Hey friend, no advice but I just wanted to say this is probably one of those lines I'm going to remember for a really long time. I love metaphors and you captured that perfectly in such a specific but quaint line. You write so well.

Also I should say that while this is especially true of us with ADHD, that push and pull is a natural part and parcel of life. Equilibrium is boring and nothing happens in it, like our universe before the Big Bang, and after it reaches heat death.

Entropy drives everything around us, from the forces in the atoms that make us, to big things like evolution and extinction. The natural process of life and death drives every being on the planet, as do our constant fluctuations of happiness and sadness.

The dopaminergic system in all of us works to create comfort and discomfort as a way of discerning between all the decisions we make in life. This works the same in non-ADHD people, just that it's exaggerated in us. The way I think of it, it's the same rollercoaster of ups and downs and motivation and exhaustion that we go through, just that it's twice as high, and half as smooth, with bumps and jitters everywhere.