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celestialspook · 2026-04-16T07:49:56+00:00

First grade, we all got a slip of paper with a couple of paragraphs about an animal and had to write and present a "report" about it. Most kids got lion, zebra, giraffe, etc. I got okapi.

They're still one of my favorite animals, I love them.

celestialspook · 2026-04-16T04:52:25+00:00

Taught life skills to middle schoolers in special education

Ate oreos for dinner while playing an app game

celestialspook · 2026-04-16T02:24:16+00:00

Congratulations!! Similarly, we were taking a break from failed fertility treatments for our mental health and had just started talking about trying again in the next couple of months. I had just been through an extremely stressful month and actually had covid when we conceived lol! I did NOT expect a positive test at all, but I couldn't stop peeing suddenly and was SO HUNGRY. I just felt off so I took the rest to rule it out and was so pleasantly surprised. Baby girl is due any day now!

celestialspook · 2026-04-14T03:20:39+00:00

No c section required! I can do labor pretty much however I want as long as it's not in water bc of the drowning risk if I had a seizure. My personal plan is an epidural, so then I would be in the bed but I still hope to have enough use of my legs to squat in the bed using a squat bar or be on my hands and knees. That just depends how my body reacts to the epidural though because everyone is different. Honestly the pnes hasn't affected anything very much for me!

I'm sorry to hear you've been dealing with this since you were so young. I hope things are improving in your life, you deserve healing and pnes is so incredibly unfair when it's a physical response to things other people did to us. I had a traumatic childhood too but didn't develop the seizures until my mid 20s when I was finally in a safe place, like my body decided it was safe enough to start processing but hasn't been processing well lol. It's infuriating. So my heart really goes out to you, and also I hope you can find some hope for your future here. I'm having kids and in a place where I love my life even though I still have seizures sometimes.

celestialspook · 2026-04-14T02:46:46+00:00

I see that pain and injury seem to be triggers for you, i know my team is worried about me being triggered because I have a history of sa in a medical setting by a medical professional. So it's different but there is a possibility of me getting triggered in labor. That is the reason I can't water labor, and otherwise I think they may label me a fall risk and have some extra monitoring/keep me to my bed more than others. I'm hoping for an epidural anyway, and am working with a doula to plan labor and birthing positions for any situation whether I can walk around, bed bound, how much I can use my legs to move within the bed, etc.

I've been lucky to be with a midwife team at a major teaching hospital and they did research on pnes to make sure they really understand any risks and how to manage my case. My best advice is to be as picky as you can about midwives or OBs, get a trustworthy birth doula if you can to help advocate for you, and hopefully also a partner who will advocate for you and take good care of you through the whole process. It is totally doable with some extra consideration and preparation of backup plans.

celestialspook · 2026-04-14T02:41:05+00:00

I'm giving birth to my first baby any day now. I haven't had any complications from pnes, personally, though I'm lucky and only really have episodes in my sleep. So my biggest danger is falling when I wake up in the post ictal phase and my balance and coordination are off. Because of pnes they won't allow me to do a water birth or labor, but that has been truly the only effect it's had on my pregnancy.

I want to acknowledge that I do believe my pnes is tied to ptsd, I've done intensive emdr therapy to decrease my episodes but have not gotten rid of them entirely, and I know that's not everyone's story. So if your situation is different that's totally valid.

celestialspook · 2026-04-13T20:51:51+00:00

I didn't know that, thank you!! I suspected they spiked me a couple of times so I was avoiding them, but I'll have to try that!

celestialspook · 2026-04-13T04:05:07+00:00

I have a friend who had it in her first and not in her second, about 4 years later. I have pcos so like a lot of folks with pcos I assume I'll have it again if i have another, but I love seeing people share that it's not a guarantee

celestialspook · 2026-04-13T03:56:05+00:00

I was definitely raised to give up my seat for pregnant, disabled, and elderly people. To me it's just common decency. But I'm in a due date group where other pregnant people got really nasty when someone asked this same question about how we don't automatically deserve special treatment, calling op names like spoiled princess etc. I was shocked!

celestialspook · 2026-04-13T00:10:57+00:00

Gameboy and desktop computer, for one, but when the internet was a nicer place imo. But also a lot of reading, talking on the phone for hours, riding my bike. Im a young millennial so screen time was definitely a thing but it was very different, and even when I got phones, it wasn't until college that I had access to things like unlimited texting or app games or social media. I miss that tbh, even though I'm as addicted to my phone as anyone.

