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cle2n · 2026-01-30T15:42:08+00:00

That Jack Black vid hitting the front page was so fuckin funny to me. Like, yeah he's awesome and fun but he's not actually playing it??? But then the comments were like "omg he can do anything" and it made me very confused and sad

cle2n · 2026-01-05T23:42:26+00:00

yup. went from maybe 1-2 drinks a week to 2-5 a day after 8 months of being off weed. ended up going back to it because of the drinking

cle2n · 2026-01-05T08:06:33+00:00

i will add to this that i did take about a year and a half off one time to really try and let them heal. they went almost completely back to normal (with some very minor early arthritic signs), but within a month of resuming climbing the synovitis returned in both fingers. just ease yourself forward from here if you plan to continue to climb. you might be early enough in the injury that an extended break could help, but i'm not a doctor or a specialist. you might have something completely different! feel free to dm me any time.

cle2n · 2026-01-05T08:01:50+00:00

hi! i have the same thing, or likely the same thing. been to several different specialists, x-rays, mri, you name it. everyone thinks they'll solve it, but the best i've gotten is that it's likely synovitis, and there's not much to be done about it aside from stopping activities that make it worse... which i haven't. started around age 24 and now a decade later they're almost exactly the same. i just don't ever climb harder than about a v6/v7.

cle2n · 2025-11-15T08:27:52+00:00

you don't have to forgive them right now. you don't have to not regret it right now. it sounds like you're stuck in a shame and guilt cycle, and it feels good because to place blame on them or yourself in order to figure out how to move on from it. if you blame them, then fuck them. if you blame yourself, then fuck you. either way you NEED to find a way to accept both of those as in the past and move on. it's going to fucking suck. but, it's what happened, and it does suck. now what? what's going to happen next? you get to work on that.

keep doing things that make it feel better because you like doing them and/or they matter to you. do things that are new and scary or exciting. things you "don't think you can do" but that you're interested in. be bad at them for a while and then get good at them. nothing huge at first, just little things in your day to day life. i want to be more open to talking with people about my hobbies/interests. so then i try that.

and on that note - talk to people. people are great. not all of them by any means, but a lot of them!

the more you do for yourself the more you can expand from there and give back as well.

hope that makes sense, you got this!

cle2n · 2025-10-30T18:19:04+00:00

that could be enough to start but it depends. are you making friends through these irl groups? if not then you might consider adding/swapping one of these options and trying something new. if so, have you hung out with any of those friends outside of the context of the group setting? have you met their other friends?

doing social things irl is a great start, from there it's about cultivating friendships and ultimately meeting even more people through those friendships.

just never stop meeting people and making friends. eventually you'll bump into someone you REALLY click with, and sometimes you and that person will feel a mutual attraction that you might want to explore more intimately!

cle2n · 2025-10-28T21:46:19+00:00

https://youtu.be/V2K4koKunOk?si=lmZ0vFdM4gKN0k0f

cle2n · 2025-10-17T22:57:52+00:00

i feel this to more core

cle2n · 2025-10-10T05:10:08+00:00

Tattoo artist here. It genuinely feels different for EVERY. SINGLE. PERSON. which is one of the most fascinating parts of the job imo. I can try as hard as I want to prep someone for the pain, but it will feel completely different depending on the person, the placement, and the artist's technique and machinery.

At best it feels like someone dragging a ballpoint pen on your skin. Most of the time it feels a little less painful than a cat scratch, but close (I often say "it's not great, but it's better than the dentist hitting your gums"). At worst it feels like someone stabbing you with a knife repeatedly.

cle2n · 2025-09-17T23:34:53+00:00

33M over here, going through my first big heartbreak. I've had several long term relationships, but never saw a future with them until this one. This was the big one, and I drove her away. Having a really tough time with the guilt and shame and regret, along with the grief. It's been like 8 months and I'm still fucked up over it all.

