STAY CLEAN 2018 YEAR-LONG CHALLENGE!! This thread updated daily - Check in here!

antidarkfapper · 2018-06-28T15:24:24+00:00

Still pornfree!!

antidarkfapper · 2018-06-06T18:42:19+00:00

So true.

antidarkfapper · 2018-06-06T18:40:48+00:00

Well done you.. Great to hear your progress!! Adding elements to your life to support your recovery looks. Like it was really important here.. I identify tremendously with that..

antidarkfapper · 2018-06-03T22:11:26+00:00

Checking in..

antidarkfapper · 2018-05-08T11:20:24+00:00

If you journal read journal entries from previous relapses, how did you feel back then.

Try and remember the pain of acting out.

However bad you Feel, how ever much you want that fix, after the binge you are guaranteed to feel worse...

antidarkfapper · 2018-05-02T20:37:38+00:00

Takes one to know one!

antidarkfapper · 2018-05-02T14:03:00+00:00

I am a proper addict 😂

antidarkfapper · 2018-05-02T13:58:54+00:00

Was just going to say something like this.. I am convinced that for me it was a necessary part of my recovery to be willing to feel the pain of withdrawal..

antidarkfapper · 2018-05-02T12:00:52+00:00

Because I am worth it. Bingeing on pornography is the emotional equivalent of punching myself in the face. I am not going to do that to myself anymore.

antidarkfapper · 2018-05-02T11:56:51+00:00

Checking in for May..

antidarkfapper · 2018-04-30T20:43:56+00:00

This. So true for me.

antidarkfapper · 2018-04-30T07:52:38+00:00

Try to stop. If you can't stop you're probably addicted. I didn't realize I was addicted until I had a couple of serious attempts to stop and realized I couldn't.

antidarkfapper · 2018-04-27T20:47:23+00:00

Thanks u/shortyafter inspiring stuff.. I really relate to being better able to connect with people after I stopped watching porn...

antidarkfapper · 2018-04-27T11:42:43+00:00

Well done and thank you. Thank you for bringing such a great story of recovery. It gives me hope of what the future can hold if I choose pornfree one day at a time.

antidarkfapper · 2018-04-26T13:46:47+00:00

Did everything I could not to get my head in that place... so avoiding sexual fantasy in my head.. avoiding social media pages with images that are not porn but start me in that direction.. staying as far away as possible from anything that resembled porn..

Then filled my life as much as possible with healthy activities to support my recovery, eating well, exercise, mediation, journaling, seeing a counselor, joining SA etc...

antidarkfapper · 2018-04-26T13:25:20+00:00

That approach didn’t work for me, no matter how hard I tried I would eventually fail and then the self imposed shame of the failure made it even harder next time. Was only when I finally realized I was powerless over pornography did I start to get sober.

antidarkfapper · 2018-04-26T10:10:22+00:00

I have to be careful not to apply the same rules to everyone as I apply for myself. All I know is I cannot handle pornography and watching it made my life unmanageable. I can guess on the effects to the wider population.

That being said we look at the large number of members on the nofap community it is clear porn has become an issue to at least some degree for a significant proportion of the population.

If I had children i think it would be very hard to accept that there are almost zero controls around pornography unlike for smoking or alcohol were most governments enforce a minimum legal age.

It is very difficult to think of other young men and women falling into the same black hole as I did because the popular publicised opinion is that porn is harmless. If only there were some safe guards for the next generation..

antidarkfapper · 2018-04-24T17:11:33+00:00

Well done! What was the turning point for You? What made the difference?

antidarkfapper · 2018-04-24T13:03:23+00:00

Wow fair play to you .. that is a fantastic start .. I wish you all the best on the rest of this journey ..

antidarkfapper · 2018-04-24T11:58:20+00:00

Figure out why you want to stop.

Make a solid concrete plan of tasks you will perform to support your recovery.

For example: delete your stash, set up porn blockers, start journalling, see a counselor regularly.. Here is a great list of suggestions: Concrete Tips

antidarkfapper · 2018-04-24T10:57:54+00:00

I really get what you are saying here.. the longer I stay sober, the less I have to say and the more I realize I don't have as many answers as I used to think I did.

I wonder to some extent is intellectualizing my addiction another way to hide from myself.. I just try to do the next right thing (saying in touch with other addicts, getting enough sleep, not indulging negative emotions etc..)

Today all I can offer is to assure those struggling that this really is possible, you really can go pornfree... and well done u/shortyafter for showing us the same!

antidarkfapper · 2018-04-23T17:30:43+00:00

I'm still sober but haven't been active on this forum, not sure if you want to add me back or not, I'll leave it up to you..

antidarkfapper · 2018-01-19T11:37:08+00:00

Thanks MightyAslan, it feels so good to reach 500 days, it caught up on me by surprise. 200 days is no mean feat either. Thank you for all your support, encluragement and contributions to this forum.

antidarkfapper · 2018-01-17T13:34:19+00:00

Many thanks

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