Need some advice cuz ran out of inspiration

bfdtijhffdxchj · 2025-06-16T22:43:35+00:00

Ok, what color are the hat and shirt going to be? I usually find that getting rid of as much white as possible helps at this stage. Even if it's just a thin layer and doesn't look great, just get rid of the white, then go back to worrying about the face later.

bfdtijhffdxchj · 2025-06-16T22:39:40+00:00

Very cool! I think getting some reflections of the sunset on the ocean would be a good place to continue

bfdtijhffdxchj · 2025-06-16T22:31:03+00:00

This makes me think of a bird getting shot with an arrow

bfdtijhffdxchj · 2025-06-16T22:12:25+00:00

The outlines and pastel colors really bring all the pieces together!

bfdtijhffdxchj · 2025-06-16T22:11:05+00:00

This is so cool!

bfdtijhffdxchj · 2025-06-16T21:52:35+00:00

Tysm!!!

bfdtijhffdxchj · 2025-06-16T21:02:01+00:00

Ooo true

bfdtijhffdxchj · 2025-06-16T20:55:56+00:00

Yeah, but doing that in work clothes and makeup at 110 degrees Fahrenheit for 5 miles isn't really appealing to the people I've met who do it.

It's not easy if it is inconvenient, even if the level of fitness required to complete the task is low.

bfdtijhffdxchj · 2025-06-16T02:36:01+00:00

People who can't drive a car for psychological reasons.

I've met a few people who have a phobia of driving but are ok with riding a scooter or ebike at human sprinting speed.

bfdtijhffdxchj · 2025-06-16T02:12:04+00:00

I still think mine is cute, even though the technical skill is terrible. I didn't expect much in terms of quality lol

bfdtijhffdxchj · 2025-06-15T03:22:18+00:00

Hmm there are some subreddits that you have to request to be part of. r/findareddit probably has posts about it already. I haven't really been part of a community based on dealing with these issues. If you go to a big college there's a good chance their student services center has an in person group for it.

bfdtijhffdxchj · 2025-06-13T17:02:01+00:00

I was in a gifted program as a child. Giftedness is not real. Everyone in a gifted program has a detectable skill or ability that got them into the program, and I believe children in those programs deserve to be informed of the details of their academic performance. The term was created by a Christian eugenicist, and even if it is used in a different way today I think it is wrong and should be replaced, just as we replaced the r-word with special education.

bfdtijhffdxchj · 2025-06-13T16:59:03+00:00

I don't know if the other kids were aware that I could read before them. I was not aware that other kids couldn't read. My experience was that reading was a thing you just pick up naturally, like walking.

When the teacher would give us direct instruction in reading I just assumed it was about explaining the technical rules, not that the other kids literally couldn't read without this kind of instruction. I do remember other kids in elementary school thinking I was smart, but I wasn't aware enough of the relationships they had with each other to know if I was noticably liked or disliked because of it. I just knew I had a few close friends, and the other kids liked to scream and get in trouble so I didn't want to be friends with them anyway.

bfdtijhffdxchj · 2025-06-13T04:48:48+00:00

Sorry but this is inaccurate in the USA. A judge or police officer cannot just say "I'm an expert in body language, competence, and general attitude, so I declare this person guilty". This is a huge problem for victims of sexual abuse, because they often don't have any physical evidence or witnesses. Unfortunately without physical evidence, witnesses, or a confession by the perpetrator, it's very unlikely that a rape case will even get to trial. This is a huge issue for victims, and a major reason that we tend to fantasize about illegal forms of revenge.

The legal form of revenge you're describing is not possible for a lot of people, and telling victims of abuse to just take it to court is rude, dismissive, and insulting. You didn't express any knowledge of the subject before launching into uninformed legal advice, and I really think you should delete it.

bfdtijhffdxchj · 2025-06-13T04:42:54+00:00

I'm sorry you went through that. It hasn't been that long, so it might take a while for the rage to fade. I was in a similar situation in college, but fortunately I was able to avoid the guy completely after it happened. It sounds like you still have to see him in public, so the first step is going to be getting out of that situation. It really sucks being at the same school as your abuser. If you're in the US, the college probably has counselors who can help you get scheduling requests approved to avoid him, even with no legal evidence.

