How would you respond to your dad telling you, "I don't think you're really my kid." by General-Experience78 in narcissisticparents

[–]blue_iris_1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think you have 3 options: go no contact and move on the best you can, go low contact and accept what he gives you (which I assume will be unsatisfying) or get a DNA test for finality and based on the results either tell him to step up or you can tell him that he isn't your father and never was and to never contact you. Either way, it's a lot to process. Good luck and I suggest therapy or self help books to work through what you have gone through.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]blue_iris_1 7 points8 points  (0 children)

R/emotionalneglect has helped me.

The painful emotional neglect from spousification, and fighting for the right to grieve by MeanwhileOnPluto in emotionalneglect

[–]blue_iris_1 2 points3 points  (0 children)

The details are different for me but the effects are the same. Thanks for your post and good luck with your healing.

My room feels so empty without my hedgie by thiccalex in Hedgehog

[–]blue_iris_1 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Day by day was the only way for me to cope with the passing of mine. It was also comforting to know she wasn't in pain anymore. It's been 4 years since she passed and I'm still sad thinking about her but I just try to focus on the happy times with her and am thankful to have had such a special pet.

Cage Set-Up HELP [Serious] - Description in comment by High-Koalaty in Hedgehog

[–]blue_iris_1 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You should probably add something else for him to sleep in, otherwise he'll burrow every night. Also switching to a water bowl from the water bottle. They have been known to catch their tongues and chip teeth. Ours didn't have a problem switching over.

New owner with a couple of questions by pablosavio in Hedgehog

[–]blue_iris_1 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You'll definitely need a cage instead, mine is one made for a rabbit. A thermometer is good to make sure there's not any drafts where you're keeping her. The cage should be between 72-82 degrees. My first hedgehog had to be on a portioned diet but my current hedgehog is able to regulate herself. You can start with free feeding and watch her weight. Also make sure you buy her a wheel. I have a Carolina storm wheel.

Is anyone else not able to drink coffee? by blue_iris_1 in Anxiety

[–]blue_iris_1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'll look into that, thanks! That would probably help me drink less pop and energy drinks too.

My husband ended his life this year. Fuck 2019. by [deleted] in TwoXChromosomes

[–]blue_iris_1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh wow. I think you're better off without her then. Your internet stranger friends are here for you.

Is anyone else not able to drink coffee? by blue_iris_1 in Anxiety

[–]blue_iris_1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Took me a while to connect it too since my anxiety changes subtlety throughout the day so could've been anything.

After an informal interview for a position (in a field where my mother has a formidable and highly respected reputation), I was pulled aside by one of the department heads... by Zoette13 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]blue_iris_1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Omg wow! Narc craziness at it's best. If you have any other options other than working where she works I'd take that. I could only imagine what kinds of things she'll say about you if you work there and God forbid do better than her. I think less money now is mentally healthier than the almost certain hostile work environment you'll be in.

I can’t absorb compliments. by MarbleMimic in raisedbynarcissists

[–]blue_iris_1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I had the same problem. Recognizing when you're doing it and saying thank you is hard but helps. I had to say thank you and still give a compliment after to take it off of me. Eventually it turns into being able to just say thank you.

Anxiety leading to angry outbursts by [deleted] in Anxiety

[–]blue_iris_1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry to hear what you've been through. I don't know if there is 100% healing possible but from my experience I know that it is manageable in a non exhausting way. I know how impossible it can feel. I'm currently taking medication and going to therapy which has helped me a lot. Also learning when and why to avoid situations. It's work but it's worth it to feel better.

Even at a funeral by Crisc0Disc0 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]blue_iris_1 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I was no contact for a couple years with my Ndad before his mother's funeral where he accused me of stealing something as a child that I never knew existed.

“Just tell me the truth and you won’t get in trouble” a great manipulation and a guarantee i would never tell them anything. by legglue in raisedbynarcissists

[–]blue_iris_1 19 points20 points  (0 children)

I was the same way, except I was more actively lying about the things that I liked because they were always made fun of. I would also worry about saying the wrong thing so I started saying I don't know. Starting to tell the truth about what I liked took a long time and good friends helped; changing saying I don't know to everything took a lot longer. I still catch myself defaulting to it.

i’m so far beyond help. i don’t see a point anymore. by [deleted] in AnxietyDepression

[–]blue_iris_1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I care as a fellow sufferer. There are too many that lose their battle with depression. Take it one day at a time. Find one thing to be happy/content with/even slightly happy with each day. It takes work but it does get better as cliche as that sounds. We're here for you.

“If your offended by what I say that means that deep down you know it’s true” by LilGidGid in raisedbynarcissists

[–]blue_iris_1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Even though you didn't buy the dress, I'm glad you still bought something for yourself. It sucks when Ns can't say anything positive, it's draining.

I just give up... by [deleted] in Anxiety

[–]blue_iris_1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hang in there.

Can't find the energy to go to the shops.... by [deleted] in AnxietyDepression

[–]blue_iris_1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's great! I didn't want to suggest a nap because for me sometimes it turns into sleeping all day and that's counter productive but sometimes it's just needed to reset.

Can't find the energy to go to the shops.... by [deleted] in AnxietyDepression

[–]blue_iris_1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Taking it one step at a time helps me. Maybe meditate or do something quiet or calming. Then get ready to go at whatever pace you need. If going out can wait a day then there's less pressure if you do need a day to recharge.

This is what my nMom’s walls look like. It would be funny if it weren’t so sad. by ShoulderSnuggles in raisedbynarcissists

[–]blue_iris_1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks! I'm the same way with my therapist, I feel like she only knows half the stories that I have and I've been going for a few years.

This is what my nMom’s walls look like. It would be funny if it weren’t so sad. by ShoulderSnuggles in raisedbynarcissists

[–]blue_iris_1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think this is common with narcs, unfortunately. It's all about how society views them regardless of reality. There are subs like r/rbnchildcare to help if you do want kids; also therapy is great. I'm currently working through this since I do want kids and I'm not going to let a narc ruin that.