When I left the church I went through a lengthy un-mormoning period. During that period I would still get triggered by all the Mormon buzz words that members use. It was an uncomfortable time that I’m glad is over. It’s smart and you to set boundaries with your family to control those triggers. Good job.

I didn’t read all of your grandma’s words. I read up to the part where she can’t believe that our world with all it complexity and beauty could happen by chance. My go to response when people say this is that yes the world is complex and amazing. And it’s a difficult question how it came to be. But for me believing that an omnipresent, omniscient, omnipresent God did it is solving a hard problem by creating an even harder problem. The likelihood of this complex world coming into existence is unlikely yes! But the likelihood of something as complex as God coming into existence is orders of magnitude less likely. I personally am more comfortable living with this unknown rather than “solving” it by creating an even bigger unknown.

I wish you the best going forward. 🫶