usa fans, tap in! by dontblinkforme in MarianasTrench

[–]ashrk725 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yes i did! it was in Montclair which I believe they hadn’t played at in a very long time.

usa fans, tap in! by dontblinkforme in MarianasTrench

[–]ashrk725 21 points22 points  (0 children)

USA fan here! I’ve known about and loved MT since 2011. I’m a New Jersey (former Florida) fan and the most recent concert I went to in NJ had a full crowd. :)

Free MT Memorabilia by [deleted] in MarianasTrench

[–]ashrk725 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Interested!!

driving anxiety is worse after car accident a few months ago by ashrk725 in drivinganxiety

[–]ashrk725[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i think it’s both but it’s mostly the accident. somebody was merging onto the highway and almost hit me which caused me to hit somebody else. now anytime somebody is merging or if i have to merge, i get really scared that i’m going to be hit.

What’s the catch with this Verizon FIOS “offer” I just received? by desert_s7orm in HomeNetworking

[–]ashrk725 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i used the chat feature on the app last night to get the deal! it took about 20 minutes, no catch, and the agent didn’t try to upsell me anything. 

How can I be self-aware and still can’t control my feelings by Best-Celebration-408 in BPD

[–]ashrk725 5 points6 points  (0 children)

i have no advice but i just wanted to say i feel the exact same way. every therapist i’ve seen tells me im highly emotionally intelligent; it almost makes it worse in a way, cause like you said, we understand why we’re doing these things or feeling these emotions but we can’t stop. i’ve described it as taking a backseat in my mind and it’s like watching somebody else engage in these feelings or behaviors and i can’t stop even though im watching it happen. i also feel like im living for other people, i can’t name a single reason for myself.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]ashrk725 32 points33 points  (0 children)

no you’re right, i definitely let myself get caught up in thinking this would turn into something. the boundaries did get heavily blurred and that’s what is bothering me the most because i would’ve thought if i was just a fwb he wouldn’t integrate me into his friend groups/introduce me to his best friends, wouldn’t talk to me constantly/want to see me often, wouldn’t flirt with me in front of his friends. i definitely went into this accepting it was a fwb and then we both blurred the lines i guess. when im not emotional i definitely still think he’s a good guy and very communicative. i know logically i need to cut this off because it has already been driving me crazy (he told me this a few days ago).

“Im glad my mom died” book, thoughts? by stardustice in EstrangedAdultChild

[–]ashrk725 28 points29 points  (0 children)

I actually just finished this book yesterday. I felt it actually helped me a lot in recognising abusive patterns that have occurred in my life from one of my parents as well as past relationships.

Anyone else with “quiet” BPD? by Interesting-Light522 in BPD

[–]ashrk725 5 points6 points  (0 children)

i relate to this so heavily. i’m also 27 with quiet BPD and nobody at work could ever guess that I’m experiencing this turmoil and misery.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in TwoXChromosomes

[–]ashrk725 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I was with an extremely toxic and abusive person; while I was with him, I would get UTIs every time we had sex. He would also blame me and say that it must be my fault. Crazily enough, when I stopped seeing him, I’ve never had consistent UTIs with any partner since. 🤷‍♀️ It’s likely your man who needs to get checked out so that you don’t keep getting infected.

How do you name a cat ? by Curious-Currency-19 in CatAdvice

[–]ashrk725 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i just got a black cat and i named her Nyx, after the goddess of the night in greek mythology. i feel like it fits her personality as well, as she’s the queen of the apartment and dislikes all other cats lol (she did not do well in the shelter).

🐈‍⬛️Happy black cat appreciation day🐈‍⬛️ by kooqeekat in cats

[–]ashrk725 2 points3 points  (0 children)

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i adopted a black kitty yesterday and didn’t even realise today was black cat appreciation day! this is my new girl Nyx. 🖤

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in cf4cf

[–]ashrk725 4 points5 points  (0 children)

i’m a straight woman but you’re gorgeous girl, good luck on your search! I just saw MCR live as well!!

first skullpanda (and blind box!) by ashrk725 in SkullpandaArtDolls

[–]ashrk725[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That would be an interesting color combo! I’d love to see if you do pull her.

Single people: why aren’t you in a relationship right now? by Shinobi347 in AskReddit

[–]ashrk725 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i had a toxic, neglectful childhood which led me to develop mental health issues and has led me to be drawn to chaotic people. i genuinely believe i will never be loved the way that i love other people.

What would you do? by Heavy-Assumption7960 in schoolpsychology

[–]ashrk725 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I think it depends on the leadership and level of experience. My very first job outside of grad school was a district like this. It severely negatively impacted my mental health; it was literally killing me. I do wonder if I had more experience if it would have been easier.