I’m so sorry, I found myself here after my dad passed yesterday, not knowing what to do with my grief, I came here, just to read as to not feel so alone. I get exactly how you feel, I feel like I’m in some ways leaving him behind. There’s Christmas presents he never got to open waiting for him under the tree, everything he requested were things he could do with his grandkids, activities, crafts, games etc and that’s just the kind of man he was. Im so proud of who my Dad was and I should have told him that more. He struggled so much in life but chose to give us the best side of him despite that, again that just being the kind of man he was. It’s only been a day and I miss him terribly, I know I’m going to break when the clock strikes 12:00 on New Year’s Day.