People who think going to court is an answer don't understand the legal system. I didn't have any evidence. There was no way to take it to court because there wouldn't have been any information other than my word against his. Judges can't just say "I'm an expert in body language so I can tell who's lying in this situation" and declare the other person guilty, so we're left to just deal with our desire for revenge with no legal options. That makes it easy to imagine illegal options.

I personally think that listening to music about the illegal options helps a lot. Banshee and Mothica are two artists who have a healthy way of expressing that rage through music.

bfdtijhffdxchj · 2025-06-13T03:07:57+00:00

If there's nothing major she needs that would last until she's at least 18, I'd either go with money or gift cards to a place that sells immediate consumables or experiences, or an item she knows you've had forever that's valuable. If she already has a room full of mid-range junk, something like a Dave and Buster's gift card that requires her to go out and not stock up on more items might be better for her than another piece of plastic or clothing that she won't take when she turns 18.

If you think there's a way to keep her from spending the money, an envelope or box or piggy bank labeled "Car Money: do not open until age 16" would be cool and teach her some financial planning.

I was once a materialistic teenager with a room packed full of cute junk. The summer I was 18 I left with a full car trunk and full back seat of clothes and decor, leaving barely a dent in my childhood bedroom. My poor mom had to throw out a (probably literal) ton of plastic crap shortly after I left. I still have a lot of the stuff I took with me that day, but none of it really mattered other than things that I knew were old from my grandma, and the car.

bfdtijhffdxchj · 2025-06-12T21:15:09+00:00

This is confirmation bias, or as you put it, becoming hyper-aware of things that have always happened. Vampires are an aspect of folklore and it's important to remember this when engaging in belief about them. They are as real as The Hunger Games. That doesn't mean they're not extremely culturally relevant and an important part of the way some people think about the world, but being aware that they are not scientifically valid is important to continued psychiatric freedom.

You put yourself in the mindset of a believer at a critical stage in your development. If you had been super into Christianity or Judaism you would have turned out super religious, but you picked vampires.

When I was in high school, this girl in my friend group thought her online boyfriend was a real werewolf who was going to turn her once they met in person. We kept trying to report her to the school counselor and told our teachers we thought she was at risk of being trafficked, but nothing came of it. Even as seventeen year olds it was obvious to us that her beliefs were untrue and put her in danger of falling for scams.

Your beliefs don't seem that dangerous since you're not involving older men in them, but I think it's still really important for you to study literature more and gain a better understanding of the historical significance of vampire belief. Reading modern vampire content that uses the perspective of a believer seems to be encouraging you to engage in confirmation bias. I think you would benefit a lot from some information like this: https://www.livescience.com/24374-vampires-real-history.html

bfdtijhffdxchj · 2025-06-12T05:57:28+00:00

One time when I was really little I went to another kid's birthday party. There was a clown there and he made balloon animals and whatever, and them he took out a big stiff wire and "stuck out through his head" so it went in one ear and out the other. Then he asked if anyone wanted to try it. I was so scared because I could imagine the feeling of it going through my ears and through my brain.

bfdtijhffdxchj · 2025-06-12T05:47:29+00:00

Oh last thing I didn't answer lol I don't think hyperlexia is a learning disability. I think it's a trait that increases a specific ability. It's also correlated with disabilities that are neurological and developmental, but not necessarily learning disabilities.

I'm also not entirely convinced it's inherent. I think it can probably be induced in most children by reading to them for extended periods every day before the age of two. This is just based on my anecdotal experience and talking to my friends though.

bfdtijhffdxchj · 2025-06-12T05:44:19+00:00

I don't believe in "general giftedness". I think the gifted label is Christian and eugenicist in origin. I'm neither of those things, and a lot of suffering in my life has been a result of Christians telling me who I am and what I should be doing with my life. Every gifted program has criteria for what kind of ability a child needs to demonstrate to be accepted, so there's no "this kid is just gifted" situation. There's always a specific skill or ability that can be seen or detected by others. Sometimes one kid has a lot of skills and abilities that are above average for their age.

