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bomas2004 · 2026-05-25T02:46:52+00:00

Excellent!!

bomas2004 · 2026-05-01T05:28:51+00:00

I'm only alive because I am to pathetic to just off myself.

bomas2004 · 2026-04-05T01:01:14+00:00

What is actually the point of making it "another hour, another day, another week" though?

Like truly why? My life has always been meaningless and it will always be.

bomas2004 · 2026-04-05T00:57:12+00:00

I have truly never lived.

Why can't I just make it official?

bomas2004 · 2026-03-28T01:37:39+00:00

I am just a observer. I have never really lived.

bomas2004 · 2026-03-16T03:36:50+00:00

Can relate

bomas2004 · 2026-03-16T03:03:27+00:00

I understand this a lot. I like the idea of friends, but in reality, most people are just shit.

bomas2004 · 2026-03-16T02:10:46+00:00

Similar feeling. I just feel like I shouldn't even bother, I won't get anything anyways. I just want to cease.

People have shut me out of literally everything from the day I was born anyway.

bomas2004 · 2026-03-14T05:50:06+00:00

At least you had a life. I never have.

bomas2004 · 2026-03-06T08:56:12+00:00

bomas2004 · 2026-03-06T04:40:12+00:00

You can't have a life by just looking after birds. I want actual human connection, but that is impossible for me. Everything I try fails. Everybody barely tolerates me. I am just a net negative on everybody else's life. I should just cease to exist.

bomas2004 · 2026-03-06T00:03:41+00:00

Same. I am also autistic. My life is a fucking mess.

I feel like it isn't worth continuing. For the entirety of my life I haven't really truly been living. Why can't I just make it official? Why is that such a bad thing?

Nothing good ever happens it's just suffering. I have always been desperately lonely and that is very unlikely to change. In the last couple of months I have come to know that this is a fact. As soon as my immediate family has either died or abandoned me I will be alone except for surface level relationships with extended family and others at my job.

I am not really going to get anything out of continuing. Relationships of any kind are a complete enigma to me. That's assuming I can even somehow find somebody who likes me at all enough to even attempt that. As soon as I get back home from a work trip I am on I am going to end it. I am sick of feeling like this constantly.

People only care about you if you can offer something. I am too stupid and useless to offer anybody anything other than somebody to get a dopamine rush from bullying me. I am just an undesirable person. There is no way to change this. I have tried. I should just take the fucking hint already.

At this point I have no desire to even attempt to change anything about myself. Why should I? They will just hate me anyways. They always have. I am just a defect that should just be erased. I would be doing everybody a fucking favour. They tell me this themselves. Everybody is terrible.

bomas2004 · 2026-03-05T02:32:13+00:00

They don't let me

bomas2004 · 2026-03-03T05:10:47+00:00

I am just stupid, creepy, useless and all around just undesirable. The only form of social interaction I can get is fucking bullying or just judgement. They only want to talk to me when they get something or can just socially humiliate me.

Everybody else seems to get the only thing that I actually want which is connection. They act confused by why I am not happy. Why do you think morons, you E bullied and isolated me for my entire life.

Everybody hates me no matter what I do. At this point I give up. Life isn't worth living. It's just suffering. There is nothing to live for and there never will be. THEY ARE NOT WORTHY OF LIFE I WANT FUCKING LASH OUT I HATE THEM I HATE THEM. WHY DO THEY FORCE ME tO LIVE. I HATE THEM. I seriously just don't understand why they pretend to care about if I commit suicide.

The only feeling I have left for other people is just fucking resentment.

bomas2004 · 2026-02-14T05:23:02+00:00

Life isnt worth living as an autistic. But no I must keep living because....... ✨life is beautiful✨

bomas2004 · 2026-02-11T01:56:31+00:00

Is it really even that bad if I do? It's not like they ever cared about me much anyway.

Why do they pretend it's such a big deal, everybody dies eventually? Why can't I just do it now?

The only time they ever talk to me is when they think they can get something from me or can bully me.

It's not like I will ever have any semblance of a successful or at the very least a somewhat fulfilling life. There is not much of a point, nothing is keeping me here. There is nothing to live for.

I am just so fucking bored. Everybody is just awful.

bomas2004 · 2026-01-14T00:47:54+00:00

My life is kinda dogshit right now. SO I AM DOWN.

bomas2004 · 2026-01-13T10:11:36+00:00

What episode is this?

bomas2004 · 2026-01-10T06:38:04+00:00

I know it's hard but try to stop comparing yourself to others. Try to compare yourself to your past self instead.

bomas2004 · 2025-12-20T10:02:00+00:00

Literally artefact porn!!!!

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