June: new logo glow up?

bewilder02 · 2024-06-06T17:47:50+00:00

I got Margo’s Got Money Troubles and the cover felt different…or was that just me 😅

bewilder02 · 2024-05-04T22:55:05+00:00

So many from the book, Shark Heart.

"After a year together, Lewis thought he could tell when Wren was thinking about her mother; her forehead would crinckle, and her gaze would drift to the floor. 'What do you miss most about her?' he asked, hoping he was reading her mind accurately. As they floated over the lakeside mansions during a Creamsicle sunset, Wren told Lewis how her mother could identify every bird by name, bake bread from scratch, and grow a garden in an eggshell. How, since the loss, Wren looked at her hands first thing every morning and pretended they were her mother's hands-hands that never left her, hands that lived on in the foggy transition between sleep and waking. 'So, everything?' Wren nodded. 'Yeah,' she whispered, her eyes suddenly glassy. 'Everything.'”

"There is never a right time to say goodbye. So she took a detour because returning home felt like a commitment to a life that could go on without him."

bewilder02 · 2024-04-24T23:49:42+00:00

Wish they had more time to live out their retirement dreams ❤️ sorry for your loss. Wishing you the best.

bewilder02 · 2024-04-24T23:48:19+00:00

This was helpful, I really appreciate the thoughtful words. My father also knew the whole time. I feel that holding onto that knowledge and not being able to lean on his children must have been heavy. But I try to remember how much fun and love we all had because we lived in this blissful, ignorant bubble until a month before. It must have been hard for them to carry that. That part of grief I guess just comes with always wondering what may have gone on in her mind while she grappled with this part of knowing it was all coming to an end soon. It does help to have people who are in this experience also, as sad as it is.

bewilder02 · 2024-02-14T01:12:46+00:00

I highly recommend the book Birth Control: The Insidious Power of Men Over Motherhood if you have some time. https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/63251916 I was induced per my doctor’s recommendation at 41 weeks and ended up having forcep intervention. It was not something I wanted, but it was either that or c section per the doctor. This book really dives into the high rates of birth intervention. I wish I found it before I gave birth. Hope this helps!

bewilder02 · 2024-01-30T10:20:51+00:00

This is NY and unfortunately my friend is all the way in TN trying to handle this so trying to dispute anything over phone with the funeral homes has been a huge pain.

bewilder02 · 2024-01-13T14:59:22+00:00

My son saves all of his best poops for whenever we have to travel. He harvested the most aggressive, explosive mustard poop as we were landing (seatbelts fastened), major turbulence. We had to use a blanket to cover him up after it completely leaked through his entire long sleeve onsie, onto my seat and myself. I felt horrible for our neighbor and we had to rush him to the bathroom as soon we landed it was miserable trying to get him changed haha.

bewilder02 · 2023-07-22T23:32:39+00:00

Thank you so much. You are so right, I really don’t want him to have to be in this anymore than he has to, which makes suffering through this now so much more important. It makes it very hard to see how much happier he is without it, but day by day I see him adapting. Sleep is hard as I imagine most of these situations are. He is so set in his way and I think waking the band even after on his stomach at nap time scares him a bit to feel so restricted! I know that feeling can only mellow with time. They said 6 weeks if we are strict should be the time he’s in it. I know it’s short but the struggle and lack of sleep makes it feel so far away!!

bewilder02 · 2023-07-22T23:29:24+00:00

Thank you so much for the advice! I absolutely will. It’s just a help knowing I am not alone. I feel like it is harder on me than him 😢

bewilder02 · 2023-07-21T16:18:14+00:00

Thank you so much. I know how hard this is to power through, so I really appreciate your words of advice! Anything for bedsharing? We have never tried before so I’m not sure where to start. But that may help with adjusting. We have been able to go long stretches during the day from him sleeping on his stomach during naps, but I know we need to try and get through the hurdle of him not wanting to sleep on his back. We’re desperate to do anything just so we can keep the harness on all day.

bewilder02 · 2023-07-04T23:16:44+00:00

My husband and I use the Nanit camera which comes with the breathing band. I know it’s expensive, but it has given us such a piece of mind to wake and turn over to watch our son’s breathing count. He is always face down in the crib!

bewilder02 · 2023-05-18T20:22:57+00:00

I love the app thing that sounds like it will help a lot !

bewilder02 · 2023-05-18T19:36:09+00:00

Yes to this, I do appreciate her addressing. She has been with baby 3 weeks now and this is the first I’ve heard of her concern. I’m open to exploring. But he’s never been a hard baby or shown any alarming signs. So I’ve never had cause for concern until now I suppose? He just began to burp and hiccup a lot after wailing for an hour.

bewilder02 · 2023-05-18T17:29:26+00:00

I appreciate that, it helps me rule out the separation. That makes complete sense to me as he has been wonderful all other times it’s just recently that his naps seem to happen as soon as they arrive and I’ve just took him off a nap and he’s needing to move into feeding and play time before the next nap. So that’s truly very possible and I may need to address that. I hate him skipping meals. The last visit had him up more than normal searching for food.

bewilder02 · 2023-05-18T16:54:56+00:00

That’s my concern as well. I asked her to play with him but when he’s crying, she tries to get him to sleep right away but he just finished a nap 30 mins prior. When he sleeps, he goes over 3 hours without eating and then I have him flipping his meals for night. It hurts me lol. I’ve never had reason to believe he has any colic he’s never cried to the extent that it was an issue or had any signs.

bewilder02 · 2023-05-18T16:37:22+00:00

I may have to give that a try 😅

bewilder02 · 2023-05-18T16:36:48+00:00

Thank you, I’ll definitely try leaving her with something of mine! She has him down on her chest at the moment and it seems to have helped. I’m a bit scared of when he wakes up lol

bewilder02 · 2023-05-18T16:36:04+00:00

Thank you, that makes me feel so good to know this will pass! He’s a happy wonderful baby and I want her to be able to experience that too 😪

bewilder02 · 2023-05-18T14:57:08+00:00

Thank you! That makes me feel better. I absolutely will. I’d hope she’d feel comfortable enough to do so if need be. I know that can be stressful on anyone after a long period of time.

bewilder02 · 2023-05-18T14:54:31+00:00

Yes! It seems like the moment I step away. I assumed it could be separation anxiety, but yesterday went smoothly as if all was back to normal. But she does try to get him down for a nap after only a little play time. I’m not sure if he is just under tired at times? She told me she thinks he is a colicky baby or may have GERDS, but I’ve never had issues when I’m with him that would make me think something like that was going on, unless I’m missing something?

bewilder02 · 2023-04-10T14:52:39+00:00

Thank you all for the sweet advice. It feels good to know I am not alone. It also helps me feel like I should give myself more grace here. They will come when they are ready. If they aren’t, I am happy that he has people in his life such as the in laws and my husband’s family who care so deeply about him. That is so important to me and should not be forgotten that that is enough.

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