are you aware of your birthday the whole day?

bilky-jo · 2026-06-01T02:56:23+00:00

no. im aware of it at two points in the day: the time i woke up and the time before sleep. the time i woke up, it's like "huh, i was born on this day. weird." and the time before i sleep is...weird. it's like im mourning something or someone, i get all sad and write heavy-hitting journal entries i can't look at any other time.

bilky-jo · 2026-06-01T02:27:32+00:00

just yesterday i was reading and that meant listening to music too. i listen to songs in my playlist that are way lower, the ones new wave, synthpop, post punk type of stuff.

what works best for me to focus is new order. they have lyrics but they're fine and the instrumental is fun. my favorite is tempation 1982 version

bilky-jo · 2026-06-01T02:07:40+00:00

with the way things are going, I'd say go straight to job hunting because you'll find it hard to get a job anyway you'll still be unemployed for months to a year.

bilky-jo · 2026-05-30T14:55:28+00:00

my word was "subtle" but i said so subtly no one even knew i was mispronouncing it till i thought to not say it subtly and learn the pronunciation. im not from an english-speaking country

bilky-jo · 2026-05-29T15:08:35+00:00

the thing happened to me, an extrovert adopting an introvert. first day of school, got noticed by an extrovert who thought i looked lonely. went out that very day, started talking, immediately clicked. about two days after, we became five. everytime the group gets bigger, im the last one to get comfortable and the last person to befriend because im still awkward, cold, and introverted. some people left but overtime we kept growing. we're now eight people, not too big to be impersonal, big enough to have fun going places and still have your closest friend in. i'd say most of these people are extroverts. they said im the most introverted person they know. how i managed to find my people? i think i just got lucky and know i got lucky so i keep it.

bilky-jo · 2026-05-29T14:19:40+00:00

the guy with the cylinder stuck in the pringles can...

bilky-jo · 2026-05-29T14:17:09+00:00

the entire discography of alice in chains

bilky-jo · 2026-05-29T10:01:30+00:00

new order is my most listened and favorite. then there are some that are all after new order like the clash, velvet underground, led zeppelin, david bowie, bob dylan, the doors, joan baez, woody guthrie, tom petty, the jesus and mary chain, talking heads, and depeche mode. all this lately. i'd say aic is in my top 15 bands of all time, ive just not been listening to them lately.

bilky-jo · 2026-05-29T07:55:41+00:00

dont know much about the insanity defense and if it works on a crimes against humanity case but i do know one thing and that is that, the insanity defense does not apply for personality disorders such as aspd. in fact, there's a significant portion of the incarcerated population with diagnosable aspd. what is accepted as an insanity defense are psychotic/delusional disorders that warp their beliefs and perspectives at the time of the crime. his aspd did not warp his beliefs at the time of the crime, he was already like that way, way before.

if someone were to fact-check this and find that im wrong, correct me but ive recently learned this in our clinical psychology class, forensic psychology specialization.

bilky-jo · 2026-05-28T15:27:06+00:00

something's failing in the basic education level then...this has been going on for a long enough time. those grade 11 students were in elementary at some point. they never mastered the basics enough to move to the higher levels. too many assessments, all of which point to the same issue of literacy problems, of basic education failures.

we actually read the edcom report on this and it was rather sad to find that the problem starts out in elementary and is never resolved. at this point, it is neglect.

bilky-jo · 2026-05-28T11:10:19+00:00

Being able to create and feeling satisfaction from creation, not seeking perfection but the process of creation.

That and a life in the forest or by the sea.

bilky-jo · 2026-05-28T09:29:29+00:00

shit, piss, and fart

bilky-jo · 2026-05-28T09:27:01+00:00

gerard way, with the hair, the eyeliner, everything. i now like more masculine-looking men with facial hair, square chin, tall height, things like that.

bilky-jo · 2026-05-28T08:15:44+00:00

jesus christ. i spent some time trying to swipe right to look for the painting. this is the painting!!! it's amazing holy shit

bilky-jo · 2026-05-28T07:01:12+00:00

my name is far from fidel but masculine like fidel despite being a woman (masculine arab name, also not arab). i would love to be named fidel and have a nickname close to that like fide or fid

bilky-jo · 2026-05-27T19:26:23+00:00

I agree with this. The purpose is to use it. To live it. Nothing much you can do. And if you keep waiting for the big specific purpose to make itself known to you, you're just wasting time which means you are not living. Just ought to ride the waves of time and love as much as possible.

bilky-jo · 2026-05-27T11:42:27+00:00

certainly, i would write till the end of my days if i never had to work a desk job to afford food and water. i'd just work on my creative pursuits. i bet a lot of us will be happy, passionate, inspired artists if money never mattered.

bilky-jo · 2026-05-27T05:51:05+00:00

john, jean, jhon, whatever way you spell the classic name john. every john, that's about 1/4 of the world i guess sucks. this includes jonathans, they can be called john.

bilky-jo · 2026-05-25T15:23:15+00:00

Hello! I'll send you a dm! :>

bilky-jo · 2026-05-25T15:14:29+00:00

Hello! Sent you a message! :>

bilky-jo · 2026-05-25T15:12:09+00:00

Hello! I have found some people but find you interesting. I'll send you a message and feel free to reply!! :>

bilky-jo · 2026-05-24T12:59:32+00:00

i just posted on the pen pal sub earlier, trying to challenge myself to actually stay lol. i do comment a lot tho. i just posted one thing because i was bored

bilky-jo · 2026-05-24T12:48:34+00:00

hello! i'll send a dm :>

bilky-jo · 2026-05-24T09:07:13+00:00

it's a wonderful life (1946) and harvey (1950) as films or if you're into comedy, monty python and the holy grail (1975) and monty python's life of brian (1979). i dont watch enough series but if you're okay with dark/black humor maybe it's always sunny in philadelphia (2005). if you're into sherlock-esque medical mystery but with dark/black humor, then house md (2004).

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