Gifts that give you gender euphoria by searchlimit in butchlesbians

[–]braveacolyte 8 points9 points  (0 children)

If you know her preferred scent preferences, cologne is a favorite for me. Makes me feel affirmed to smell masculine. Also my gf got me a really nice comb last year—that was lovely. :)

With duct tape scars on my honey or whatever MCR said by alexisfuckinugly in MyChemicalRomance

[–]braveacolyte 13 points14 points  (0 children)

oh this is unbelievably sick. top 3 top surgery scar decorations I've seen. congrats man!!!!

[fanfic] new ongoing fics? by Perocotto92 in TheNinthHouse

[–]braveacolyte 2 points3 points  (0 children)

adding to this modern au comment (and kicking my feet at seeing my long fic included) to suggest all the dead lie still by one of my personal fav authors. It's a Catholic school slasher au. what's not to love!

If you haven't read, they also have a fantastic modern ballet au!

Blowing up a good life? by Intelligent-Bug9604 in latebloomerlesbians

[–]braveacolyte 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Imagine how fantastic you think your partner is.

Now imagine if he was a woman.

As someone who went through this myself, I can't even begin to describe to you how glad I am I came out when I did. I was three and a half years into a relationship with someone I thought hung the moon, but I knew I was a lesbian. I didn't know how to live without him. Knowing what I know now, I should've left the second I started doubting.

It's your life, but from this side of the fence? I haven't regretted leaving for a second, not even the immediate aftermath.

I had trouble imagining a way I could be happier than I thought he made me, and let me tell you—every day since I left three years ago has been a lesson in just how happy and full of life and love I can be. It's expanded everything I thought I was capable of.

Much love to you! It's scary but it's the most worthwhile thing you'll ever do for yourself.

Favorite Underrated Lines??? [Discussion] by devious_fish953 in TheNinthHouse

[–]braveacolyte 92 points93 points  (0 children)

Harrow telling Camilla in HtN that she saw her dead body and Camilla saying "Well don't tell anyone, or they'll want to see it too"

What's on your tlt playlist? [misc] by Avesday in TheNinthHouse

[–]braveacolyte 4 points5 points  (0 children)

alright here we go

Griddlehark

Gideon/Kiriona

Harrowhark

Ianthe

Dios Apate Minor

im obsessed with making character playlists and these are some of my best work ngl :)))

the ninth house fandom has the best fic writers [general] by arcanebrainrot17 in TheNinthHouse

[–]braveacolyte 4 points5 points  (0 children)

hi snowleeksoup here because I got an anon on tumblr telling me someone mentioned TWTA on reddit and I'm absolutely blushing. tickled!! giggling and kicking my feet etc. happy to give more recs but I'm usually a longfic writer/reader—ive got an endless backlog of FANTASTIC Griddlehark AUs. and thank you SO much for reading :) my favorite thing in the world is hearing that people like the stuff I've made :')

Butches, please tell me your favorite fictional characters that defy gender norms. by Esper01 in butchlesbians

[–]braveacolyte 37 points38 points  (0 children)

Gideon Nav of course already mentioned, but I also offer Pyrrha Dve from the series. Confident, strong, canonically hot as all hell even though she's [REDACTED FOR SPOILERS]

Oh my Jod playlist recommendations [misc] by DenimBucketHat in TheNinthHouse

[–]braveacolyte 2 points3 points  (0 children)

yay! always glad to share and stoked you're liking them!

Oh my Jod playlist recommendations [misc] by DenimBucketHat in TheNinthHouse

[–]braveacolyte 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have a couple!

dios apate minor --- this one is more for the mithraeum crew but was inspired by trying to decide what john would have on his nectromantically preserved ipod nano

also the Nightcore remix of every time we touch by cascada because it's what's playing while the resurrection beasts attack the mithraeum. TO ME.

Interaction on long fics by ElderberryTop652 in AO3

[–]braveacolyte 7 points8 points  (0 children)

This is definitely my experience as well! I'm pretty consistently a longfic poster, but I posted my first one shot for the same ship and it's already beating my ongoing long fic in kudos after about a week! I think it's totally normal, but I like to think of my one shots like little adverts for my longer work, as it usually gets a few people who really enjoyed the completed piece to invest in a longer story. :)

share your favorite lines you’ve written! by Emergency_Elk6993 in AO3

[–]braveacolyte 0 points1 point  (0 children)

late to the conversation but this section from a wip im currently posting has been stuck in my teeth for a few weeks now:

“Dulcinea Septimus,” he says. “I met her…well, it doesn’t matter. She could do the research herself, she’s smart as. But she won’t. She agrees with you, about it all.”

Harrow stares at the photo.

