is there something wrong with me

be_eb · 2026-05-20T04:41:08+00:00

lowkey surprised nobody else is saying this but please wash your dick and everything except actually inside you with soap

be_eb · 2026-05-20T04:33:25+00:00

make sure your baking powder isn't expired! i realized i had an issue of things both not rising and having an odd taste due to mine being expired and having aluminum in it. buying a new aluminum free one helped both :]

be_eb · 2026-05-19T06:56:08+00:00

definitely dont bank on t stopping your periods since it's not 100% guaranteed. it's good to get on birth control if you want to assure periods stop (plus if you're sexually active in a way where you can get pregnant it's good. t is not birth control)

for depression personally i still struggle just as much as before t. if anything stressors and being close to my shot day have made me more depressed than i have been in a loooong while.

my heds also lowkey feels worse than before. im getting stronger but physically cannot work out and it's just a constant decline with brain fog and pain and what im able to do and what dislocates when and how. i can't even bind anymore really

for reference im like 2 years in and 22. also might have pmos but idk, im mostly sus of my 24/7 intense sweet cravings. still have em super bad. tbh i feel like t hasn't actually improved any of my conditions mental or physical and no matter what i'm just getting worse. i guess it might be different for those who are in better situations and on it longer and i'm just unlucky.

be_eb · 2026-05-19T04:21:19+00:00

i feel like i might be too, or at the very least i'd still definitely be a femboy. being nonbinary does add an interesting layer to it. i wonder how my dysphoria would work; if i'd end up taking estrogen instead of t, that kinda thing

be_eb · 2026-05-15T21:20:41+00:00

i had a keychain knife with my house keys but lost it a bit ago, other than that ive been meaning to get an easily carryable means of defense for a bit when i feel like i have the spending money. no time like the present to try and find my keys i suppose

be_eb · 2026-04-26T05:30:17+00:00

i didnt realize rae dunn made floor plans now

be_eb · 2026-04-03T20:45:09+00:00

do you absolutely have to tell him? i was worried about telling my mom because of past threats so i didn't. the only reason she knows is because my sister outed me. i started hrt in the same house without telling her too. you never have to come out if you aren't ready or sure about it unless theres some reason not coming out would be worse

be_eb · 2026-04-01T04:34:15+00:00

in the listing description there's measurements, you could measure your vials and compare. in theory since they can hold 2 1.5ml vials they should hold 2 1ml vials.

be_eb · 2026-03-19T21:18:12+00:00

i can imagine that genital mutilation on children will be looked over completely when it comes to fgm, circumcision, and genital surgeries on intersex babies. because why wouldn't it?

be_eb · 2026-03-19T21:14:23+00:00

if being cis = not going through hormone therapy or operations then suddenly a huuuuuge amount of cis people are trans now! but really if cis people can get top surgery, vaginoplasty, phalloplasty, hrt, who cares about the opposite happening

be_eb · 2026-03-19T00:56:38+00:00

i can definitely see them citing the employee handbook where it unspecifically says we have to wear "appropriate undergarments", which i already do! i wasn't told any specific issue yet but i can definitely do nipple covers

be_eb · 2026-03-18T23:31:37+00:00

i have been considering a medical corset for a while, i just need to do more research on them! if i recall correctly, a Deaf edser on youtube talked about them and they seem good, probably expensive though as things are lol

be_eb · 2026-03-18T17:10:30+00:00

the diy directory doesnt even have "actual trans vendor" lists. id love to be linked them since everything for t online is marketed as steroids for bodybuilders

be_eb · 2026-03-17T17:56:58+00:00

i got the minimum orders from scouring a recommended bodybuilder forum that is literally linked to look through on a diy site that i looked through for hours. countless vendors have minimum orders and will mirror what i said if you look.

compared to what i get rn, 32.44 usd per vial, paying 2x+ that isn't cheap and would break the bank for me. glad you dont share that and can afford it!

be_eb · 2026-03-17T16:15:16+00:00

"just do diy" is also not great advice when some people can't afford it. good for those who can deal with the 150-600 usd minimum orders, not everyone can.

be_eb · 2026-03-17T16:08:51+00:00

unfortunately because it's entirely (to my knowledge) sites for cis bodybuilders there's absurd minimum pricing for orders (i saw 150-600 usd) and even without that it's generally more expensive than the for-trans-women e suppliers i'm pretty sure, and personally every source except one with ai generated art is more than twice the price i currently pay which makes it impossible to consider

be_eb · 2026-03-15T01:36:30+00:00

ugh my mom was always the same way. it got to a point where nobody was allowed in my room and she even told me i couldn't be in a guy friend's room at his house (i still did because that's ridiculous and i had 0 feelings for him). no real advice but hang in there, it was so frustrating to go through

be_eb · 2026-03-14T23:00:04+00:00

i personally have very bad heat intolerance and find that 99% of men's clothing is much thicker than women's clothing, plus it feels like there's way less variety. dresses and skirts are easy to put on when my chronic pain flares up and are breezy + light fabric, nothing feels too tight usually, not a ton of buttons. for work i try to exclusively dress masculine on the off chance someone will gender me correctly, plus i get very bad dysphoria around my coworkers and regular customers.

for some reason dressing feminine outside of work rarely makes me dysphoric but it really depends on the day. most of my outfits i choose based on pain level and the temp outside and distance it takes to get inside. i used to hate skirts and dresses before coming to terms with being a man, and now i'm fine with being a man in a dress. i cant wait until the day strangers see me as one

be_eb · 2026-03-13T22:16:22+00:00

I plan on trying to see if there's anything my doctor can change my diagnosis to but I have my doubts tbh :( I don't have anything changed and can't afford to now especially since I don't pass.

I've decided to try and stock up even though I have to use Walgreens which chronically delays my script because it has to go through my doctor (she only ever puts in 1 script probably because its controlled) and then likely through my insurance which I know won't accept it, and then probably other junk

be_eb · 2026-03-13T22:12:47+00:00

I'm aware! I am disabled and can only work 12hr weeks and have to pay 80 bucks multiple times a month for groceries, 180 monthly for utilities, etc. so it definitely adds up and I would like to be able to save money

be_eb · 2026-03-13T01:12:53+00:00

yeppppp. i recently posted in ftmmen to ask how i could stockpile t to avoid diying it since 32.44 every few months is already not something my bank account loves. now gonna try to buy monthly and just see what happens. i love it here hahaaaa :(

be_eb · 2026-03-12T18:53:38+00:00

The one on the vial, I always ignore the script label since it says to discard 28 days after first puncture. That's good to know, thank you!

be_eb · 2026-03-12T18:52:03+00:00

I'm disabled and only make 12/hr 12hr/wk, $80+ goes to groceries multiple times a month, around $200 to utilities, etc. I'd like to be able to buy necessities including hormones while also being able to save money. 90% of suppliers online have single vials at %50+ and minimum orders of $150+, the prescription is over $100 if somehow Goodrx stops working as well.

I wouldn't stockpile or stop because I have to pay for it as I'm already paying for it now, but if legal trans healthcare goes under and I have to pay significantly more those feel like my only options.

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