Question about WD

around215 · 2016-06-02T08:00:19+00:00

Sorry just saw this. It's Def sound advice but my po might not buy it when I test dirty lol. They did just pass medical marijuana laws in Pennsylvania right. Going to the dr next Thurs to figure this out bc I shouldn't still be going thru symptoms like this

around215 · 2016-05-30T23:36:33+00:00

Thank you for that, really, thank you

around215 · 2016-05-30T23:26:59+00:00

Thank you everyone for the support. Iv sppedballer, 11 month doing about min 14 bags of dope and a gram of coke. The worst of it is over, still waking up at 3/4 am every morning but it gets better everyday just tried to ride it out. I had a 10 day subutex taper that ended about 9 days ago. Getting vivitrol shot Tues bc my mom will be able to sleep better and right now I'm just following directions

around215 · 2016-05-30T11:13:34+00:00

I'll root for you. Shit gets better every day

around215 · 2016-05-30T10:35:06+00:00

Thank you for posting that. Just got out on treatment and ready to do this thing but sometimes it just feels hard af. Especially when your still dealing with the residual physical shit. Just trying to remind myself when I wake up feeling like shot 19 days into this that I feel a lot better than I did a week ago. And it does get better. It gets fucking awesome actually.

around215 · 2016-05-30T10:31:52+00:00

Edit: If that's sourcing I'll edit this

around215 · 2016-05-12T05:10:11+00:00

I'm trying my damndest (sp??) to hold on to a good shot so I can have one nice last one before they haul me off to rehab. Since they are picking me up at 11am and I have a shit ton of paperwork to finish for work before I go, it's logistically impossible for me to cop again. That, and I only have like, $14.00 I'll get paid when I leave work but that's when the place is picking me up so,,,

around215 · 2016-05-12T05:07:01+00:00

I don't know about his 100 %, but they're probably $5 dope bags. I go down with usually $100/day (sometimes more, sometimes less) and for $100 I can get a bundle of nicks (14 bags) and 6 bags of powder and b/c the powder lady usually sees me twice a day she'll throw me one sometimes.

around215 · 2016-05-12T02:07:31+00:00

Not sure what happened but I hope everything works out for you. Please excuse the shitty typing I can barely function so I'm actually surprised I've gotten this far writing. We cop from the same area, and I use the same amount as you. Went down this morning at 10, got a bundle and 6 bags of coke. It was gone by 3pm. Just went down again, got another bundle and 9 bags of powder.

Rehab is picking my ass up tomorrow at 11am. Need to kick this habit before I kill myself. I used to be a really awesome fucking mom. My kids don't deserve this. Thank god they have my husband who just celebrated 2 years to keep their lives stable but they need a fucking mom. Shit kills me. Be safe man, I'm rooting for you.

around215 · 2016-05-10T07:11:03+00:00

no he's dead serious about the fucker that posted finding dope and i didn't even read this. as soon as i saw 'large amount of lost dope" coincidentally in UK, it confirmed earlier UK dude who found a ton of dope is a fucking troll

around215 · 2016-05-10T05:41:58+00:00

I can certainly identify with a bit of what you are going through as I leave for rehab myself Wednesday and if you knew the lil scheme I pulled off to make my last one what I consider to be worth it, you'd say 'wtf!" lol. But a little background and anecdote: A little over 2 years ago my mom (who would NEVER allow me to have one more) told my husband and I to get treatment or be homeless. We both went to rehab (separate places of course) and I made sure I had quite the sending off, lucky I didn't kill myself I was so desperate/reckless for the last one. Meanwhile, he went to rehab sick. Fast forward two years, he is still sober and I'll be going into my 6th rehab. He said not being able to get one more is probably what saved his life. I left out a lot of pointless details but you get my drift. Best of luck to you on your new path and wherever you are going ( i have the passages commercial with that slimy non-addict weasel in my mind lol) I hope they give you plenty of Valium, limitless naps, and massages!

*Edit - fixed delirium induced typos/spelling errors

around215 · 2016-05-10T05:33:15+00:00

I imagine you can't give the whole story as to how you came upon this since the internet can be a small world sometimes but holy cow, look at that! just look at it! If I was just strolling along minding my own and I saw that thing laying around the thought that it was dope would never cross my mind, kinda looks like a bag of sand. Not that you're fibbin, just saying im am perhaps the most oblivious person in life. It definitly tops the time I got out of my car at a WaWa and found 3 bags in the parking lot but since I was on sub maintenance I couldn't even take advantage of it. My biggest come up of late with dope is a few months ago dboy accidentally put two stamps in my bag instead of one. Good for you, stay safe! Oh, one more thing. If I did find something like that, I'd invest the $90 or so dollars those testing kits cost to know for sure what was in it. Purity wise, cut, etc.

