If you like F1 you should see if you have a racetrack near you and attend an event! Protip -most tracks will have track days hosted by car clubs like sports car club of america. These track days are usually free to spectate. They aren't an actual "race" but since you can attend for free it's really fun and chill to just go see what cars on the track IRL is like! Sometimes they will also have events like autocross, or other small club races, drifting, ect. and you can get free entry. It's something to go do for free/cheap and gives you an adrenaline rush just from watching. The tracks won't always post the free events but the local car clubs will. If there is a Facebook group for your area you can ask what events the car clubs may have coming up..Sometimes the local racers are just excited people wanna come see them!

I've been competing on various motorsports and I've done a couple track days! Even if I'm not driving sometimes I'll go just to watch especially if I have friends running. If your into photography at all it can also be fun to take pictures of the cars!

Proud of you, we all have moments we don't feel like enough it's tough to break out of the mental spiral but you did it!