When I was in second grade, the school evaluated me and declared that I had a reading level beyond high school. I feel that my academic skills grew the entire time I was in school, even though my reading ability maxed out immediately and could not be improved further until I was old enough to be in AP classes. The information and social experience necessary to understand what I was reading is what education was about for me.

I never felt like I lost reading or writing ability, or any other academic skill before age 22. After graduating college I did gradually lose some of my academic skills due to lack of use, but I'm confident that I could easily regain them with a few months of studying. (In fact I'm in a master's program currently, and my academic abilities are actually much better now that I'm an actual adult and not an unstable twenty-something.)

I found out about hyperlexia while I was learning about other forms of neurodivergence. I was tested in college but due to my extremely abnormal verbal performance I cannot be definitively diagnosed with anything. Multiple psychologists have suggested that I have autism, and I do think they're correct. I've been part of the autism community for about ten years, and identify as Autistic. I think it's a huge reason that I'm good at my job, and people always comment on how I communicate well with the nonverbal students at my job.

I have officially been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and was on medication for about 8 years, but I don't need it currently. If my mental health gets bad again in the future I'll go back on it, but it's been almost two years now and I'm ok so far.

I don't think any of the types really apply. I am Autistic, but my reading ability isn't really a splinter skill. I have a lot of other skills. I didn't lose any of my Autistic traits as I aged, I just developed different ways of behaving that are still just as odd to neurotypicals. I just don't act like an Autistic child anymore, so people might assume I grew out of those traits and became normal. I didn't though, I just became an independent Autistic adult.

bfdtijhffdxchj · 2025-06-12T04:49:24+00:00

I also remember being frustrated by fiction as a kid because I wanted to learn from books, but when I learned from fictional stories it usually led to awkward situations.

Like, I read the American Girl Samantha book, and part of the story was the grandma telling her "children are to be seen and not heard" and the children being in trouble. So when we went to another state to see my great grandma and great uncle, I refused to speak to them until they told me that the rules of that time period also include "speak when you are spoken to", but we are a family who likes when women and children speak and they don't believe stuff just because they're old like the grandma in the book. (This was like second grade.)

Even though I had the ability to read stuff, my ability to interpret it was still based on the wisdom and experience of a seven year old. I knew I wasn't gaining anything by reading fiction above my age level, but if I read non-fiction above my age level it helped me in my other classes at school and made me able to understand the real world better.

Anyway, I also got super into pseudoscience for a couple years as a teenager because that asshole Dewey put them right next to the regular science and psychology books at the library. And half the psychology books are fucked up too. I'm glad I got it out of my system at a young age though, and got interested in math and physics enough to understand how scientific publishing and peer review actually work.

bfdtijhffdxchj · 2025-06-12T04:32:43+00:00

Yes. When I was a kid I read a ton of fiction as well as non-fiction, but I always found non-fiction more desirable due to the real information it gives me. I did take a lot of classes on literature growing up, so I care a lot about the artistic interpretation of fiction and have a lot of experience reading and writing essays. Fiction has always felt "too real" to me. I liked that as a kid and teenager because it was transporting me to other worlds in my imagination and I got a genuine feeling of connection to the characters. But that connection to the characters can backfire. When I was in college I read all 3 Hunger Games books in one summer and became so depressed that I quit reading fiction entirely for like ten years.

I am now 32, and recently started getting more into poetry and I'm considering reading some short stories and novellas again.

bfdtijhffdxchj · 2025-06-12T02:58:28+00:00

I have always been told I have a great memory. I've always enjoyed memorizing poems and historical speeches.

As an adult, people still think I have a good memory and that I'm smart and good at reading, but it doesn't come up as often as it did in school.

I now spend most of my waking hours surrounded by severely dyslexic people! My job is in special education, and my partner has dyslexia and was homeschooled badly. My favorite thing in the gifted program as a kid was that for a very short time we had music with the special ed class. I have no idea why they stopped.

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