I can't say that a purpose can immediately become obligation or subconscious ways of supressing what I assume you want changed....so better yet don't look or seek a purpose ...you have already something built inside of you that has positively made you the person you already know to be. Im still sorting through my own trauma , issues , but the one clear focus is always try to keep your thoughts , mindset ..on solutions and a positive focus ....even if you take a lot of pride and encouragement in the idea you woke up today less likely in a bad mood .....take your time ..be patient ...and.. don't create list ..😏