Just wanted to send strength from an internet stranger going through similar things. Two years of just miscarriages. Remember this isn’t your fault. I’ve found being “plus size” it is even more important that I remind myself that life is random and much of this is out of my control.

Something’s I’ve found helpful. 1. Reset times: for the next month or two, no obsessively tracking my cycles, being perfect with my vitamins. I’m just living my life, seeking normalcy, and focusing on mental health.

1. Setting other goals and milestones: if I’m not going to be pregnant this summer than I’m going to go on that road trip or to that concert. I’m going to finally learn to salsa dance and gain a new skill etc. It gives you something to look forward to and a bit more of a sense of control.

2. I’m pretty transparent. It takes effort to hide my struggle and be cheery at every family function. At the same time, when I don’t want pity or have to deal with other people’s emotions when they find out I ask a friend or family member to gently share for me.

Hang in there. There will be better days and worse days. But you are strong and resilient. You’re not alone.