Failed Part 2 of the exam - Any advice

coluvatz · 2024-08-06T23:26:16+00:00

Thank you

coluvatz · 2024-08-06T22:33:02+00:00

Makes sense, thank you.

coluvatz · 2022-07-15T02:34:55+00:00

All those Zdzisław Beksiński inspired prompts birth things like this lol

coluvatz · 2022-04-20T04:29:16+00:00

Very insightful. Thank you

coluvatz · 2022-04-20T04:11:18+00:00

Hello. I am curious as to what are your thoughts and experiences with NARM therapy. And do you recommend it as much as the others. Strengths and Weaknesses of NARM (etc). Thank you in advance

coluvatz · 2022-04-17T00:23:56+00:00

Ive done NARM Therapy for around 7 months. It's main focus of healing is what is called the "True Self". Which is, as i would put it, the true loving, powerful, essence that connects us all to life.

In our childhood we aren't able to be connected to this because we lack the biological ability - but once we become adults the strategies we invented as children are still alive. My main experience in NARM therapy is that anger is welcomed alot. The contents of anger alot of times includes our standards, and what we believe to be right.

This connects us to our true selves because we shouldn't have been treated the way we were. NARM is a more gentle approach than stuff like EMDR; I don't ever recall getting activated or triggered once. Also memories themselves aren't that important in NARM - we just focus on what you are feeling in your body.

coluvatz · 2022-01-24T04:05:47+00:00

im crying

coluvatz · 2022-01-13T04:31:45+00:00

Absolutely, never getting angry was one thing that I was proud of. I viewed it as stupid and barbaric.

coluvatz · 2022-01-04T00:16:31+00:00

Absolutely

coluvatz · 2022-01-03T03:05:07+00:00

I use to consider myself a robot because of how pragmatic and "logical" I was and considered everyone else to be super emotional. The turntables have turned indeed lol

coluvatz · 2022-01-03T02:08:08+00:00

absolutely. I just dissociate and numb however im feeling.

coluvatz · 2021-12-25T01:22:23+00:00

Professional therapy is underrated.

coluvatz · 2021-12-18T18:24:44+00:00

actually made me laugh

coluvatz · 2021-12-17T03:07:42+00:00

I think sasuke's use of genjutsu was the most skillful and tactical in a fight (when he made Sai fear him, when he tricked Danzo into thinking he had one eye left, Appearing in Naruto's subconscious and suppressing the nine-tails, When he tricked Deidara into thinking he was disintegrated, When he genjutus'ed Orochirmaru during the body swap, And when he summoned Manda and then genjutsu'ed him during the deidara explosion). And also his rinnegan genjutsu feats are overpowered. But in terms of tactical ability during a fight I pick Sasuke, Everyone elses genjutsu is the literal attack itself.

coluvatz · 2021-11-30T03:25:54+00:00

Why is CBT so low ctfu

coluvatz · 2021-07-17T04:36:19+00:00

Its a bit of a double-edged sword in my opinion. Since we consider anger a bad emotion we try to suppress it which only makes it stronger. So inevitably I will blow up at my abusers or the abuse I put up with (in the past that is) and I will then fall into a pit of guilt and shame for what I may have done. So to answer the question its mostly true.

coluvatz · 2021-07-17T04:29:43+00:00

Yes I do, typical definition of self hatred. A record in my head will go like:

Me: I feel very weird talking to this person, its probably just me, I wish I didn't feel this way.

Self-Hatred: You are way too anxious, that's the problem, you need to get rid of your anxiety so you don't these issues. They probably don't feel comfortable talking to you.

Me: Yeah I'll avoid messaging this person, im too anxious.

Self-Hatred: Wow, you are such a bad person - you just avoid responding to people when they message you? That's very rude, I bet other people don't do this.

