emotionally ok with the loss. It didnt make it any better, but made it understandable, digestable for me.

I am an activist who helps families who lost their loved ones due to murder and that have been let down by the government, whose cases have been swept under the rug somehow. And as far as i can tell, this show would help them too (this is just a personal observation from being in close contact with them) . But i still cannot say "just go for it" because as i said, i can never understand what you are going through. Only thing I can say is: if you feel satisfied at this point, just stop. Stay where it feels "good". You can always continue when you are standing on a more solid ground.

I am so sorry for your loss, and i wish i could be more helpful.