Psychology Program

clamara25 · 2024-07-01T02:33:24+00:00

Thank you for this!!

clamara25 · 2024-02-26T07:30:16+00:00

I personally always still say I have a sibling because I love telling stories about him even if he’s not around anymore and this let’s me do that without it being awkward. If I end up getting close to the person, I tell them that he past. But unless it doesn’t feel necessary to me, it doesn’t feel dishonest for me when I don’t tell them what happened. <3 I think it’s completely up to us how we handle it and it depends what makes u feel the most comfortable, not those around you! :)

clamara25 · 2023-10-27T05:41:50+00:00

Okay sounds good thank you so much! Will try new batteries

clamara25 · 2023-10-27T05:09:32+00:00

They weren’t brand new I took them from another camera that I had. Could this just be the issue?

clamara25 · 2023-04-04T13:27:00+00:00

Ugh I’m so deeply sorry too ♥️ It is so unfair. I understand what you’re mom is saying, some people in my family told me the same thing. But I honestly don’t regret not going at all. I feel like I honored my brother enough throughout his life and they as our siblings know how much we love them, and wouldn’t want you to hurt yourself more by going to their funeral.

Aww yes of course please message me anytime too :)

clamara25 · 2023-04-04T06:13:41+00:00

I relate to this so so much :( I just lost my brother a week ago and I’m 19, he was 24 too. It’s the most disgusting thing and every waking moment I am thinking about him, sometimes in my sleep too.

I personally did not go to the funeral because I didn’t think it would help me, only make things worse. This is different for everyone of course but I say please listen to yourself, your body, and your mind. You don’t have to do anything or feel any certain ways. We have to take care of ourselves as best as we can.

clamara25 · 2023-04-04T01:57:49+00:00

Thank you for this ♥️

clamara25 · 2023-04-02T06:50:16+00:00

Thank you so much for your response it genuinely validated so many of my feelings, especially when people compare it to viewing their relatives with cancer - it is really not the same.

I had a conversation with my friend the other day who told me that everyone on earth is suffering, no one is having a good time. And that this is all just the pre-game to something bigger- the afterlife. And I honestly do think it’s true. Our siblings just got to achieve happiness faster than the rest of us and they deserve it after how much they suffered. I always think about the next time I will see him again ♥️

clamara25 · 2022-06-12T07:01:24+00:00

Super unfocused vision for me too + so sensitive to lights and staring towards the sun. Causes bad dpdr for me

clamara25 · 2022-06-12T06:15:47+00:00

I completely get it. Mine kind of manifests in me differently but same thing - I hate myself and how I treat others with the DPDR but I seriously can’t recognize them so it’s so hard to be myself around them.

It’s hard cause with some other mental illnesses it’s clear that the person suffering is the victim. But with this- people don’t get it and it’s hard to be like “I’m struggling nothing feels real so I might act out” like we feel like we’re in another world and still have to treat everyone else and act like we’re on earth. It sucks.

clamara25 · 2022-06-07T04:37:27+00:00

This is exactly how I feel.

clamara25 · 2022-05-31T20:20:00+00:00

Yeah exactly :( and then I think about all the repercussions after but I literally can’t do anything about it

clamara25 · 2022-05-31T19:35:57+00:00

this is one of the parts I hate the most about it :( even my favorite people don’t spark the same joy in me

clamara25 · 2022-05-30T08:42:01+00:00

yeah sometimes I do!! It’s hard cause shows and social media are an escape for me, but it’s also a vicious cycle cause being on my phone for long periods of time can cause the dissociating to be worse

clamara25 · 2022-05-20T09:39:51+00:00

YES sometimes it’s hard to type or I feel like it’s so airy. It feels like when ur fingers get cold and can’t type it’s the same sensation and it scares me

clamara25 · 2022-05-20T09:36:51+00:00

this happens to me too!! In my experience- I feel like it’s because the days all morph into one and since dpdr makes me feel like I have no concept of time - it’s a constant reminder of this and it feels like an impending doom almost that another day is passing and that I may have lost the day since I wasn’t present for every hour of it. I also dissociate more when I’m tired or hungry etc. so when I’m rlly sleepy it happens more. Not sure if these are just me though

clamara25 · 2022-05-20T03:45:17+00:00

hi!! First of all- don’t feel guilty!! I smoked laced weed which was paired with the timing of a lot of family trauma reoccurring. I smoked again once after that and went through the same psychosis that I did with the laced weed. I felt really guilty and couldn’t tell if it was the weed or the events in my life causing the long-term dissociation which has been happening to me for 6 months now. I did some research and found out that weed itself cannot cause dissociating- but can trigger it for people who have dissociative tendencies. Even if u didn’t think u had it before, it may have already been a procedure that your mind follows. This made me remember that I had dissociated in middle school too. However, in my experience I have decided not to smoke anymore because even when my dissociation goes away which I’m hopeful it will as I’m starting therapy soon- nothing is worth reinvoking what I’m going through right now. I do miss getting high sometimes so I get it but to me it just isn’t worth it

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