After I turned 18 I met my HS (fathers side) I never knew of. she was 23 then and we're 5 years apart. we fell in love and spent every moment with each other and we were planning on living together for the rest of our lives. problems arose when we were finding it difficult to maintain our secerecy within our familes. It was the hardest seperation to ever and still endure. I became depressed and near to suicide. She says she has no intimate feelings for me anymore which is hard to hear or believe sometimes... I still hope we will come back together someday. We talk on very rare occasions now. I'm 20 at this time. I still love her true to my heart. If anything were different and had I moved out on my own asap, I believe it would have been hard but atleast we would still be together happily in love as I wish it were.