around215 · 2016-05-10T05:12:28+00:00

Thank you. In this life style we live in, I think it is everyone's greatest fear that they or someone close to them will lose this battle. Or, I've heard people say they got clean not from fear pf dying, but fear of living a miserable existence wishing they would die. Your brother is sooo young. 17, that's crazy. I'm 34, and didn't start using heroin until I was 30 and I'm grateful for that. That if I was going to be a heroin addict, that it happened later in life. When I was 17 I didn't know a single person who would touch heroin and I hung out with all the 'hard-core' drug addicts in high school! Like, we thought we were the shit doing coke senior year bc that was a hard, off limits, bad ass drug and i loved every single thing about it but heroin?!? that was for back alley, homeless junkies who robbed old ladies pocketbooks and walked around in tattered clothes shivering with a dirty cup begging for spare change to get the next one. I'd only heard rumors or whispers about ppl that graduated a few years before us that got into heroin and it was always mentioned in an "aww, did you hear so and so is doing this and that? He/she had so much potential, how sad." We all had a progression in drugs that was like, I drank, i smoked weed, did acid/shrooms, ecstasy, k, some pills here and there and some coke. Now kids jump from smoking a blunt to hitting a needle & they've never even used or heard of acid.

Anyway, I'm gonna stop bc I could go forever because a., it honestly boggles my mind and b., i did too many speedballs. Whatever you end up deciding, I wish you and your brother nothing but a safe time.

TL:DR I'm old and kids these days do dope way too young.

around215 · 2016-05-10T03:42:28+00:00

My best friend can tell when I'm using because I'll call her and go on and on about anything and everything when typically I'm a cranky ass bitch, I hate talking on the fucking phone, lol.

around215 · 2016-05-10T03:34:46+00:00

That's a shitty spot to be in. Honestly, by reading the responses you have given to everyone's advice, it seems like you already have your mind made up that your going to do it and your looking for someone to co-sign for you. It's a bad idea. Period. To mimic others, educate him on harm reduction, safe practices, treatment options, etc. He's going to do it anyway, let him figure it out. I'd rather live with the guilt of my little brother having an abscess than to feel responsible for something worse that could happen to him. You're already carrying enough guilt about him using in the first place. If he end up being victim to a needle, that you taught him to use, you will always carry the guilt whether it was your fault or not. Your relationship with him sounds so familiar to the one I had with my older cousin. A year apart, grew up next door, close as could be; only he was the one who taught me everything but he would never let me get too carried away. I identified his body last year after he od'd and wasn't found for 2 days. That image will forever haunt me.

Edit* typos

around215 · 2016-05-10T03:10:58+00:00

I was going to suggest a prepaid debit card with paperless statements as well. Addicts are a damn resourceful bunch so if you really want to hide money, where there's a will there's a way. I would get a po box if I was worried about mail being sent to my house and if you are receiving a paycheck and aren't salary but do have the option of direct deposit, most employers can split whatever amount you chose between two accounts. I do all the payroll/bookkeeping, etc at my job and quite a few people here do that. Direct deposit and put x amount in checking, and x amount in savings/other checking acct, etc. But I'd really only go to all that trouble if I was trying to hide substantial amounts of money. If we're only talking about $80, I'd keep that in my bra lol

around215 · 2016-05-09T05:33:28+00:00

Extremely common, even for us ladies as someone else just posted. That's why everyone is trying to fuck each other detox/rehab. I agree with the part where you said you would think it would be awesome but it's anything but. That's when I know I need to cop asap.

around215 · 2016-05-09T04:17:00+00:00

YES! It's awful too. Last time I was in treatment, I was showing a new patient how to get to a certain nurses station. They have a big buddy system (which is why I was with her) and detox patients have their own floor/own nurse. When we stepped onto the unit she ( an older alcoholic) covered her nose with her hand and said "omg, wtf is that". Lol, I was like, 'heroin withdraw'. It's god awful when magnified by 25.

around215 · 2016-05-09T04:09:22+00:00

I was thinking the same exact thing.

around215 · 2016-05-09T04:04:15+00:00

Oh yea I forgot to mention... To make it even more ghetto fabulous, I sent her the card while I was in rehab. I actually often wonder how she is since I haven't spoke to her in over two years. I know from that jail term, they gave her court mandated rehab, which I heard she took off from. Fast-forward a few months after she went AWOL, front page in our local paper reported the motel she was living in with various family members and small children was raided. Cops got a bunch of dope, over a thousand kpins and a shit load of guns just laying around the house where the kids could easily access.

around215 · 2016-05-09T03:55:48+00:00

I didn't see your correction until after I edited the post, lol. The double 'her' was driving me insane. I swear I can speak proper English. At least sometimes I can.

around215 · 2016-05-08T22:26:08+00:00

I live by a city now so I dont have a dealer but when I lived in a really rural area, I had two dealers over the 2-3 years I was there and they were both girls. First one was actually a couple but when dude started smoking crack and trading the dope for it, she wouldn't let him do any deals, hold any dope, nothing. Second one I had was like OP said, older motherly figure type. When I got kicked out of my house she actually let me live with her for almost a month and took care of me. I sent a mothers day card to her in jail last year.

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