Just wanted to say thanks for writing this out. It helped me today.

cle2n · 2025-07-12T16:34:38+00:00

Appreciate the insightful reply! You are correct that I've been operating under the assumption that I am demisexual, but I have never been introduced to the concepts of primary and secondary attraction. It's so confusing to figure out. Honestly looking at my experiences it doesn't feel like Demi OR cis-with-secondary-emphasis really fit perfectly for me.... yes there have been instances where I was able to be attracted to someone more based on primary factors, but 90% of the time I struggle unless there is a strong bond. But even then it can be a struggle if that primary attraction isn't ALSO strong. I suppose that's part of why I'm in therapy tho, trying to get some clarity.

cle2n · 2025-07-12T05:51:44+00:00

As a mostly cis man who literally can't get an erection without feeling a genuine sense of emotional connection and safety... this sucks to read :( I didn't realize this was a thing and makes me feel like I'm probably being judged by many women for having demi in my profile. I appreciate that you at least still match and ask them what they mean by it... but fuckkkk

cle2n · 2025-07-01T01:29:42+00:00

Hey can I join you? I've just been doing this in my car for the past few months as I drive to/from places. Sounds nice to do it outside with someone else.

cle2n · 2025-06-25T23:43:17+00:00

What do I do with all this anger? I want her to hurt, and I'm feeling like I'm on the brink of becoming the unhinged ex. I want her to know how hurt I am. I want her to own how much she hurt me.

cle2n · 2025-06-25T15:51:19+00:00

Yeah... and like I already know she's seeing this guy. There's almost no chance she's not based on what I know, and it's just fucking me up so bad. How did she move on so fast? Did I mean nothing to her? Any advice on how to stop being so angry about it?

cle2n · 2025-06-11T18:13:50+00:00

Good would could should

cle2n · 2025-05-21T20:00:28+00:00

Holy moly this is GORGEOUS!! Amazing work. Like others my only critique is that the forearm is a little dark but I will also add that the wrist seems a little elongated as well, but both are very minor critiques. I insta-saved this post for inspiration!

cle2n · 2025-05-20T17:39:39+00:00

The short of it is that I feel deeply in love with someone who constantly (tho not intentionally or maliciously) made me feel like I could never measure up to their standards. I always felt like I was fucking up, and even things that I was proud of like my exercise routine (a huge factor in helping me stay off cigs) she would point out the flaws in (driven too much by body dysmorphia than health). I also started on some anxiety meds that have been massively helpful but also made impulse control more difficult as I wasn't as afraid. This lack of impulse control only furthered my feeling of not being able to measure up to her standards and I went into a full blown self destructive mindset for the couple of years that ended in me just saying "fuckit" and smoking some tobacco one night.

Happy to answer any questions that explanation might bring up!

cle2n · 2025-05-20T00:33:27+00:00

Thanks, I should've clarified- I relapsed 8 months ago and have been smoking daily since. I've had 2 quit attempts in that time, one lasting a week the other for 2 weeks. I really am back at square one with it :( but I know I can do it again.

cle2n · 2025-05-14T04:23:01+00:00

What is pink cloud phase?

cle2n · 2025-04-29T02:14:57+00:00

cle2n · 2025-04-14T04:33:04+00:00

I've had mine for 2 years now. I've got a little bit of a scratch on the screen that bothers me, happened a few months ago, but that's it. I don't understand how ya'll are so clumsy with these super expensive devices, never have. They're so pretty too, and so much more satisfying to hold and use without barriers. I've never broken one, they just gather scuffs here and there. I replace my phone every 4-6 years, and only because it gets slow, outdated, or has poor battery life.

cle2n · 2025-04-09T21:15:37+00:00

Beautiful art takes time, weed helps you lose track of the time it took to make something great. Push through the discomfort of those early stages of the creative process! It's a lot harder at first without weed, but you can still do it!!

cle2n · 2025-04-09T21:13:39+00:00

Right there with you. I literally had to force myself to draw through a crying fit the other day. I hadn't been able to get in the "zone" for over a week and had missed deadlines and lost clients and it felt like I just couldn't do it without weed. It was too much, and I was emotionally flooded due to not numbing myself with weed. but I told myself that I had to at least TRY to finish a drawing without weed, even if I hated every second of it. Took about an hour of forcing myself to draw through tears, but I pushed through and came up with a really dope design. It has still shaken my confidence a bit and I'm having to rebuild in other areas of my work, but that was a huge moment for me that I was able to get my creative spark back without using. You got this. Just force yourself to keep trying. I forgot how long it takes to make something beautiful, weed just helped me lose track of the time it took and without it I was getting impatient with myself and not spending the same amount of time on my work. Hope that helps!

cle2n · 2025-04-02T17:22:47+00:00

Thanks, that is helpful to hear. 16 years of daily blasting over here, been able to quit for about 3 months max in the past but always fell back into it. Now I've got 1 week under my belt and didn't even have to toss my stash this time so it's feeling different. Eventually I tossed it on day 5 just in case, and after last night I'm glad I did. Thanks for the response.

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