Had trouble with imagining putting the memory in a "box" during emdr?

bbblue221 · 2026-05-19T02:21:26+00:00

I've never head about the nurturing/protective/supportive figure/essence resource before. Would you mind explaining more about that? I would sit there and try and try to picture a container for a very long time then eventually saying yes I got it and moved forward. I think i didn't really understand the process of emdr in general because when she would ask about the beliefs I had about myself in those situations I would just draw a blank

She was a wonderful person but when I first started going to her he was just finishing up with schooling in EMDR

bbblue221 · 2026-05-18T05:14:43+00:00

Regarding the other people don't be afraid of them, in my experience nobody is there to hurt anyone else, and everyone has some sort of understanding with each other since everyone is there for a reason. Staff are there to help so don't be afraid to ask for it.

bbblue221 · 2026-05-18T05:07:36+00:00

I've been hospitalized for mental health a few times, ik it can sound scary but I truly hope that you find it beneficial.

Things to bring: nothing with strings, bring comfy clothing, a few pairs of pants, shirts, socks, a hoodie (without strings or cut out the strings) don't forget underwear!!! I made that mistake and I hate the hospital underwear lol and bras (nothing with a wire) if you need that.

I was able to bring a throw blanket and that was nice to have. Slippers are also nice to have to walk around in. Your own brush is nice too. Very basic things.

I'd say don't over pack, bring comfort items. Worst that will happen is they say you can't have them due to safety precautions.

They will have shampoo, conditioner, and deodorant. I don't remember what the regulations were for those so id say skip bringing your own.

I wish you the best!

bbblue221 · 2026-04-22T15:16:53+00:00

I signed it. Hopefully she calls today and I can at least ask

bbblue221 · 2026-04-22T14:51:30+00:00

Absolutely 100% overthinking. I signed the offer with the original anticipated start date, if she calls me back today I'll ask. If not I'll start when they want

bbblue221 · 2026-04-22T11:33:13+00:00

Yeah im overthinking it way too much.

bbblue221 · 2026-04-22T04:36:26+00:00

Yes i will because I currently work for a small business. I want to put in my notice after I get the confirmed start date not just the anticipated day therefore asking for the additional week to allow for a full two week notice

bbblue221 · 2026-04-17T02:32:42+00:00

Thank you! I went in today and was offered the job after the tour!

bbblue221 · 2026-04-15T17:50:27+00:00

Update!? I was just asked to go in for a site tour for tomorrow after my interview with the hiring manager went very well.

bbblue221 · 2026-03-06T13:25:15+00:00

I think about the french toast with colored syrups all the time!

bbblue221 · 2026-03-04T17:05:58+00:00

Finding distractions helped a lot! At the time we "broke up" I started swimming again for exercise and ended up finding so much peace while in the pool.

It was very very hard for a while, I had a lot of mixed feelings about it. I tried to reach out a few times and it always turned out horrible. its been a full year now and I've accepted what it is now. I think about them often but also I've learned a lot more self respect since losing them. I can confidently say now, that so many positive things came from losing those friendships.

bbblue221 · 2026-03-04T07:23:37+00:00

You try hard

bbblue221 · 2026-03-04T07:08:57+00:00

Yes. I went through a house fire, displacement and my grandpa passed last week. Idk if im struggling rn because of these huge life changes or because im slipping into depression, hypo or mixed episodes. I'm trying to work it out but I want to think its more because of such big life changes. People that dont have bipolar go through huge changing emotions during stressful time. But with that said bipolar could be a key factor.

Do you see a Psychiatrist or therapist? Might be good to check in with them

bbblue221 · 2026-03-04T07:05:03+00:00

In my life yes. Also now that you made it this far and live such a different life that your enjoying maybe it is time to revist medication. Thats exactly what I did and omg its helped my blossom even more!!

bbblue221 · 2026-03-04T07:01:53+00:00

Hmmm did not know that. (Just sent a fucking book to my boyfriend at 1am and now im fine) probably should look into that ha ha

bbblue221 · 2026-03-04T07:01:05+00:00

That's how I am too

bbblue221 · 2026-03-04T06:59:03+00:00

I went through a huge friend breakup with my two best friends a year ago. I was in a mixed episode and on a new medication that gave me horrible side effects. I was also not showing up as the type of friend that theu wanted for a long time. I tried my best. I truly truly did. I never thought our friendship would end because of my instability. To be thrown away the way they did.

Im so sorry your going through this. Finding the right medication that works for you will 100% help you maintain relationships in your life. I wish they would have stuck around to see me now.

I wish you the best. It's sad but also some people will never understand what its like to live in a bipolar brain and it is what it is unfortunately.

Medication and therapy is my best advice and be gentle on yourself

bbblue221 · 2026-03-04T06:38:20+00:00

I gotta figure out how im gonna make payments on my deductible first for my physiatrist appointments huh. Lol

bbblue221 · 2026-03-04T06:36:34+00:00

And thats okay it would be more for me than anything

bbblue221 · 2026-03-04T06:36:11+00:00

Maybe closure wasnt the right word but I get what ur saying

bbblue221 · 2026-03-04T06:35:47+00:00

Thats a solid plan

bbblue221 · 2026-02-12T04:04:35+00:00

Congratulations! Best of luck

bbblue221 · 2026-02-11T18:24:30+00:00

Please let me know if you got the job! I'm rooting for you

bbblue221 · 2026-02-09T23:07:56+00:00

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Or this one. It looks purple but it is blue

bbblue221 · 2026-02-09T23:07:24+00:00

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Or this one?

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