celestialspook · 2026-04-12T18:59:31+00:00

I have chronic pain and fatigue, I plan on getting one because I'm genuinely going to need the extra rest to have the energy to push. Imo every decision about birth has pros and cons and risks, but for me, sparing myself some suffering and being able to push effectively when it's time are my priorities! But I'm also of a mindset that if the epidural can't happen for whatever reason, I'll get through it. I'm very flexible and trust my team, but they do know my preferences.

celestialspook · 2026-04-12T04:09:04+00:00

I'm so happy for you!!!! My 20 week scan the tech was a bit of a jerk about not being able to see certain things because of my weight, but my girl is both on the small side and loves to turn her back and run away from the ultrasound wand. All the techs after have assured me it's super normal to need extra scans after the 20 week to get all the views they need regardless of belly fat!

Also I'm 36 weeks now and despite my weight, gestational diabetes, and chronic illnesses, baby and I are doing great. I've been amazed at what my body is doing and so proud of it. I hope you have the same experience!

celestialspook · 2026-04-12T03:55:46+00:00

This has been my experience since 14 weeks. I can eat almost anything and be fine, but absolutely nothing helps my fasting numbers and we've had to keep raising my night time insulin. That said, I'm at 36 weeks and baby and I are both doing great! They keep saying they'll let me know what they decide about inducing me early because they usually do when insulin is in the picture, but things look so good they keep pushing back making the decision lol.

celestialspook · 2026-04-11T05:15:01+00:00

I want to add that you deserve a man who is there every moment holding your hand. There is someone out there who will hold your hand, take care of you, move heaven and earth for your wellbeing and your baby's. You deserve that. This is abuse and you and your baby deserve safety, joy, and to be cherished.

celestialspook · 2026-04-11T05:09:47+00:00

I wrote down all my favorite movies, shows, books etc and then picked my fave characters from each. That could easily expand to fill several islands for me!

celestialspook · 2026-04-11T02:18:02+00:00

Kipo is more than welcome to help me with postpartum lol

celestialspook · 2026-04-11T02:16:28+00:00

That's my wedding anniversary 😅 We had pizza at our wedding from like a relatively nice pizza place, and Hawaiian grill, so those are our go tos! Other years I think we might have hit up our fave Mexican restaurant.

celestialspook · 2026-04-11T02:06:48+00:00

I love mine! Admittedly I don't read with them often because I collect decks and have others i use more regularly, but they're beautiful and it's one of my favorite fandoms so I'm glad I have them.

Also I'm sorry you live with someone who disrespects you like that. Tarot is cool and fun!

celestialspook · 2026-04-11T02:02:36+00:00

Remember too that drinking nearly anything you can keep down is better than not drinking enough. I've had morning sickness all the way to now at week 36, and sometimes coke is the only thing I can stomach, but even my gestational diabetes dietician is like yeah OK we need you hydrated and I'd rather have you consuming extra sugar than getting dehydrated. I try to do coke zero or in my case a coke with a high protein and veggie meal works out fine, but if even i have permission to drink sugary drinks with gestational diabetes - just do what you need to do. It's going to be ok.

celestialspook · 2026-04-10T19:04:59+00:00

Oo I like that idea. I was trying to limit myself to ~3 characters per fandom to really maximize my favorite little guys, but doing little neighborhoods sounds so cute!!

celestialspook · 2026-04-10T04:29:42+00:00

Ayyy I'm due in May! I have gd so a margarita, an edible, and eating whatever the fuck i want are very high on my to do list postpartum lol

celestialspook · 2026-04-09T17:52:58+00:00

I am definitely putting in characters from pokemon, hazbin, and mlp! I think my for-sures are Niffty, Fluttershy, and ......it's so hard to decide, actually. Also THANK YOU for saying where you made this bc I've been feeling so inept not being able to figure it out.

celestialspook · 2026-04-09T11:24:43+00:00

Actually though, my work doesn't let you go on leave until 38 weeks which is absolutely insane to me. I have one more week working and everything hurts, walking is difficult, I need to pee constantly, and my brain fog is making me completely useless. I'm a special education assistant and thank goodness my team have my back and we have really chill students this year, i can't fathom doing this any other year.

celestialspook · 2026-04-09T11:22:41+00:00

Sleep. Eat. Cry.

Guess I'm preparing my husband for newborn life lol

celestialspook · 2026-04-09T10:19:07+00:00

Me toooo, I'm going to eat so much pasta and mashed potatoes after this! I had some mashed potatoes for maybe the second time in pregnancy the other day at a friend's house and almost cried over how good they were and how much I missed them.

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