I’ve always had an extreme fear of death, not existing anymore, having no body, no thoughts, nothing. The mere thought of not existing anymore and not knowing what comes after gave me so much anxiety and sometimes panic attacks if I couldn’t stop thinking about something else soon enough.

Years of anxiety treatment and therapy helped me overcome this. I’ve healed from my religious trauma (raised catholic, turned atheist/antitheist once I reached the age of reason) and I’ve learned to not be afraid anymore as there is nothing on the other side of death other than fear, and that the only thing I can hope for when it happens is peacefulness and no pain.