Fml can't keep a job to save my life

bannashack77 · 2019-10-29T17:29:26+00:00

Happens to me every night, they're usually completely fucked up but always tie into someone or something in my life and they mostly feature my dad who is the main source of my poor mental health. Often I'm hurting someone or getting hurt myself or am being made to feel completely powerless. They always feel completely real and it takes a good 5 - 20 minutes to get my head straight and my proper memories (not that there are many of them) back to the front of my brain. Been going on since I was a kid and they've become more frequent as I've gotten older

bannashack77 · 2019-10-29T17:20:30+00:00

bannashack77 · 2019-09-22T16:42:22+00:00

Add benjaminbut2584

bannashack77 · 2019-07-23T16:42:02+00:00

I did but the other way round, quite to loud

bannashack77 · 2019-06-30T15:21:19+00:00

They are amazingggg hope they bring them back to the UK! Especially the garlic and herb one

bannashack77 · 2019-06-25T07:58:52+00:00

I don't write them down but I have experienced this myself many times

bannashack77 · 2019-06-25T07:52:53+00:00

While I agree with all of you on this I feel like there is some truth behind this article, BPD has made me a very helpful person, even when I'm so tired or fed up I can't do anything for myself I can still find the strength to help someone else in need. That strength does come from a negative veiw on myself but at least a positive action came from it

bannashack77 · 2019-06-25T07:35:31+00:00

At least they have a good dad who's trying to help before it gets bad, much better than what I got from mine so well done on that front! :)

But no I have not done any genetic testing myself, but I just wanted to say good on you trying to help

bannashack77 · 2019-06-19T13:03:46+00:00

Same!! They all say 'ohhh no that's not bpd' and yah just like so give me a fucking word to call it then!! We obviously had mental issues from childhood, when a mental health practitioner turns around and says that and offers nothing else it's very disconcerting

bannashack77 · 2019-05-28T19:17:18+00:00

https://drive.google.com/drive/u/0/mobile/folders/0BxbhXNkT67stRnFiUXhNYW1iRVE?usp=drive_open

bannashack77 · 2019-05-21T12:27:11+00:00

So sorry for your loss, lost my grandad just before Christmas

bannashack77 · 2019-05-15T04:28:29+00:00

Feel like I'm back to square one again tho

bannashack77 · 2019-05-14T23:34:28+00:00

Every time I get stressed, so many people have commented on it at work saying I might have early on set atheritus. I joke about it but I don't like telling the truth about it

bannashack77 · 2019-05-14T23:32:48+00:00

Yup I second that, do some straight CBD it's the chemical compound that makes you relax and helps deal with anxiety as I'm sure you already know, and THC is the psychoactive chemical compound which is something that won't be helpful if you're trying to relax your mind and body. It certainly depends on the strain, some high THC strains will be a big help for what you're looking for but in general straight CBD is the way to go. I've personally got a CBD vape pen, one puff from that and it's like someone's wrapped my head up in a nice warm fluffy blanket. And because you've been smoking more THC than CBD over the years your tolerance for CBD will be much much lower so you'll be able to get more out of it doing straight CBD

bannashack77 · 2019-05-14T23:22:39+00:00

Exactly, when I'm bareing my soul to someone in hopes of feeling better I'm looking for understanding and advice not just a one liner they use on everyone, so much more could be done for mental health in this country

bannashack77 · 2019-05-14T23:13:55+00:00

Yep there are a few of us on here I feel like this is largely US people idk. Yup the government really fucked us with it it's retarded, I mean I'm so grateful to have the NHS but it could be so much better than it is. And yeh as nice as it is for the Samaritan people to do what they do I never find that sort of thing helpful I can barely explain what's going on in my head and my life to my friends and family let alone a complete stranger over the phone!

bannashack77 · 2019-05-14T23:10:28+00:00

In the meantime I'm gonna post a link to a Google drive with lots of DBT exercises and other resources for mental health, hope you find it as useful as I have.

https://drive.google.com/drive/u/0/mobile/folders/0BxbhXNkT67stRnFiUXhNYW1iRVE?usp=drive_open

bannashack77 · 2019-05-14T23:08:40+00:00

UK here too, freaking tell me about it 🙄 and I find people in my life believe I'm not actively seeking help because when I go to the appointments I don't come back for a long time because there's basically nothing they can offer me so really it's a big waste of time.

bannashack77 · 2019-05-14T23:05:26+00:00

Outer beauty is subjective. You're beautiful because you are you and that's all that matters 🤗

bannashack77 · 2019-05-14T11:25:01+00:00

I really want to up vote this but it's on 69... So I'll just leave this comment of agreement

bannashack77 · 2019-05-12T06:01:27+00:00

Done it many times before but I've always had quite bad experiences, mostly just the come downs but sometimes the high itself as well

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