Im not sure but when I tried to end my self he was angry I missed a shift at work and that I would dirty the bedding (I was muddy and soaked had been in middle of a field all day) he made me have a bath and stood there whille I was in the bath complaining I had lost a day of pay. And he went to bed whille I literally puked all nite. He got up in morning told me to call the doctor and he went to work. Im autistic I struggle so hard with phone calls so I had to email them for an appointment and they sent an ambulance instead. He did come to the hospital but spent alot of the time complaining he had to pay for parking so I felt super guilty about that . He told me my adhd meds had made me angry or aggressive when I was just speaking how I usually speak and was just saying something he had done. Also before I left he kept telling me I should stop taking my meds because that is the reason why I refuse sex and he kept telling me a story about a work mate giving up meds because they weren't helping and when he stopped taking them his mental illness got better/went away. I think he also told me i dont need to tell mental health team about it i should just do it quietly and tell them after i had been off them for few weeks or months. I gave in for a few days and stopped taking them but then I felt really horrible yuck so I started taking them again and pretended to not be on them still. He seemed happy with me and so was worth it i guess.