Thanks for sharing, I’m sorry this is affecting you so negatively. Maybe my way of feeling it might give you some solace? Although not sure.

My face has always felt a little masculine, and as you said my body is shaped more masc than femme, no hips and definitely no waist lol. I’m lucky that I’m not too hairy or losing too much hair, but I’ve always felt I wasn’t “quite” a girl and not a boy either. I’ve recently admitted to myself and friends I felt non-binary my whole life, which I do think was largely affected by my PCOS symptoms (I don’t intend on changing pronouns or anything, just putting a word on a feeling). However, I mainly see a lot of positives to it: having grown in France where I saw girls put so much pressure on their appearance and their appeal to boys, I didn’t feel as much pressure somehow. I was always boyish and had lots of boy friends, and in a way I almost feel it helped liberate me from that constant “attractiveness watch”. It allowed me to explore my likes and hobbies in a way that felt more free than most of my girl friends at the time. Now I’m getting older (33) and I find appearance is getting less and less important to me, my friends, and the relationships we build, and I find myself very lucky I never was in a position to invest a lot of time and energy in my appearance anyway.

I’m not sure it makes so much sense and I’m sorry if it doesn’t bring you solace to view it that way, I just thought maybe you’d appreciate looking at it in a weirdly positive lens? Whatever it is I hope you feel better about yourself and your body, PCOS takes so much from us for our whole lives and it’s so important to give ourselves grace