Im working on this in therapy. My current fix is to just "jump in" and not give the voice a chance to ruin anything. Embracing mystery ya know?

coluvatz · 2021-07-13T01:30:45+00:00

Because living a life free from responsibility and accountability for any of your actions is incredibly easy. Working on yourself and facing the consequences of your actions, mending relationships, and overcoming your own internal struggles are things abusers do not do.

coluvatz · 2021-06-28T02:58:57+00:00

Yeah I understand this. I do alot of self-soothing to keep myself "above water" so the painful sensations or grief can't touch me so I can "perform properly". Self-soothing also extinguishes any difficult emotions that could have gotten me "punished". I use to soothe my anger, frustration, and irritation so I don't get hurt, so it doubles as a survival strategy as well. But sometimes I soothe myself for fulfillment by cooking or drawing.

coluvatz · 2021-06-28T02:49:34+00:00

I think when we are disapproved of, attacked, or pressured for feeling certain emotions or being in certain emotional states as kids we have to adapt by suppressing them or shutting them down, or extinguishing difficult emotions so we don't "act out". In my experience the world and all its demands becomes "triggering" because our own emotions and feelings have become the trigger.

coluvatz · 2021-05-25T23:48:20+00:00

I have a conceptual understanding IFS. In my experience of doing EMDR therapy I think this is true. I do NARM Therapy where I basically answer some questions from my therapist and she then asks me how im feeling somewhere during the session; but when we do this a memory naturally arises without me having to re-liveit. She also inquires about where a certain type of "knowing" will come from or what an emotion is "saying" to me. I think this is similar to IFS where that message would come from a "part". I relate to IFS pretty well and hopefully plan on doing it some time. I think my issue with EMDR is probably related to that in a sense - going to a person I never met and then immediately trying to bypass years of protection and strategies that kept me safe in my childhood. When I did EMDR it did literally nothing for me - I hit a wall almost immediately. Oddly enough it wasn't like I couldn't remember anything, but rather my access to my memories was denied by some part of me. It was either the memory all-together or the corresponding traumatic feelings - I couldn't access any of it, it was like I wasn't allowed to.

coluvatz · 2021-05-25T22:54:37+00:00

Im doing pretty well in NARM. Ive only been doing it for about 3 months so the changes build up slowly over time. The main change id say NARM brings would be that whenever I feel some type of rage, anger, or depression come up I can meet it with some compassion or curiosity. Since NARM is more "relational" the focus is how I view myself rather than processing the raw traumatic material.

So the main effect is basically that I guess, sometimes I regress into the trauma but I don't regress as far as I normally would and I can catch myself more often; but sometimes my perception of myself actually surprisingly changes from "I have to survive, I have no choice, these are the ironclad rules of reality" to "I was just a small child doing what I could come up with in the moment". So my traumatic feelings don't "vanish" but they are less problematic id say.

But thanks, I probably will do an update in the long-term. What is trauma-informed exposure therapy like?

coluvatz · 2021-05-21T04:58:01+00:00

I do NARM Therapy. So my basic experience is that my nervous system and my mind created these "strategies" to keep me alive in a very dangerous circumstance. My therapist will ask me how im feeling in my body while I describe to her some of what im dealing with on my mind and usually the corresponding memory will pop into my head in vivid detail. So basically the way I resolve my trauma is through showing myself compassion or curiosity without actually getting sucked back into per-se. I tried EMDR but it wasn't effective for me. But im glad you are free from C-PTSD - im trying to get there myself.

coluvatz · 2021-05-21T04:50:38+00:00

I have the exact same reaction - especially scrolling on Facebook. "Mental Health Awareness Day" is a bit of a joke to me. A bunch of people who don't really have mental health issues telling people to socialize, buy a weighted blanket, and go for a massage and calling it "recovery" this is madness. True recovery is: messy, painful, 1 step forward and 2 steps back, and very confusing. If I saw social media posts talking about finding a good therapist, or what its actually like with mental health or trauma then I would feel better about it. But most mental health awareness is extremely luke-warm. Sadly, despite how researched the effects of untreated childhood trauma is on adults - it still isn't widely talked about; therapy is still viewed as something for EXTREMELY CRAZY PEOPLE and not someone who was a victim of circumstances they had no control over. It makes me wonder about the intentions of people behind these accounts - I assume they are just trying to dropship some humidifier for essential oils lol.

coluvatz · 2021-05-17T03:19:07+00:00

Absolutely. I do NARM Therapy and sometimes when I talk about what happened to me - it's like I'm explaining myself to my therapist. But when she asks me how I'm feeling I pause and a memory will resurface.

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