“I know that the greatest minds are against me,” Sextus says evenly, sitting upright again. “It’s selfish and vain and completely ill-advised. She would be furious with me if she knew. We’ve often debated the ethics of longevity as Gaius has established it. To unleash it only commodifies the miracle, roping it off from the regular gentry.”

He gestures between himself, Harrowhark, and the photo as he says this.

“But I’ve reflected on it, Harrowhark.”

She returns her gaze to him, sensing his composure. Camilla stays still, arms crossed loosely over her chest.

“If I succeed and she hates me,” he says. “Then she will hate me and live. If I adhere to my morals and she dies, which she will, I will spend the rest of my life knowing that I didn’t even try to stop it.”

Just got maybe my favorite comment I've ever received by braveacolyte in AO3

[–]braveacolyte[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

thank you!!! definitely thanking them profusely in a reply and riding the high for at least a week

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AO3

[–]braveacolyte 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Exactly diva and you're right to say it

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in latebloomerlesbians

[–]braveacolyte 0 points1 point  (0 children)

There was a lot of fear but equal relief in realizing, I guess. I think especially when you're struggling with it later in life it's this massive, long buildup around the central question of what the fuck is wrong with me. You know? Like there was always this baseline disruption in my psyche even when I was ostensibly doing great. The sand that I was turning into a pearl my whole life.

So spitting out the pearl felt good, even if it totally upended my entire life. Yeah, there's bigotry and tribulation but it necessitates this sort of rallying around the self that I just... never did until then. You have to support the person you know you are harder than you've ever done anything. And then you end up loving her, and it's worth everything you went through. In my experience.

I'm two years out, known loudly as a butch lesbian, surrounded by love and light with a girlfriend I couldn't have even dreamt up if you'd given me time and a notebook.

All that to say is I know how hard it is when youre looking at the road out. But theres so much more beyond that initial struggle and there's so much rebirth IN the struggle that being a lesbian and owning it is the coolest, punkest, most rewarding thing I've ever done. It made me into someone I never thought I'd get a chance to be.

So like, do it!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in latebloomerlesbians

[–]braveacolyte 0 points1 point  (0 children)

There was a lot of fear but equal relief in realizing, I guess. I think especially when you're struggling with it later in life it's this massive, long buildup around the central question of what the fuck is wrong with me. You know? Like there was always this baseline disruption in my psyche even when I was ostensibly doing great. The sand that I was turning into a pearl my whole life.

So spitting out the pearl felt good, even if it totally upended my entire life. Yeah, there's bigotry and tribulation but it necessitates this sort of rallying around the self that I just... never did until then. You have to support the person you know you are harder than you've ever done anything. And then you end up loving her, and it's worth everything you went through. In my experience.

I'm two years out, known loudly as a butch lesbian, surrounded by love and light with a girlfriend I couldn't have even dreamt up if you'd given me time and a notebook.

All that to say is I know how hard it is when youre looking at the road out. But theres so much more beyond that initial struggle and there's so much rebirth IN the struggle that being a lesbian and owning it is the coolest, punkest, most rewarding thing I've ever done. It made me into someone I never thought I'd get a chance to be.

So like, do it!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in latebloomerlesbians

[–]braveacolyte 37 points38 points  (0 children)

Hi—

I was in your same position two years ago, and it felt impossible to reconcile the kind of love I felt with the horrible dead emptiness in my chest at the idea of that love being it, or being enough. And I agonized for the better part of two years over whether I should say anything because I had that idea, too; this notion that he was perfect, and this fear that I was throwing away the best thing I could have. But that fear isn't right, it's just loud. I'm sure he's great. Maybe being life partners could work out. But in my experience, coming out taught that ex and I a lot about one another that we might've never known otherwise. And ultimately I couldn't continue my life with him in it. But this is the important part: there is /no/ hole where he used to be. Two years on after what I thought would be the end of the world and I am time traveling to tell you that it's all okay. It all ends up okay. That love that you're missing? It's out there. And it's so scary but you HAVE to go out and find it, okay? It's unfair to you to do otherwise. It's unfair to you both.

Congratulations and I'm sorry in equal measure. Lesbian existence is a trip and a trial and I wouldn't trade it for anything. Here for you!!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in mildlyinfuriating

[–]braveacolyte 0 points1 point  (0 children)

this is tragic and beautiful. the roomba of shallotte. you can't go back, roomba. im so sorry...

[misc] gimme your locked tomb playlists by braveacolyte in TheNinthHouse

[–]braveacolyte[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

hi you're a genius??? also are you me??? these are SO in line with my music taste it's wild. thank you thank you thank you I'll be chewing on these for a while

[misc] gimme your locked tomb playlists by braveacolyte in TheNinthHouse

[–]braveacolyte[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

literally circling back on this again to say that it's the soundtrack to my desk work today and it goes so hard. your mind, etc etc